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Hey guys! Its day 2 of no boyfriend for a little more than a week. I tried soo hard to occupy myself today! I didn't end up going to science north.. witch totally sucked.. I really wanted to go. but oh well.. life goes on.

Allright, so.. Today i woke up around 10 ish like nearly screaming because of my gay dream.. I dreamt that i was being watched.. like stalking.. really.. It was so weird.. in my dream, i was at work and some guy told my stalker to keep an eye on me.. so thats what he did.. so he followed me everywhere. i was soo scared.. the guy even came out of the toaster oven and grabed my legs .. but thats when i got up.. so.. yeah..( if anyone can tell me what my dream means, that would be great!) hahah

I went to Michaels today.. I picked up some scrapbooking supplies.. I want some stuff done by the time Ben comes back.. :) I wanna show him haha. yeah i spent 130$ on scrapbooking supplies. sooo sad. but whatever .. after that i went to harveys . I hate a poutine. yumm.. but for some reason they're gravy isn't that great... i dunno its not my fav.. but yeah.. then i went to the source to pick up some special paper for like photo's. and some ear phones.. i think my sister stole mine so.. yeha.. then i went to the store and got some food for supper. I had this like nacho dip shit.. it was soo yumm!

Then i went home.. worked on some scrapbooking a little.. made plans for the night.. and now i have the vehicle for the movies! YAY! I'm going to see that new harold and kumar movie in the theaters.. Should be interesting. and yeah.. i gotta work tomorrow.. Laaaameee! i know. 11:30-6.. not bad.. 6 and a half hours..

i miss my boyfriend. :( aweee. I wanna chill with himmmmm.. but oh well.. I'll chill with him next saturday.. it should be lots of fun.. well.. we'll have lots to catch up on.. so yeah! I cant wait to hear of the stories and the fun times that he had in europe!

BAH. Anyway.. I'm done here. I'm gonna go do something that will occupy me for a while till i have to leave for the movies.

Take care guys! I'll write again tomorrow!

Melanie. xx

When your gone, will I lose control?

 Allright. So I havn't updated in such a long time. I'm so sorry! I've been real busy with school, sports, boyfriend and work!

So my boyfriend left for Europe for a week. He's gone to Paris, Barcelona and Germany with an other 30 students of the school. I'm totaly jealous! But thats allright. I go to Costa Rica next year! Gonna be sweet! Anyhow, I'm boyfriendless for a week. and its gonna be so hard on me, i mean I'm with him like everyday of the week.. or at least see him. so now its just to occupy myself for the week. I'll try and keep you guys posted on what I do. :P and then I'll prove to my boyfriend that i can be busy even when i dont have him.

Allright so today i didn't do much.. I cleaned, showered, gotten ready, went outside and enjoyed the rainy weather. Not bad.. then i decided to look up for some crazy pictures on the internet.. For some reason I'm like obssessed with city's.. I dont know why.. but i love those pictures! I've decided i want to take a trip to new york one day for a weekend or even for a week.. this summer.. but thats if i can manage to have the time off..

haha I just side tracked a little.. Sorry.

so after that, I decided to write a blog since i havn't done that in months. (witch i'm totally sorry for!) and i worked a little on some scrapbooking. Now its like 6pm and i gotta get ready for gay work.. Yeah i still work at fuckin timmies.. GAY!. I work 7 to midnight.. Such a shitty shift.. but i'm lucky cause i have saturday off.. yeah.. imagine that.. saturday without my boyfriend.. I'm planning to go to science north and go prom dress shopping for my boyfriend's grad.. and then go for a fire at Britney's house. Should be fun! I hope i can get the vehicle though. I mean , my mother should make it up to me.. she didn't let me take the car to work tonight.. so.. oh well.

Anyhow, enough about my day..

