MiKkO_521's Xanga

Monday, October 03, 2005

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 20:08:32 GMT

Hey everyone well its a new month and time to start again...I was thinking and i thought so i wrote something maybe ya'll could relate to. Its called "selfish"

Id always wanted to be inlove with the perfect girl, now that i have grown i found a perfect woman for me. Shes someone i know i could lay it all on the line for and give up and sacrifice even the most sacred things in my heart. Can I ask you all something? Would you give up a friend for the love of your life? I asked that because people always say or ask themeselves, " am I a true friend "? Ask yourself that question because it is you who needs to ask yourself if you yourself is true to yourself. Friends come and go but never forgotten right? But if the love of your life were to tell you " let them go baby ", would you actually do it? Sometimes doing the right thing isn't doin the right thing. Sometimes hurting the one friend the one person that cares for you is the right thing because sometimes for their own reasons, thats the way it has to be. Would you call that selfish? or would you define that as, " I did it because the love I have for her/him is so strong that i can't give up now". People do it because they KNOW that a lifes love won't come again. Think about it 6.5 billion people in this world and there is only one person who is meant for you, is that true? In my own opinnion NO, why do i say that because many of you out there thought that many of your relationships was or were the one right?

Now many of us like myself has traveled played along with the games and B.S. and chasing around. I got tired of messing around wasting time. I was always looking for someone for me. May 7th 2004 it came unexpected but the love of my life found me. Its funny because i know she is meant for me. I saw here before maybe six months ago. I'll tell you guys. I used to work at FootactionUSA in Montgomery Mall and i saw her there with the family. I told my co worker " damn a gorgeous girl like that doesn't belong here more like belongs where beautiful things are only dreamt of touching " I swear those were my words. I came up to her and said " hi you doint mam,? may i be of assistance>? she said " no thank you " that was it. She left, with me dwelling and thinking to myself " I shouldve said something more like..........I thought and thought and nothing just blank. Six months later I saw here at the Silver spring cinema the new one on fenton and wayne AVE. I said no way. I said " damn no way, omg no way this is happenin" My cousin was with me at the time and a couple of my friends. I had no car at the time, i was hangin with them. I told my couz " hey leave me here" Richard (cousin) said " you sure"? i said " yeah im sure i know what im doin " So with no car and 5 dollars cash in my pocket and only 22 bucks on my atm card i asked her " hey?...remember me?" she said " yeah " I said " so what movie you gonna watch would you like to watch one with me?" I was by myself and she was with her sister so it was kool to ask she said yes. It was great.

So i ask all of you do you think being selfish is bad or good or it depends? leave one for me and gemme an answer. aiight yall god bless and take care always.

mikko

Friday, September 23, 2005

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 02:11:08 GMT

Better days will come to me. However my problems in life are not bigger than the people who actually prey to stay alive the next morning. I was always told " look forward, don't live your own life in the past where it was only a memory of deception and pain". Ever since i never look back. Long before i was told of that advice, I myself tried to look into my past life and see for myself if i could get an answer. 8 years later I can speak for many that looking for answers may reveal a truth that could shatter your ambitions. Maybe distrought you in some way. Only in time that you will recieve that answer when your mind and soul is clear from any pain. I speak of this because of my own experience i didn't listen to the advice 8 yrs ago, and today i dream about it still when i lay myself to sleep.

The same goes for personal achievments and giving a hand. I always criticized myself in what i do and in what i give. But in the end of the day of my hard work and my commitment to sacrifice my body for the love ones in my life to enjoy theirs as best as they can. I know someday if i keep focus keep my eyez on prize and my dreams to become reality, I will see them smiling and with tears of joy. I never said " Its not good enough". I always felt the appreciation because of the love i have for them. I love all you guys back home. I love you bhe.

As always take care god bless. Heres a quote that maybe everyone should take down and guess who wrote it. I'll write my own and another by someone else.

-" only the truly good are truly great "

-" for what may not destroy you, may your soul prevail"

aiight peace ya'll

Sunday, September 11, 2005

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 17:23:25 GMT

Hey everyone

I apologize again for not updating so much...well nothing really new only that i got ran over by a vehicle at work...My foot is basically paralized now i don't feel anything from my knee down. So it sucks, workers comp. hasn't come in yet so that makes my financial life great...lolz. But think ill be fine. I just wanna get back to work 100% healthy.

