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Tuesday, June 17, 2008

  • What does this say about me?

    " Have courageous thoughts during your most feared moments. Overcoming your fears will leave you unafraid and strong-minded."
     --Unknown

    It's been entirely too long since I last posted.  I'm going to try and get better at this once again.  The other day a thought occurred to me.  This said thought happened at about 7:35 a.m. on Sunday June 15, 2008.  On this day I was awaken by my friend Bryan yelling, "Keyton, Amy get up!  Come down stairs now!!"  He was yelling this because there was a horrible storm outside.  A severe thunderstorm with winds of 60 miles per hour. 

    Now, I'm not one to freak out when God's nature takes place, but I've come to find that most people do.  Moreover, when I heard my name I calmly got out of bed, put on some clothes, all while listening to the storm and wind howl at my window.  Bryan began, "It looks like a tornado!  I haven't heard the sirens yet but come down stairs!" 

    Now they say that what you grab first in the midst of crazy happenings such as a tornado or hurricane is what you value most.  The first thing I grabbed, after I got my clothes on and began looking around, were--my tic-tacs.

    Tic-tacs!?!  I looked at my laptop, my pictures, my camera, and yet I did not immediately grab either one of those items, instead I grabbed my tic-tacs.

    Out of the things I just mentioned, the least valuable thing to me was apparently the most dear as well.  For years now I have been an avid fan of tic-tacs, it's true.  However, for that to be the first thing that I reached for in the moment had me stop and think about where my priorities lied.  I always want to have fresh breath even if that means dying with it I guess.  I don't freak out in crises situations because I say if it's my time then it's my time.  God will lead me home.

    However, I didn't grab my bible, partly because I left it in my car.  This had me thinking if I would have reached for that instead of the tic-tacs if it had been in my sight?  And I came to the conclusion, probably not.  It's quite sad actually.  The bible is our sword and shield and we probably want reach for it when threatened with an uncontrollable situation.

    Hmm....

    Just a thought.

    " 'Tis better to have lived a short life with passion than to have lived a long one without meaning."
    --Joyce C. Lock

Monday, October 22, 2007

  • God, Love me less....

    It's been over eight months since my last real blog.  I have been dormant in the writing department for a long time.  I haven't had enough inspiration to actually sit down and write something somewhat meaningful.  I am not promising that this is such a post. 

    I recently watched a movie that I found funny and thought provoking.  I was somewhat surprised by the great message behind it even though it was basically the story of Noah.  I'm talking about "Evan Almighty". 

    Although, the satirical humor sometimes overshadows some of that message, it is still there nonetheless.  From critics, the movie received mediocre reviews, but I believe it is a movie worth seeing.   There was a part in the movie where God, played by Morgan Freeman, said to Evan "...I only do this because I love you."  This being the things that have happened and are going to happen to him throughout the course of the movie.  Things that Evan perceived as "bad". 

    As the movie progresses, Evan finds himself in many different situations from about 20 different birds flying into his office where a meeting with a few Senators was to take place, to going to a Senate hearing adorned in a robe and  a long beard.  (This was his character's take on becoming Moses.)  Evan then stops at some part of the movie and reflect on what God had told him. "...I only do this because I love you."  He then proclaims aloud, "I know You (God) say You do this because You love me.... I wish You would love me less."

    So many times I wonder why my life is like it is.  Why I have not progressed onto what I want.  Why I have time after time found myself in a place of complacency.  Why I think God doesn't want to see me succeed in what I want to do.  I know that that is not the case but it just feels as though it is.  I am a good person and I have been faithful.  Yes, I have fallen short of the glory of God, but who hasn't.  I am so consumed with grief and sadness so often that sometimes I think it unbearable to keep believing, but I do.

    I admit that often times I just want to take the easy way out and become apart of the world, not being bound by obligation.  Drowning my sorrows and worries in other things.  Yes that would be a way for me to deal, but it wouldn't be the right way.  I don't know.  Sometimes I think it would be the best thing.

    I am 26 years old.  Single.  Working at a job that is not going to get me anywhere, ever!  I feel stuck in a place that I don't want to be.  I feel as if I have no friends in this city.  Most often I feel alone and trapped.  There's an awkward feeling that I get when I go around people that I used to associate with so I choose not to anymore.  All my good friends have moved away.  I don't have the means to do what I want to do. 

    Sometimes I say-- God, love me less.

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  • God is my number one priority right now. I'm focusing all my energy on Him. I love to write. That is my passion. I love to help people and teach them. I love to lead people and help them see what they don't see in themselves. Everyone is special to God and they need to know that. I like to read and watch movies too. I also like to get to know people as best as I can. People are one of my passions as well. I love Chi Alpha. May God bless each person that reads this.

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