So saturday night I worked.  Yeah.  I worked from 5:00pm and I was only supposed to work until 10:00, but I knew that I wouldn't get off until at the most 10:30 because we had to close and clean the whole place up.  I live 15-20 minutes from the mall (which is where I work), and I didn't get home until 11:30pm.  We took 2 hours to clean up Saturday night, which is not fun, especially when you have to get up the next morning early for Easter.  I didn't get to bed until 12:00 and then got up at 7:00.  I wanted to cry.  Today I am at school until 11:00ish, and then I get to go home.  BUt then I work from 5-10.  Again.  I work 5-close tonight, thursday, and friday, and then 4-10 saturday.  Which is GOING TO SUCK!  Yup.  So... That's my week so far.  I have school today until 11:00 then work tonight.  Tomorrow I have one class.  Wednesday I have class from 8:30 to 11:00 and then I have a break until 7:00, and then I have class until 10:00.  I have class on thursday and then work until 10:00, same on friday, and then just work on saturday.  Oh boy.  This is going to be really interesting.  Plus, I have midterms this week, and a paper due Thursday.  I already started it, but I haven't had the chance to finish it yet.  So, between work, school and homework, I don't know how I'm going to fit everything in.  Ughhh.... Haha.  Pray for me.  I just need the strength to get everything done that I need to get done.  I am really waiting for next week when I have spring break.  So, pray that I make it to then. Ha

~Meghan

Ok, so- this is like my only way to talk to people anymore, so I don't think that I will give up on xanga world.  I may not be able to write on it all the time, considering it's been quite a while since my last post, but I will still be able to check up on it. 
    So, this week has been interesting for me.  I've started a new job.  I am now a Chic Fil A girl at the Dover Mall.  So, I'm on my second week there, and so far it's good.  Busy life for me with school and work, but it's a good challenge. 
    I have a friend at school that we met this semester and have gotten really close.  Which is a little bit weird for me, because, I'm not really one who allows myself to get close to new people in the span of like 2-3 weeks.  But, it's happened.  So, it's got to be a God thing.  This girl is so sweet and nice.  We are part of this leadership thing for UD so that's how we met.  But, we're also in my Music class that I'm taking, and she asked me to write a paper with her- and I was like sure, whatever- not really thinking that we would do it (we did write it together, and did an amazing job, I might add).  Well, we met a day at the mall to start to write the paper, and we exchanged cell numbers and email addresses, just so we could talk it over.  Well, that turned into us just texting about other things, which then turned into just talking about ourselves.  This past weekend, I talked to her and asked her the normal questions, how are you, what are you up to, etc.  Well, she didn't say much, just "I could be doing better".  That's it.  I had no idea what to think or take from that, so I just left it at that.  Monday comes, and we walk to music together, and she tells me that this guy that she was friends with, grew up with- committed suicide on Thursday.  She tells me this out of the blue on Monday.  I, for the first time, had no idea what to say to her.  What do you say to someone who just lost a friend?  Other than the usual, no-thought-to-it "I'm sorry".  I've never had to know someone that has gone through that.  But, then- like other things, situations, and people, she just tells me this out of the blue.  I always seem to attract people who need help.  Why is that.  Anyway, last night was the viewing for this boy.  He was 17, a junior at Smyrna High school, was involved in every thing possible at school.  But, just did not feel the need to want to live life anymore.  Tonight is the funeral for him.  All yesterday, my friend was walking and basically living in a cloud.  She said that it didn't really sink in that he was gone until yesterday.  Today, I saw her, and she said she was doing a little better, but she still is not wanting to think about going to the funeral tonight- but is going.  This really hit me hard.  I love life, and yes.  I have my bad days.  I have my really bad days- days where I just want to crawl into a ball, and not see anyone at all.  But- killing myself has never been an issue for me to even think of the pros and cons.  I know that seems harsh and hard.  But, that's the truth of it all.  How could anyone do that?  There has to be so much crap and lies put into people, into that kid to have made him even think about doing that to himself.  And now.  He can never take that back.  The lies that the devil puts into your head is just heart wrenching sometimes. 
    Anyway.  That has been my week so far.  I know that this was long, and thank you to those who stuck through it and read what I wrote.  This makes me think that I should have a podcast;) Hmm???

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