Also I have been reading all these bulletins people postin up. I disagree that the tragedy of events in New Orleans is similar to the TERRORIST events this date four yrs ago. I understand the victims cry for help. But nevertheless they knew that a storm was coming at a grade 4 of a hurricane. So hello common sense get outta there. I do not wish to swear here because the people who complain about ummm " wer black no one will help us " is a lot of B.S. Such ego don't you agree? EGO EGO. I mean the past is not the future so y do certain individuals put things in a perspective that relates to the past? Such b*****s. Suck it up. Is their lives so important that i have to give them mine?

The 911 tragedy was so bad it came unexpectedly but the New Orleans tragedy knew weeks and weeks in advance. & yes i have been doing some research to those individuals who think that my pay to pay check living earns them the right to tell me US, the 72% of americans who are in debt to give them my or OUR 110% hard work, sweat, and sacrifice to them. PLS SUCH BS Choke on something. Preparation is the key to life to unexpected events. Its not our fault. I feel bad i do i understand there loss Ive lost love ones ive lost my valued possesions. I wanna let them know my experience with hardship. Growin up my only talent was fighting. With my mouth and with my fists my guns and knives. Another example in the Philippines, to my fellow pnoys n pnays i remember that a part in the philippines is a landfill, there is a population of i think 10,368 men women children babies died because of a landslide and they didn't see it coming. Did anyone really help i mean did a international nation come and help them no. did they give them a house to live in once again? no! Did the people who died get a proper burial? no. Till this day they are barried dead with no nothing to cover their rinked bodies. DID ANYONE FUCKING HELP>? NOO!!!! did the redcross come over to give food and water to those people? NOO!

This is my last one. What about that tsunami that hit indonesia and a lot of the other surrounding countries. No people didn't know it was coming, BUT THOSE MOTHA FUKKIN SCIENTISTS KNEW. They in their offices getting paid 100K a yr and they know the risk so they took the risk by not letting the other neighboring countries know about the earthquake look what happened a lot of people died because of some scientist was to busy sittin on his ass bein lazy and makin his money while in a matter of hours 100s of thousands of people were going to suffer something that was catastrophic. These scientists knew the risks. THEY JUST DIDN'T GIVE A FUCK. So all these fukkin excuses and shit you fukkin scientists can choke on it.

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 01:48:10 GMT

wassssaaaa...damn i know i said frm now on id update my life n errthang but just workin n workin...lolz...back @ montgomery mall as security...hahahahah. Anyways its pretty cool not to hard but it ain't easy either but i like tha pipol i work wid.

This past weekend i went to a iriganu picnic saw all family friends and new onez saw my home boi matt, came frm school up in boston....watch he prolly gonna be the new kayne west hahahaha. Fo real tho he gotz beatz. Just chilled. Saw my lil sista...baby jean damn i missed her a lot...she so funny hahahaha...but damn it was bad tho it was raining like iono wut though n we still had the picnic hahahah how f***** ghetto is dat. Then went to uncle billiez...saw my other lil sistaz dat i take care of...Jess, nadine, mayelle ( i spell it like dat i think its cute neways) , and baby jean...n my lil baby akiko awww she so cute...lolz gettin all gentle up n here hahaha.

Well dat was saturday, sunday i went to FILIPINO FESTIVAL it was tite, i saw my bestest friend in the world...BESTA I MISS YOU TLGA finally got to see you....wow. Saw so many people there that didn't recognize me coz i lost weight<<<<yea right im still a big fat dude lolz. Of course saw the finest asian chix up in there...of course pnayz hahahah. GR group performed i heard but i didn't make it on time to get there to watch them. That sucked but i saw the dance performance...I went with my home boi prolly the coolest cat i know...Rjay...he like my brotha, with his gf arlene, dinah, and her boi and some other girl...with her baby son...damn she cute, n her son was cute...love babiez man...my boiz prolly gonna ask me, "yo mikko wassup with da sensual stuff" lolz damn iono, im gettin old people, damn i just turned 20 on may 21st shit yo...fukkkk n aaaaaaaa....lolz. And right now i just got home frm work damn im tired as shit...tommorrow me n my boi Nawni gonna go leak up under some apartments to move up in...Kings farm is wer we wanna look coz its a nice place wer my car is safe thank god...how many times have my shit gottn into damn. but no more...im only movin out coz im ready not coz i wanna leave yall lolz dats wut some or most people do tho...but i just told my folks im ready to move and grow up...well tommorrow bout the same time ill be updatin ya'll i mean it this time hahahah aiight to all my boiz n tha hunniez i don't ever get to talk to lolz...peace ya'll be safe...alwayz...

mikko

Wednesday, February 25, 2004

Wed, 25 Feb 2004 15:46:01 GMT

wuts up errbody...damn...wed...i had a day off today...my home boi B is here bout ta see em in montgomery mall...lets see nething new naw not really just chillen. Oh yea on friday night i went to Jerrys...damn i hate motha fukkaz who run dey mouth...shit i got searched for damn fukkin reason...damn po poz. well damn imma just hit this entry laterzzz peace yall.

