i miss being 12 years old.
after i turned 13 everything seemed to have gotten complicated.
oh well.

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you know what i just realized?  and yes it might sound dumb that i just realized it but.. god told us in the bible "what love is."  he told us that it is patient, kind, doesn't keep a record of wrongs and other things.. but then why do people say they "love" someone truly but then they are not patient with the person... they are not kind... and they most definately keep a record of wrongs?  it flaberghasts me at the thought of it.. especially when you can truly love someone without the love of god in your heart...

JAMA 2008 - The New Awakening

I just got back from Jama today.  haha i had like only 3 hours of sleep in the van.. it was horrible kekeke
I don't want to say I didn't enjoy Jama... but I don't know what is going on... I don't know how to describe it.  It felt a lot like just another fad.. i have NO CLUE.. whatever.

but on the van ride home, mobum obba... oh man he thought my last name was Oh the whole time~  I've known him for about 2 years now and he thought my last name was Oh~~ It was pretty funny~ he looked so confused hahaha.

I hate my job. I want to go to 180.  I maight go but I only have one day for everything.. I think I will just have to wait until next year or this winter.  I don't know if I can even go next year because I think i'll be in korea.  I'll probably see everyone when I am a college student.. omg omg stresss.... hahahaha okay~~ byebye!!

hello my dear~

i'm so confused with xanga.
why is it so different and confusing?
i liked it like 3-4(?) years ago hahaha.

It's been long ^^;;

hello there~  keke
it's been a while since I got on this thing hehe.  I wanted to listen to this song on my xanga so i came here.. and then i started reading a few of my old blogs... and i went about 4 pages back and i just.. couldn't go back further and read any more ㅠㅠ i sound like a retard in most of them.. and even if i have a good "point" in any of the ones I read.. i still sound like a retard ㅡㅡ;;

when i come back and come across this one i'll probably be even more embarassed...

i also think my spelling got worse... keke

The Beatitudes~

"Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is in the kigdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the eart.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for the will be filled.
Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called sons of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is in the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are you when people insult you,
persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me.
Rejoice and be glad,
because great is your reward in heaven,
for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you."

Mathhew 5:3 -12

keke i haven't read this in a while until i went to bible study today in a LOOONG time at someone else's church since my church doesn't have anything.  i really enjoyed it. we studied revelations today about the 7 churches. 
i feel better.  reading the bible make me feel safer... smarter?.. wiser??.. i don't know. it just makes me feel like i'm actually doing something right. reading the bible doesn't mean you go to heaven, duh, but it does teach you about our lord.. maybe that is why i like it. even if i read a scary chyapter from revelations or something i still feel better knowing reading is somewhat helping me.. preparing me.. for the final days i guess you could say.

i'm just rambling. i've fallen a lot from God in the past year, i admit... i'm guilty about it shameful. i want to seek after righteousness again. i want to be on fire again. i want to grow.

i guess i'm starting new in this part of the year to try to live a more holy life.  i hope that even if i fall i will get back up with the lord's help and my brother's and sister's help.

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