Being alone with your thoughts can be a scary place sometimes...all these thoughts that you've not dwelled on in forever can rush at you, choke you up. The most random things, really. The next thing you know you're smiling, laughing out loud. This happened to me at work today. I can't remember what triggered it...something someone said, did. I was almost in a fit of laughter, tears streaming down my face. It would be pointless for me to tell you what it was...you wouldn't know what I was talking about anyway...but just the same it happened. It felt so good to laugh like that...deep from the pit of your stomach until it aches so bad you can't breathe. It was embarassing, not until about five minutes later but it was worth it. You never know until those moments pass you by that they will be momories stuck like gum at the back of your head...and then they just pop into view at the most inappropriate times. Breathtaking.

It's been awhile...A lot has changed since the last time I posted anything...Jackson, My son is a year old now! He is the best thing thats ever happened to me...hands down. I've started school again...Journalism, It's what I want to do most with my life. My husband and I are doing great, everything is good right now. I ran into an Ex boyfriend the other day while I was shopping with Jackson...and his jaw dropped. He had no idea I was married or had a baby. I just had to laugh. He was up to the same old and I was miles away...funny, I couldn't help but think about what it would be like if I were still with him...I wouldn't be where I am now. I wouldn't have my son, my house or at least not this one...it's strange to think that your path could be so different from what it is. Just one decision away from being in a different place. Scary too. I f I had stayed with my high school sweet heart I'd probably be chasing entirely different dreams...a different way. Not bad, just different. I'm happy with the path I've chosen, but I think it's okay to think about the what if's too.

Hey, sorry I haven't updated lately but Motherhood truly is a diffrent world. I absoutely love it. Jackson Alan Kelly came into the world on August 10th, 2006 at 3:23 p.m. weighing 7pds. 4oz. He has blue eyes and blonde hair and is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen...ever. He sleeps all day and stays up all night...so I do the same, when possible. It's terrifying to love someone so much. It's wonderful. Life takes on a totally different shape.

Other than the obvious changes...life is great right now. How are you?