Saturday, February 21, 2004

Sat, 21 Feb 2004 17:31:47 GMT

lolz damn woke up frm the dead...lolz been too bz to even make time for myself well don't worry to my shawtyz n my boyz im chillin for four dayz yo..neways life is wonderful just chillin damn...aiight yall hit this xanga some other time ok peace

mikko

Wednesday, January 28, 2004

Wed, 28 Jan 2004 22:44:01 GMT

damn yall i know its been a long time i haven't put a log on here for like a month and a half geeze...lolz. neways i been so busy with work and other stuff like you know well of course ya don't. lets see wuts new umm....oh yea i hate snow now ive seen to much of it damn it. I got a speeding ticket like 3 weeks ago frm today shit its like 135 dollars luckily i don't have the real licsense or im fucked. I got a page on friendster so if ya guys got one just look me up aiight neways frm this day forward i swear ill log on something aiight neways aiight peace yall...

Thursday, December 18, 2003

Thu, 18 Dec 2003 22:24:58 GMT

hey ya'll im at work damn its so dead...no people comin n today....neways bout to see my lil sisterz baby jean, nadine, n jessica, and ysmaelle. i miss you all and imma see my boi matt and the koolest gurl i know vanessa. lolz ill see you guyz soon. Imma write something for you baby...

One word is all i need, just one say is alli need to hear frm you iloveyou from the bottom of my heart to the fullest of my soul. Ill love you forever for the rest of my life. I miss you terribly i love you more than ever iloveyou bhe...iloveyou, my sunshine my love of my life, my everything i need. Waves that remind me of you just so strong hitting me with the current that you brought in me...love...iloveyou for because you love me for me and for who i'am and what i have become when im with you. Muahz the world is all yourz just as my heart as well. Mahal na mahal kita walang iba. love you bhe....

mikko!

Tuesday, December 16, 2003

Tue, 16 Dec 2003 12:18:05 GMT

wassup yall...neways just feel like imma write something for my baby

How can i just say this...i love you, i love you, and i love you more everyday. Healing and gently caring for my heart, i swear to you ill give you whatever you need whatever you want, and the loving that you deserve. I will never desert you in a way that you feel lonely. Id die even if you felt one bit of loneliness in your heart. Id cross the hells gate a million times to be with you. To be with you is all i want, to hold you is what i yearn for, to kiss you is a wish when i hold you in my arms. To love you, to love you to the fullest of my imagination. Alam mo ba bhe? kaw ang buong buhay ko, mahal ko, at puso ko. Mamahalin kita hangang........hangang kailan...ewan basta mahal na mahal kita....Ill love you even if the world came crashing down. I'll love you forever coz i know forever has no end. And I know this no other man will love you more i do...I tired of growing old because of heartache and pain. I desperately long to hold you. To share walks on the beach, laying on the sand falling asleep in each others presence in our arms. I love you more than any other girl that i have ever been with. I believe in it so much that "your the one", yet that i tell myself to stop and think and be careful. But im ready to love you and get hurt. If youd like me to prove my love then i ask the lord to take me into his world and let me watch over you and come back. Im willing sacrifice anything and everything that i have. All you see here and all you feel is all yourz. ALL OF IT. I have run my course of loving, and like i said my course has ended with you. I love you so much. More than you could ever imagine. I love you...

Thursday, December 11, 2003

Thu, 11 Dec 2003 00:03:39 GMT

hey yall damn finally got some time to like drop something up in here, errrbody stay away frm me...i got the sickest flu. Damn im so blown. Cant work shit lolz...neways i got out of that jam i was in like a week ago took care a dat. neways i wanna type something up to heartbroken girlz frm me. Ill type as if i was sorry not helpin ne of yall or no one at all.

So why, why do you dwell into my mind 24-7 always thinkin even before, me and you would fly up to heaven. Never will i forget the challenge that you layed before me, leaving me, abandoning me, deserting me all but alone, cold, all but heartbroken. The feeling of the winters chill into my heart i can feel every sheet of ice tearing just like the feeling that you left in my heart. Piece by piece as if you intentionally torturing my soul as you did toyed with my mind. I thought hahah i thought wrong. I thought you loved me enough, maybe i wasn't good enough. No matter don't feel pitty for me, rather for yourself as you regret of letting me go. I will never hinder the pounding of my heart to share my love to another. No matter how much it hurts i will always remember atleast i gave it all and i can still give once again.