I'm back... just for a little while. Just so I can say something that I've been keeping quiet about for so long.

A friend of mine confronted me last night. He told me that I'm not a nice and friendly person that I make myself out to be. He said I was fake, that I don't actually care about people. These comments aren't new to me. I've heard them, along with a gazillion other vicious rumours about me, before. And the message I want to put out is, exactly how nice do you want me to be? I wasn't put here on earth to make people happy, and if I was, well, obviously I've been failing miserably. There are only a small handful of nice people that I know. Whether they are all genuinely nice is a question I will never know, because I don't test them like all you morons out there. I never told people that I'm a nice person, you come up with that ideal yourself, so don't go off on me if I so happen to fall short of your expectations. I am a nice and friendly person. But don't expect me to call you every night to see how your life is going, don't expect me to pack a picnic lunch for you every weekend, or leave little mint chocolates on your pillow and mist your room with perfume. I'm sure there are people out there who do that, for whatever reasons they might possess, but I'm not that sort of person. I can be, I will try, but I'll probably get sick of it after a day or two. There are people out there whom I've offended and who in turn, have offended me. Be grateful I am a nice person overall. If not I'll be rolling my eyes, hissing, and chucking rocks at you every time we met. Would you prefer that, since I am supposedly not a nice person? Please. At the very least I'll either be civil, or just plain ignore you. If you don't know me, shut your yap. But to people who actually mean the world to me, my family, people who I can consider true friends, I can be a great person and they know that. What is there about my life that you find so interesting that you need to judge me on and spread rumours about me? That I can be an actual conversational topic? Wow. I'm pretty surprised since I consider myself a really boring person. Do you all subscribe to my daily magazine entitled "I Don't Have a Life That's Why I'm Obssessed with Joy's"? What losers. Go. Get out, make new friends, try a different blend of coffee maybe. Just do something exciting to keep you from sinking any lower than you are now.