This xanga thing died for a me a long time ago.  I lost track of life for a while when I got busy, and fortunately for me I have the summer time to keep from going insane.

This will most likely be the last entry on it, seeing as how maybe, and I stress maybe, two or three people are actually still reading this thing.  They are probably dead from boredom now.

To sum up the time in between posts: finished school, one of my best friends dropped out, drank more, visited Utah and Colorado state, decided on CSU officially for grad school, got my worst gpa in 4 years, dealt with serious relationships being full of shit and got see-sawed to death, and then FINALLY got a magic piece of paper declaring me finished with college and went to colorado again to secure an apartment, and started training again here in Texas before leaving, and never really coming back.

I no longer have profound things to say, and I feel a bit like I'm starting at square one.  Only a better square one.  I'm more cautious now.  More thoughtful too, more caring and more concerned at the welfare of others.  I learned a lot during my time at baylor. 

I'm tired.  Waking up in 7 hours to ride for 5+.

yep.  would've been nice.  now I still have a paper to write due thursday, 3 labs to finish due tuesday, and an exam on wednesday.

total preparation: 30%
total "i'm screwed on at least one of the above": 100%

EDIT

Today was nice and productive.  After sifting through all sorts of papers and data reports, I managed to grind through about 6 major pubs and glean some insight for my paper.  I also finished a couple of labs, which fortunately were very elementary in their requirements... sometimes they are.  Most times they can take up to 2-3 hours just to perform, thank God in this case they weren't.

I had a fantastic weekend though.  As usual though, when one thing is going well, I've had to sacrifice something else to make it that way, and I'm gaining weight as a result.  I just dont have time to train and get through the rest of this semester.  I hate it.  I will have to rape myself to get back in shape so I don't get lazy over Christmas break and get fat again in the spring.  It was ok to ride Bs with extra baggage, but if I try that shit with the A riders I'll get dropped faster than a hot potatoe.

I hope when I leave here, I will be more at home.

Going to a concert this weekend, should be awesome.  Of Montreal, New Pornographers and Explosions in the Sky in their native element down in ATX.... yes, the tickets weren't really cheap, but hey, it's a get out of town card and I accept those readily.  Interestingly enough, I'm attending with a friend from my foreign language class who had not heard most of the bands until this week... which was enough to make her want to attend. 

This place is so used, it's a health hazard, really.  Hope wherever I end up is better.

My mom had her knee replaced today... kind of hard to believe.  The surgeon did it in 90 minutes.  That just seems really quick to me.  But she's ok, and apparently he did a perfect job... it's so impressive how far medicine has come along.  She's starting physical therapy tomorrow, I can only imagine what that's going to be like. 

Somehow, I'm getting away with only having to take 14 hours my last semester here.  I got the magic sentence on my degree audit the other day.  Nice to know. 

I cannot hit my stride on the KOW ride anymore.  There are two or three guys that come out now who can keep a high pace for the short amount of time that we ride and so it's not a gimme race anymore.  I've lost the last three despite the fact that for two of them, I was off the front for most of the race, up until the closing tenths of a mile.  Today I burnt a whole box of matches trying to attack up to a break of the strongest riders who had opened a small gap which didn't get closed by the guy in front of me.  I had to hold a pace of 34 mph to slowly close it over about half a mile into the wind.  It was ridiculous.  We're going to try and continue the ride this year into the winter to keep everyone in shape and prepared for next season... it should help me for sure.  I slack in the off season without any competition.  Now if only I had a cross bike....