"Don't ever change."

Stereotypical romantic phrase that, when broken down, is just another selfish demand made by individuals who are afraid that their perfect little fishbowl will be shattered.

Ride with the change, my friends, or get left behind.

Currently Listening Bleed American By Jimmy Eat World My Sundown see related

Good goodbye, tinsel shine.

I see it around me, I see it in everything.
I could be so much more than this.
I said my goodbye's this is my sundown.
I'm gonna be so much more than this.
With one hand high, you'll show them your progress.
You'll take your time, but no one cares.
No one cares.
I need you to show me the way from crazy.
I wanna be so much more than this.
With one hand high, you'll show them your progress.
You'll take your time, but no one cares.
No one cares.
I could be so much more than this.
No one cares.
I wanna be so much more than this.
No one cares.
Good Goodbye, lovely time
Good Goodbye, tinsel shine
Good Goodbye, I'll be fine
Good Goodbye, good goodnight.

What do I want for my birthday?...I want to be productive again, I want for my father to stop viewing me as worthless, I want warm days and cool rides and simplicity.

...I want to stop being so fucking lonely every night when I sit here staring at this screen.

"I wanna be so much more than this..."

I am selfish, I am wrong.

"This is because I can spell confusion with a K and I can like it. It's to dying in anothers arms and why I had to try it..."

I don't know much, sometimes I forget that. I was never good at my own fishbowl, but I've never been able to admit that when I need it would do any good. I'm sick of these days, they make me so insane.

The worst part of it all? This all results from me being damn lonely. The triangle dynamic used to be something I could handle. Now the thought of it depresses the shit out of me. Lonely and stupid.

Regardless, this isn't your fault. I've got to work through my shit instead of blaming my sadness on two people who would never intentionally hurt me. Things aren't what they used to be, and there's nothing to fix that. I guess its not even something that really needs fixing. What I'm trying to say is that I apologize, and I love you both.

"...it's to Jimmy Eat World and those nights in my car..."

P.S. I need to get back to being productive soon, this boredom is becoming physically painful.

Currently Listening The Black Parade By My Chemical Romance see related

the hardest part...

"...and other times I feel like I should go."

I don't think you realize at all, so caught up in the only damn thing that matters anymore. I don't fit into this equation. I should have learned from past experience that triangles never work. But as long as you're happy, then to you I've got no justification. Fuck it, you're already planning your response, aren't you?

Frustrated and bitter and lonely. But hey, I'll be gone again soon, right? I'm much less work when I'm half drunk in an apartment in some distant country.

"So shut your eyes, kiss me goodbye, and sleep. Just sleep."

No matter what they say.

"When you say best friends it means friends forever..."

Hong Kong soon, maybe...I don't really know.  You know those thousands of miles...they bring trouble.

"Life is a test and I get bad marks, now some saint's got the job of writin' down my sins...A storm is coming, a storm is coming in..."