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Thursday, May 15, 2008

  • Drawing near.....

    I read this one a blog yesterday and it’s been in my mind ever since……

    “He isn’t intimidated by my disappointment. It doesn’t make God turn away from me because I wish that things were different sometimes, in fact, it makes Him come nearer."

     I know at some point in my Christian walk, maybe more times that I care to admit I’ve been “disappointed in God”.  Not to the point where I would ever turn away, but wondering, “Why? I don’t understand? It’s not fair, YOU are God…..the Creator of the Universe!”

    Reading Angie’s words I was reminded that its okay for me to feel those things towards Him……He’s still going to love me even still.  Now isn’t that a wonderful Father?  It brings me back to my post a few weeks ago….I don’t always have to understand, I just have to Trust Him and draw near!  

    *on a side note, many have commented that it looked like I was "glowing" in the picture of Ama.  I most definitely not pregnant....I think holding a newborn just has a way of doing that to women! :) 

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

  • Happiness is.....


    A brand new baby!


    Introducing Nana Ama Ocran!  (Her "name" is her birth DAY (Ama is Saturday) in Ghana.  Her given name will be revealed on Sautrday in a naming ceremony that in their culture takes place one week after the baby is born.  Till then Johnstin is keeping tight lips on what it is.....Agnes doesn't even know!  In their culture the husband does the naming as well!)  She weighed exactly what Andrew weighed.....3.15kgs and as I held her I couldn't ever believe that Andrew was that small!


    Agnes, Johnstin, and Ama.......big sis Vero is in Ghana with the family.  Agnes will most likely join them in a months time.  She said that Vero has already told all her friends that she's a "big sister" now! 

    I was privilaged to stay with Agnes a bit in the begining stages of her labor.  Johnstin was running in and out taking care of the bills and getting her things together. She didn't want to be left alone as the room that she was in was a private one and rarely used (it costs about $30 a night)....she thought the nurses would forget her! We were also a bit concerned how Johnstin would do....he wasn't looking forward to being there and seeing her in so much pain (you'll be happy to know that he was in fact in the delivery room and was a trooper!).  So I stayed with her and we just chatted while we waited.  She told me about how as she was waiting for the nurses to ready her room that a lady in the bed next to her just had her baby right there in the bed.  The nurses came in and said, "You weren't supposed to have the baby now!"  Agnes said she almost ran out then and there!  Maun General isn't exactly a beautiful hospital.  It's been around since 1958 and it shows.  As her and I walked the halls (trying to get some progress) I walked passed roughly 30 women who were either in stages of labor or had just given birth. I can't even discribe the scene......it just blew me away!  Agnes finally said, "Lets not walk down the hall anymore.....it's scaring me!"  We both giggled and shuddered at the same time! :)  Here the nurses (which really are midwives) deliver the babies and only call a doctor as needed.  In Agnes' two night stay in the hospital she never saw a doctor!  The nurses on duty while I was there were pretty mean.  At one point she needed them and when I went to grab them they were all eating dinner.  They told me, "We'll come check her when we're done with our dinner.....she's fine!"  (I wanted to say, "Is that want you told the lady who gave birth in the bed this morning?" )  Being that I am "white" though I pushed and said, "No, one of you needs to come NOW!"  A few minutes later a very unhappy nurse came in. :) ha!  That same unhappy nurse notified me later that I needed to leave.....visiting hours were over!  :)  By that time Mma Adjei had gotten there and was settling in for round two with Agnes so I left her in good hands.  She said I could have stayed, but honestly, it was hard to see her in pain and not really be able to do much.  She's still thanking me for that.......I didn't do much, but she said just me being there and talking really helped calm her nerves.  Last night we laughed about some of the things that happened.....joking about how we could laugh now, but at the time it sure wasn't funny.  It's amazing how once the baby is there you just sorta forget about all that stuff.  She was a tropper......she's my hero for giving birth in that old hospital.  At one point I thought I could do it......I was quickly reminded that there is no way on earth I would.....I might take my chances on my own! :)   That truly was an experience that I will put in my memory bank forever! 
    PS....I notice in about every picture of myself I am in a blank shirt!  I do own more than one shirt, but I do own several black ones! ha!  Just in case someone was wondering.......maybe I need to brighten my wordrobe up bit!

Monday, May 12, 2008

Sunday, May 11, 2008

  • Happy Mothers Day!!

    Happiness is......watching your mother with your child!!


    Andrew and my mom, just moments after meeting each other for the first time!


    My mom with her "troops"......Alexus and Andrew!


    A very happy thanksgiving day!

    I love you mom.....wish I were there to give you a big hug and kiss!  Thanks for being an amazing mother and teaching me all I need to know!!!

Saturday, May 10, 2008

  • Reflecting on mommyhood….

    I was thinking about how Mother’s Day is right around the corner.  It’s a time when I start to feel all warm and fuzzy inside……a time when I feel especially honored to be a mother.  I finally got a positive pregnancy test with Andrew just a day before Mother’s Day two years ago…..a gift that I had been waiting for so long.  I don’t take being a mother lightly…..it really is a privilege and an honor!

    This week has been a rough week.  Andrew’s had big d since Sunday which has resulted in the “worst diaper rash in the world” which also makes diaper changes a battle of the wills…..I think we’ve tied….he wins some, I win some! Ha! He’s also had some toddler moments that make me wonder if he’s hitting the terrible two’s a bit early!  I’ve fallen into bed every night just wore out! My thoughts then turn and begin to thank God that I have those moments, as hard as they are…..

    You see the past couple of weeks my heart has been heavy for some mommies that are hurting.  As I posted a few weeks ago, my friend Kristen lost her baby boy Caleb unexpectedly at a late stage in her pregnancy.  This week I learned that Heather, a work at home mom who runs Mom4Life (a site that I’ve promoted so much….love it!) has also lost her little baby unexpectedly.  They are waiting for labor to start and the baby wil be born in the home, exactly as they planned though much different than she planned on….birthing a baby that is already waiting for her in heaven.  (Can you even imagine!?)  Then on Wednesday I opened an email from a friend of mine who has been trying for a baby for 8 years.  They attempted their 3rd IVF……it was unsuccessful.  Her words were simple….”I am heartbroken”.  My heart breaks for these and others that have to walk that road.  I can only pray (and know) that along the road the Lord puts beautiful flowers along the way….reminders that He’s in control and something truly beautiful will come from the sorrow.

    At the same time though…..there is also life.  Agnes gave birth to a baby girl this morning.  I am eagerly counting down the hours till I can go and visit her and see her precious little one.  Agnes said, “She’s so beautiful!”  (I have no details yet…..will try to post that all and some pictures for Airynn and Patricia!)   

    Through all of this I am reminded at how blessed I am. I feel Andrew’s sweet little arms around me as they go in for a tight hug.  I get all warm and fuzzy when he plants his entire mouth on my lips to give me kisses.  I am touched when he reaches up for me and lays his head on my shoulder.  Even when I say “Momma” and he responds “Dadda” (this is a game and he does it to get my goat!) I am reminded of a wonderful husband whose son worships the ground he walks on.  I am blessed….I am blessed to be a mommy.



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  • Happily married to the love of my life Kevin for almost 9 years. We recently had a baby boy Andrew who is now the joy of my life. We've been missionaries for almost 4 years living in Botswana Africa and working with Love Botswana Outreach Mission. I blog about the daily life and adventures (some good, some bad) in a third world country.

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