Tired

Yea these past few weeks have been giving me massive headaches like the one I have right now. It's a feeling where the ""banging" never stops, it's just constantly hacking away at your brain until each and every little bit has been hacked away. OH GAWD, how many times have I told myself never ever procrastinate again. Look what you got yourself into Laura... Why do I procrastinate -__- I have came to a conclusion that I'll never be able to get rid of my procrastination. And to make things even worse, thinking about this certain someone is making my head ache even more. I'm feeling weezy about this situation between me and him. Should I sit around and wait for him? Should I just continue on with my life without him? Should I just leave my options open and see who takes the risk and knocks on this lil door of mine? and hopefully when I open that door it'll be prince charming . It seems like every guy I meet, I never really end up giving them a chance... Maybe it's because I know that from the beginning, the first time I see them, they open their lips, open their mouth, they speak, take a step, the way they present themselves I know that they're not the one. GAD Laura why don't you just give them a chance.... MMMmm but I should never settle for less... Yea so I guess the reason why I'm having doubts about this one guy is because it doesn't seem like he's really into me, but then again it seems like everytime I see him he seems like he is. I really don't know what to think. I'm super tired of waiting for him to reply to me, it's happened to me multiple times already. One time I stayed up for 3 hours waiting for him to reply back to me. Silly of me huh? I guess it's because I miss him. It's amazing the things you do when you miss someone. Yea that's another thing, how can you just leave like that without telling me, leaving me hanging... alone... Do I really want someone that will do that to me? I want someone to be there for me, giving me nice warm hugs when I get cold, when I'm in a grumpy mood to take the rain clouds away, to give me massages when I'm tired (like now), to take care of me when I'm sick and make me some nice hawt soup and spoon feed me ^^, and just BE there for me through thick and thin just like how I WILL be there for them. Sometimes I wonder if he does think about me, he says he does --- I should feel that he is thinking about me, but I can't seem to feel it -__- To whomever is reading this, it is random babbling... Should've told you earlier so you didn't need to waste your time reading it and to find out in the end that it's just some random girl randomily babbling about how stressed she is and her <3 situation. To be honest, j'adore the single life right now, no one to worry about, able to meet new people without your boyfriend being suspicious of all guys that you talk to or meet. BUT I have no time for that, I'm busy with school and procrastination -___- Anyone know of any doctors that can help me wipe away my procrastination? I need some serious help. I think I just need some motivation, and it doesn't seem like anyones there to guide and motivate me. I'm tired, I think I'm going to sleep... I've waited for another 3 hours? Yea...