OMG....I haven't updated for the longest time. Well now I have lots to write cuz' I have thought through many things after this HK-Thailand trip.

One of the biggest things that I figured out is in terms of relationships. All along, I thought I want someone who is social, have lots of bees around yet only like me (basically like Raymond Lam...haha i know, so unrealistic). But I have realized that this is not exactly what I can handle. Too many bees = no place for me and would make me feel inferior. Then I realized that what I really need is emotional security, and for the other person to make me feel good about myself and that I am valued, and he would purposely make time for me even when he is busy. Most importantly....strong and consistent communication. He would have to be flexible and be able to communicate just as well and close through ALL sorts of communication tools (msn, email, phone, in person...etc)....haha

The other day, I was talking to another friend about my I-bank friend. We were saying how once people are rich, they may change or become a player. I insisted that this I-bank friend of mine will not change even if he becomes very successful and rich one day. And I am certain to the point that even IF I am his gf and he has a LOT of beautiful and sexy bees around, that he still won't be a player, cuz' he is the type that knows exactly what he wants and is confident about what he decides on. Then I thought back and asked myself....woo wait....why did I say that? Why am I so sure about this friend's character? I can't really explain why I trust him so much. I often don't trust  handsome, tall, potentially rich, nice, social guys that much...hahaha. But somehow I just do. I think it's because he has very strong self-control, confidence in himself, and has guts. And that makes you feel so much more secure. It's almost as if he's looking you in the eye and telling you 'You can trust me'. Ok - so I have said so many things about this friend of mine and you must be wondering why me and him are not together....haha....well, it's because I don't have that romantic feeling for him...hahahaha....simple as that. I like him too much as a good friend...LOL.

During this trip, I also learned to let some things go sometimes. My grandpa has passed away last year, so my grandma is living alone. However, she's living very strong on her own. Then I realized that sometimes we can't be that 'jup jerk'. When it's time to let go, you must let go. Need to be able to 'pick it up and let it go'. Just cherish the time with family and friends even if it's short. Quality > Quantity. If there are things that you believe you should say/do, then say/do it before it's too late. Although there're always some things that might be better left unsaid. When it's time to part though, it's sad, but you still gotta let go and remain hopeful at the same time. Believe in 'Yuen Fun' ^_^!

From now on I need to be more independant and strong. I am planning to work in either Vancouver, Toronto or HK after I graduate. I could be on my own if I stay in Canada though...so I need to be strong. During this trip, I've also found some self-worth and confidence in myself...hahaha. I'm not super pretty, tall, or sexy. But I do have an attractive-healthy personality/unique character and a good sense of humour. I am not the centre of attention type, but am the soothing/comfort type...LOL.

Anyways, gonna' leave HK tonight. To all my friends in HK, I only have one message for you 'Yau yuen joi geen!'

'Yau yuen chin lei leng sern wui. Mo yuen geen meen but sern sik.' Bye for now! ^_^

To my friends in Van: See you soon!