I have figured that I am destined to be alone for quite a while.  Never have had a relationship, only got close with one person, but I only had one date with her, so would you even call that a relationship.   I don't care if I don't get asked to prom anymore, my hopes keep getting shot down.  I just really don't care at this point.  And don't anybody say that I'm making the wrong decision, I'm not.  I might as well just wait till college to find someone.

Well, if anyone hasn't seen them, here are my senior pics

So last time I forgot to put down that I got a tattoo on Nov 21, and I got it finished on the 19th in December, and today, I went back so they could take a picture of it.  Then after that, I went back to the Marine's office, I told them I did not want to join, and the guy there told me I was not confident, I was confident in my decision, so where does he have the right to tell me that.

I had a good christmas, but it was broing, but still alright.  I did some set construction during vacation for Beauty and the Beast, which performances start on Jan 17th or 18th and go on till the sunday after that.

You know, I'm beginning to not know myself anymore.  It sucks a lot.  So yeah, I'm going to leave this at that.

One more thing actually, I have a splint on my left pinky, and I have to have it on for 6 weeks.  The problem is that I still have to have it on during the jazz festival at U-Mary, and I play the trombone, so it's going to suck.

So that's it for now
Yours Truly
Eric Monzelowsky

Hey, if anyone missed the news story about suicide which had my uncle on it, check out this site

http://www.kfyrtv.com/news_stories.asp?news=3888

I hope you check it out, and you all help out your friends who you feel is in need of help.  The video of the story is at the bottome of the page

Save a life,
Eric

So, I guess I should post......This weekend was pretty much boring, except for Borat and megan's b-day party.

Yeah, Thursday, mostly boring, regular thanksgiving, dinner with the family, just the 6 of us.  I then went to see Borat with Noel, Jon, and some other guy....yeah, no pink sign.................but the movie was great, I recommend everyone see it, it's hilarious.

Then Friday, probably one of the longest days of the weekend, my brother wanted to use MY surround sound system when he has a TV in his room, so all I did that day was mope around and just played video games, wierd thing, his new gf, was my sophomore year prom date, creepy.

So, Saturday night was fun, the rest of the day, boring, I had to work.  After work I went over to Megan Baxter's house for her B-Day party, saw some old friends who went off to college and had just came back for the holidays, had a little chocolate frosting fight, glad I wasn't in it, played scrabble, watched Beaty and the Beast and Aladdin, schooled some people in poker, but Jenny....grrrrrrr, she beat me because she forced me to play a hand.  But I'm not mad at you Jenny, you owe me a backrub though............

And Sunday, just a boring day all together, not very fun.

Well folks, thats it for now, until next time,

it wasn't me,
Eric Monzelowsky

For some, stupid ass reason, I can't get her out of my mind.  I just don't know why.  Someone should knock some sense into me, and maybe some brains would do good too.  I feel I make decisions that aren't always good, I pay for them right away.  It sucks so badly, sometimes, I just wanna punch myself because I do stupid things.  So I'm having some conflicts in my head, but I may not show it.  Don't worry about me though, I am dealing with on my own, I've done quite alot on my own, so no worries.

Sincerely,
Eric