I wouldn't Go As Far As To Say I Was Back
for now let's just be hesitantly accepting

You know, Ferris was right, life does move at you fast. I was just reading some old entries (obviously i am in an extreme boredom today) and it made me laugh and made me sad to read those entries of me in HS, of me going to WES, of me thinking I was old.

I was not old then. I am not old now. Time has not made his way with me and that in itslef is exciting, I think. When I was in HS i thought that was the best there was, i was horrified about college, couldn't imagine my life any happier. Then college came along and you could not pay me to return to my HS years and now I have not ever been any happier. Certainty is a word that I shudder at and envy at the same time. No, I really am not sure what the very near future holds for me. I know for certain now though, more than ever before, that it will keep getting better because the ability for change to be positive rests soley in the hands of the changed.

Since we last spoke: I has an amazing summer in the west. I became a licensed EMT, I got AN AMAZING grade in organic chemistry, and I finally stopped worrying about what I am doing after I graduate. Because deep down I know, and always have.

I leave for India in a little more than a week and I am sure that upon my return even this entry will be laughably outdated to me. But that's the beauty of writing things down willy nilly when they pop into your mind. They can stay there forever even when your thoughts have long dispersed, and reflection teaches a good lesson now and again.

Not That I Ever Make Sense Or Anything

But has anyone else noticed that the cingular orange dude who is their "mascot" of sorts, is mute?

Is that odd for a cell phone company trying to promote better communication?

Yea. New Mexico is awesome. I miss everyone. Organic Chemsitry is actually pretty cool thus far.

See What You've Done Is
put yourself between a bullet and a target

Pretty much standard. I am so bad with phones; keeping them working, picking them up, charging them, etc. So I'm sorry for the lame attempts at contacting everyone.

Fer sure I am going to be in New Mexico with the Jettie Word until August. Taking organic chemistry and working my ass off (and we know how that goes).

I love you all, I just needed a change. A massive one. and when I return in August it'll be all the more sweet -- assuming you remember me.

peace & love.
Safari.

TWO WORDS

Talib Kweli

two more words

Spring Fling

One Last Word

EARGASM.

The Gift That Keep On Giving

I really like being busy. I don't know if it's because it keeps me from thinking freely -- and thinking freely stresses me the flip out because whenever I allow my mind to travel it always travels to what am I going to do after I graduate? med school? where? how will i pay for that? how will i brain for that? . . . omg omg omg what if i cant provide for myself? omg omg omg

and so on.

In conclusion I am happiest when I am busy. Which means I am so going to be one of those people who can't leave their job at work. The kind of person checking their e-mail while on the beach in the Caribbean.

But that's OK. i'll be rich biatch.