It's really been a year since I wrote that entry when I just got to college. A lot of things have changed since then, and what I said in that post still holds true. 2nd year into college and it becomes apparent that your highschool friends will drift from you no matter how close u used to be. Despair not. Everyone's moving forward with their lives just as you are, and that you will be ok in school meeting new people and doing new things. Vague? O well.

Looking back on my old posts, it's very interesting to read my own writing. Feels as if someone else had written those posts. Someone with a view of life at a different time, with different conditions, yet not so different opinions. The basic ideological nature of people resists change, while outer apperances, senses of style, and social standing or what not are constantly shifting with the "sands of time". Makes me wonder what I'll think a few years from now looking back on this page.

I've missed writing in this journal, and I think I'll start writing again as a way for me to keep track of what I'm thinking and feeling at a particular moment in time. So that I can reread them and remember those experiences. It's curious to think who still reads xangas or at least my xanga, and which of my friends still use xanga instead of myspace. Either way, I'll write to myself. Once a month, once every 2 months. Who knows?

Either way it's my journal. It's me. On paper.

Lol I guess I dont update much on anything anymore. Growing out of it I suppose. What is there to say? Everyone does their own thing nowadays.

Old ties are broken and new ones are forged; friends come and go; time flies by in the blink of an eye, and suddenly we stand at the crossroads of our future, watching... waiting... for a sign of which path we should take.

Hope everyone's doing well. I'm in a particularly good mood at the moment seeing how I just received a 92! That's right... 92!!!! On my COLLEGE LEVEL PHILOSOPHY PAPER of which I spent the better of 6-7 hours writing that one FRIDAY NIGHT BEFORE HALLOWEEN. Lol...

"What is knowledge" you ask? Dont even get me started on all the definitions now firmly implanted in my brain. hahaha

Ok I'll update again next month or something. Ah i wanna go somewhere for winter break. Like snowboarding in Colorado. Guess we'll see.

Do yall know about LV? Lol I love LV. It's so stylish and classy!

Lol well I'm here at UT, and it's nice up here. Everyone's pretty friendly, so for all you seniors considerin an outta state college just cuz it's outta state. $$ really does matter! But anyways, things have been pretty crazy lately. Lotsa stuff just happenin and it's tight. I love the freedom up here, even though my baby's back at home. Love ya girl. I also have to say sorry to someone. You know who ya are.

Everything up here at UT's really different than in Katy. Arcades here are like $.25 or $.50!! It's so cool, I play F355 all the time and Silent Scope. Man it's fun, especially when you're half buzzed, and your reaction time is so slow and all. I havent really studied at all, but I better start so I wont fall behind. Classes are pickin up. Hope everyone's doin well. Start those college apps and all. I might be joinin a frat called the Omegas. They're pretty cool. Who knows though. I dont think anyone really reads this anyways cept for like 3 ppl, but they already know what's happenin with me anyways. Lol. Love you guys.

Till next time...

I was lookin back on my old xanga entries, and it's hard to believe that it was me talking. I sounded so filled with intellectual babble and philosophy that went on and on, and it was very interesting to read over, just seein how I used to ponder over the unexplained conundrums of life.

I dont know what happened really. I feel like i've gotten dumber over the years, and just before college starts too. How unfortunate. Even though I might've gotten dumber tho, I've gained a lot more experience in life. Mainly in love. I think i can now say that i've been in love. For those of you who can say the same, you know it can be the best and worst feeling in the world.

I've also experienced heart break, and though it was one of the most horrible things I've gone through, it's an experience. I dont know what I should say about it. I feel like I should have some profound wisdom to share with everyone but it's a simple thing that feels complicated when you experience it. It's beautiful in a way... The fact that nature made it so you can actually feel this way. I guess it goes back to that one entry i made about relativity. Happiness and sadness is only determined by what you've felt before. You might think you're happy now, but then you might feel even happier after being very sad. I guess its the same with love.

School's starting soon. High school is behind me, and college is ahead. It just kinda hit me right now that i'm living a life... An actual life where anything can happen. I could end up living in London or something in one of those townhouses and have all white neighbors. I've never thought about it like that. I've always thought it'd b just me living in an apartment and working for a company. But who knows what lies ahead. I swear to myself that I wont turn out any way less to what I want myself to turn out though... I'm gonna get what I want. I know it...

The exception is a person of course...