I can't believe I'm actually going to write on this thing. It seems like forever and a day since I have last journaled on xanga. Lately I have been thinking about everything and anything, my mind is going insane. I have learned so much about myself lately it's not even funny. This year I have decided life is crazy.... the unexpected does happen the wrong guys always like me and the right ones never do using my own strength doesn't get me anymore I love working with teens, I never knew God would give me that passion I build brick walls and struggle with taking the walls down God takes really ugly things and makes them beautiful You have to go through struggles to help others who are struggling I think and overanalyze things way too much My heart and my mind really don't get along most of the time, and sometimes I don't know which one to follow My mom says I SHOULD follow my heart I have realized that time heals Sometimes when I think I have forgiven someone I realize I have not If you stick through something you don't like that much you just may end up loving it I wish God could just send me an email telling me where he wants me to go in AFrica, because I am so confused and have almost lost motivation don't write stories in highschool about going to africa and dying if you don't want your mom to freak out about you actually going I love helping people, it is my favorite thing to do It's funny how something that happened when I was 12 can affect me more at age 21 then it did when I was 12. God's timing is absolutely hilarious. I think God has a sense of humor. Is that weird? I don't stress out over things when I look at the big picture People come into your life and people leave, be greatful for the time you had with them Friends are amazing, especially best friends I want to travel I love the Lord with my whole heart and I know if it weren't for him I would not be the person I am today. I can honestly say that I could not go one day without Him. | 