I'm totally obssessed with this song called 'drive my soul' by lights.  Mint song. I promise you's. Heyy if anyone has any mint songs i can download. Comment my blog! I want to add some sweet old/new music.. I'm really digging the indie, classic rock music.. Oh and i cant forget the electronica music! soo sweet.

anyway,., thats all for now.. I'll comment tomorrow! let you guys know how i'm doing with this whole week without my boyfriend and all the fun i'm having..

Melanie. xx

P.S. Heres your little update!

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   heyy there! sorry for not updating in a while! I've been busy, studying and with work and homework. CRAZY. Theres  been a bit of drama going on this week. I'm just glad the week is over! Anyhow heres your update!

Enjoy!

Melaniee. xx

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You've got to follow your passion. You've got to figure out what it is you love - who you really are and you have to have the courage to do that. I believe that the only courage anybody ever needs is the courage to follow your dreams.

Life takes your dreams and turns them upside down. Friends talk about you when you're not around. People make promises they just cant keep. And I've come to realize that talk is cheap. Too often we dont realize what we have until its gone. Too often we wait to long to say "I'm sorry, I was wrong." Sometimes it seems we hurt the ones we hold dearest to our hearts and we allow foolish things to tear our lives apart.

This is for the girls who never won. The girls who sat late at night listening to music that inspires them to do things next to impossible. The girls that laugh, smile and cry on a daily basis. The girls who live, learn and regret. The girls who may never have it easy. The girls who learned the hard way, and lived to tell others about it. The real girls.

SORRY SHORT UPDATE!

all the pretty girls go to city.

Oh my lord. So I'm pretty psyched for the concert. I mean theres less than 2 weeks! As if! Matchbox Twenty is gonna rule! So yeah I'll be in Toronto for the weekend. Now to find some more sweet concerts of my all times favourite bands: All Time Low, Boys Like Girls.. Theres more. I just dont want to type much today. :D Yeah I know I'm a lazy peice of shit. haha. Anyway. I'll update tomorrow or something.

Melanie. xx

We're wild like children

Hey there! I'm back and done my exams. I went to my FRANCO tournament. It was soo much fun! My coach was telling us dirty jokes the ride there and back. and said that he called his penis Big Bubba. Like we were thinking of a bunch of pet names. haha. So much hotel fun. and of course cute hockey boys close by. :) Anyway heres my update!

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if you run away now,
will you come back around?
and if you ran away, i'd still wave goodbye..
watching you shine bright.

the saddest people i've ever met in life are the ones
who don't care deeply about anything at all. passion
and satisfaction go hand in hand and without them,
happiness is only temporary because there's nothing
to make it last. i love to hear people talk about what
they're most passionate about, because that's
when you see the person at their best.

We all die. The goal isn't to live forever,
the goal is to create something that will.

We were given two hands to hold,
two legs to walk,
two ears to listen,
But why only one heart?
Because the other one
was given to someone for us to find.

[ and if you go, ]
i wanna go with you.
[ and if you die, ]
i wanna die with you.

Summer;;(n.)
No drama.so no tears.
Friends that stay together over the years.
late nights and pillow fights.
suntanned skin.school is out.
and summer is a check in.

You're turning me on, Your turning me around
You turn my whole world upside down,
and you know... you turn me upside down

we've been following
each other all night now
we ought to be all over
each other like right now
i don't like crowds
lets take flight now
cause that face that you make
reminds me of my life now.

why cant they understand the way we feel
they just don't trust what they cant explain
I know we're different
But deep inside us
We're not that different at all..

"its okay. its okay to want someone you cant have.
its okay to keep friendships when you dont want them,
or want something more. its okay to cry when you're hurt,
& its okay to stay mad at someone who hurt you.
believe it or not, its always gonna be okay.
thats just how it works. sometimes, things dont always
work out the way you want them to,
& a lot of times, it seems like they never will.
but its okay, thats how lifes suppose to go.
its all about learning how to deal with the bumpy parts
in the road & waiting til they're smooth again.
its all about forgiving & forgetting.
its all about waiting & wishing.  [that's just how life is]."