Currently Listening One Fell Swoop By Spill Canvas Staplegunned see related

WOW. It's been forever.
Well, I must say school is going rather well along with the rest of this year. I've gotten a lot closer to more people and I talk to more people which is amazing. I met a few awesome peopleee. Hm. Well, as for Cj & I .. we're amazing. I spent the day with him yesterday, and although he fell asleep [again] I still love him, heh Um, mom's letting me see him now, which is a start. I'm just glad he stuck by me through all this, shows he cares a lottI am hanging out with a different variety of people which is awesome. It seems I am not keeping in touch with Dave as much as I should. I really miss him a lot. I talk to Brittanie almost everyday, and as for Laura, I barely talk to her which sucks. We need to hit M`FeSt again this yearr. Gabe & I have gotten a lot closer which RoCks. I've changed a lot in my opinon. There isn't really much for me to say. Soccer season is slowly coming, too slow I think. I hate coming home and doing nothing, bleh it bores me. Yes, I have been spending far too much time on MyspaceBut whatev, um .. my classes are going well, mid-terms, I did surprisigly well and yeah I think that's all for now. Comments? If anyone still has one of these, heh.

Cj

Currently Listening Abandon Your Friends By From Autumn to Ashes see related

WoW, I haven't done this shit in a long time.
So, okayyy. Things are going well, but as usual there are the things that aren't. CJ and I are freakin' peachy and I am really happyHe's such a fluffer. But, Field-Hockey is over on Monday and I cannot wait for it to end, too much drama for me. I will miss Carlin, Caitlin, B-Gorn, Brandi and Mike Braun thoughh, and the long bus ridess.Um, Bacon && Laura && I need to hang out, like asap before I throw a hissy fit. Soccer starts in 5 months, give or take a few days/weeks. OmG, I don't think anybody knows how stoked I am for soccer season. I am trying out for ENCO this yearr, the coach says I will more than likely make the team, so that's reallly good.Um, chya. Tomorrow, I am going to a Dashboard concert w. Nikki up in EastBurgg, ehh, not bad. I guess. I am visiting Tommy and everyone before I go homeeI can't waitt. Yeah, so I did give in to Myspace, so I spend more time on that than anything, I'm such a nerd. Bleghglpagjsldapgh. Homecoming is Saturday, and I can't deicide if I wanna go to the dance or not, probably won't, but Kyle && I are going to the game togetherI miss him lotss. Dave might be moving back here to Wilson, I think I'd be the happiest girl ever.

As for things that aren't well, John. Wrote me yet another note on Friday bitching about how he thinks about me everyday, it sucks how we aren't talking. NEWS FLASH: IF YOU THINK IT SUCKS THAT BAD THEN TALK TO ME. Not that hard, k thanks. Yeah, and apparently it's cool to accuse me of playing you, hah, you make me laugh. Um, so what else? I hate homelife, I hate how shady some of my "friends" can be, and I hate people

<3 FlufferYou're so much to meee

Currently Listening The Curse By Atreyu Right Side of the Bed see related

Last night was the first night I cried myself to sleep, in a longgg time.

I'd give anything to have everything perfect

John wrote me a note the other day saying he missed me, he can't be happy without me and he needs me to make everything perfect. He stated that he simply has wanted to talk to me for like ever, but that made me wonder, if he has wanted to talk to me as long as he said he did, don't you think he would have done it by now? Interesting. BUT, on a side note, I did write back. I spoke everything on my mind about him everything that I have been pondering about ever since we broke up. How he acted different towards me, how he had a jealousy problem, and pathetic mood swings, and plainly how ridiciulous I think he is anymore, how terrible things got between us, but I don't know anymore with him. There is something I really want to tell him, but there is no way I could find the words to get it right.

Jer and I have been talking a lot more. Mike Braun and I are pretty flippin' sweet. A few good things I posess right now are friends, ChrisWhitehair Jer && CJ, and FieldHockey. As much as I hate it, it's good to just have some fun and get awayy.

Bitches in Wilson. You all need to get over yourselves and stop being so uptight and ridic. You need to realize that the world DOES NOT revolve around you, and there is more to life than guys and stupid 3 day crushes. You are all so drama addicted it's crazy, you don't know how to go one day without bitching about something, someone, or in some way. And to be honest, I am so sick of it, so sick of you, and sick of your drama-addicted whining bitch asses. Just get over it alreadyy. K, thanks bye.

Moving on, I miss Bacon, and Ceejayy.<|3

Okay first day, sophmore year, not as bad as planned. I went into school knowing about 4 people in all my classes combined so I can say I made out pretty well.

French. Always fun.
Jaimie, Adam, Brandi, Stump, Freidl, Jordan, Slack, Brian, and a lott more, can't wait mann.

Art, ehh not too many people I know, just Sam and a few others but not a lot I really talk to ish.

English
MY BEE EFF EFF IS IN THAT CLASS WITH ME
Alfredo, Gabe, SamB, James, Dustin, Adam, and moreee.

Lunch. YES.
N.BeAnZ Brauny Singer (some days) BUT THE REGS ARE AWESOME.
Champ<3 MATTHAHN, Lindz, KaylaJ, Kevin, Shawn, Adam, Dom, Ace, JP, and a lot of others I can't think of.

Algebra, okayy?
BS, Juan, Kevin, Krystal, Mike, Kady, Tori, too many to list.

Gym/Traffic Stuff, yeah
Singer, Tita, NbEaNz, Ace, Owen, Karissa, we'll just say we own.

Chemistry, ehhish?
EsAu!, EricB, Mike, JJ, Tasha, and othersss.

AMERICAN CULTURES FUCK YES.
Jeromy Esau, Dom, Kerri, Karissa, Erika, Tasha, Kyleee.

I cannot wait for this year to kickstart mann. Let the games begin fuckersss
P.S. I would rather chew off my legs than to have another FH practice like todays.

Bleh. I dunno much anymore. I need opinions.

Okay, so like right now, summer is winding down and coming to an end, which means school starts up, awesome, huh? No. Well, lately, I haven't had the time to do much of anything.. i.e a detailed update but whatev. Balancing FieldHockey, friends, and all the drama people cause, kinda sucks ass but you gotta deal with it, right? So, I have been talking to CJ, a lot. I think he is a reallly sweet kid, and super awesome and I deff. love him like a lot. And then, my bee eff eff [CHRIS], well that friendship is always awesome, naturally. My 2 best-friends kinda hate each other right now, and as usual I am stuck in the middle, and I don't wanna take sides or anything because that's gay to do. I must say though that shit w. Bacon is pretty hXc awesome,  I love herr. Also, Jeremy Woodring, you know I am here for you 24/7, good to see you yesterday kidd. But to the point, I dunno where my status is "boy-wise". I have an idea in general, but it's not enough to make a respectable decision.

But, the person I have been talking-toish is amazing, I must admit. But sometimes good things take time. Bleh, but last night while him and I were talking some topics aroused and put some thoughts into my head about kinda where he stands on "us" and it kinda upset me, but at the same time I was happy, is that alright?  Because at the sane time I get soo nervous and shakeablelike when I know I am going to see him, and he makes me happy when we talk and stuff, but there are a lot of options I have and as much as I hate hurting people, I know in my head someone will get hurt. And bleh, how emo can one entry get? Godd, I just wish shit was mad easier than all thiss.

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