Reflecting on mommyhood….
I was thinking about how Mother’s Day is right around the
corner. It’s a time when I start to feel
all warm and fuzzy inside……a time when I feel especially honored to be a mother. I finally got a positive pregnancy test with
Andrew just a day before Mother’s Day two years ago…..a gift that I had been
waiting for so long. I don’t take being
a mother lightly…..it really is a privilege and an honor!
This week has been a rough week. Andrew’s had big d since Sunday which has
resulted in the “worst diaper rash in the world” which also makes diaper
changes a battle of the wills…..I think we’ve tied….he wins some, I win some!
Ha! He’s also had some toddler moments that make me wonder if he’s hitting the
terrible two’s a bit early! I’ve fallen
into bed every night just wore out! My thoughts then turn and begin to thank
God that I have those moments, as hard as they are…..
You see the past couple of weeks my heart has been heavy for
some mommies that are hurting. As I
posted a few weeks ago, my friend Kristen lost her baby boy Caleb unexpectedly
at a late stage in her pregnancy. This
week I learned that Heather, a work at home mom who runs Mom4Life (a site that
I’ve promoted so much….love it!) has also lost her little baby unexpectedly. They are waiting for labor to start and the
baby wil be born in the home, exactly as they planned though much different
than she planned on….birthing a baby that is already waiting for her in
heaven. (Can you even imagine!?) Then on Wednesday I opened an email from a friend
of mine who has been trying for a baby for 8 years. They attempted their 3rd IVF……it
was unsuccessful. Her words were
simple….”I am heartbroken”. My heart
breaks for these and others that have to walk that road. I can only pray (and know) that along the
road the Lord puts beautiful flowers along the way….reminders that He’s in
control and something truly beautiful will come from the sorrow.
At the same time though…..there is also life. Agnes gave birth to a baby girl this
morning. I am eagerly counting down the
hours till I can go and visit her and see her precious little one. Agnes said, “She’s so beautiful!” (I have no details yet…..will try to post
that all and some pictures for Airynn and Patricia!)
Through all of this I am reminded at how blessed I am. I
feel Andrew’s sweet little arms around me as they go in for a tight hug. I get all warm and fuzzy when he plants his
entire mouth on my lips to give me kisses.
I am touched when he reaches up for me and lays his head on my
shoulder. Even when I say “Momma” and he
responds “Dadda” (this is a game and he does it to get my goat!) I am reminded
of a wonderful husband whose son worships the ground he walks on. I am blessed….I am blessed to be a mommy.
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