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| so it's been awhile but nothing really new to report, cept i don't have my comp and classes suck. oh well maybe soon things will get easier. | | |
| ok so the past few weeks have been very stressful and i haven't gotten much sleep. i had a humongous paper to write as well as another paper that i finished last night. i found out today i don't have to take one of my finals because the paper was good so i'm happy about that. i'm still waiting news on my other one. i can't wait to sell my books back because i get money for them. all i have to do this weekend is study for finals so i don't know. i'm very tired though. i haven't been able to go to sleep before midnight, not because of anything really, just i'm not tired or i've hung out with my friends and time flies. right now i'm just trying to relax and watch tv. i don't know what else i could do this weekend cuz i don't know what everyone else is doing. i just can't wait til this semester is over. i'm ready for a break. then i can see everyone else. so yeah that's pretty much all that's been going on.
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| This is insane. I don't think it's possible for me to hate school more than I do now. I got assigned another paper which makes for a total of 5 papers I have to do. This one only has to be 2-4 pages so it's not too bad but when you have 4 other papers to do, each that have to be 5 or more pages and one that has to be at least 12 pages, it's not too fun. Along with that I have a huge project to edit and I just might scream. I don't know how I'm going to get all of this done in the time that's left. I might short circuit and blow a fuse, I'm not quite sure but it's not going to be good. I was trying to get 2 papers done this weekend but that's not going to work because one I'm writing has to be 5 pages and I basically explained everything in 2 so I don't know how I can extend that. Although, I may be able to finish 2 papers if I start on the new paper that's only 2 pages. That way 2 papers, will be done and one will be half done, leaving 2 unfinished papers. Too much work.
Speaking of which, (I actually haven't been speaking of anything that could relate to what I'm about to say except maybe school), I had a dream last night and it kinda was similar to The Mothman Prophecies. The only part was that in the movie where Richard Gere is talking on the phone and you see a part of his reflection in the mirror only his reflection isn't doing what he was doing. Yeah, freaky. Well in my dream I was looking in the mirror checking to see if the mothman wasn't there by seeing if my reflection was reflecting what I was doing. This is the strange part. While looking in the mirror, I had 2 reflections but it didn't seem strange for this reason. The reflection in the mirror was reflecting what I was doing and the 2nd reflection was reflecting what my reflection was doing. I don't know if that makes sense but it would if you saw it in a movie. But since my reflection was doing what I was doing, it seemed normal despite the fact that there were 2 in the mirror. My hair was awesome in the dream too. Like it was very long and had this wavy curl style to it and I looked very cute. Anyway, I'm thinking maybe the 2 reflections and myself have something to do with school. Like I have so much stuff to do that I feel like I need 2 more of me to finish everything. I don't know but it was very interesting. Ok, I'm gonna finish watching Regis and Kelly and maybe write more of my paper so that's it for now!
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| so today was a test day and i think i did ok. I'm feeling overwhelmed by my classes and it seems that i don't have enuf time to do all the stuff i need to get done. it's discouraging. but right now i'm relaxing because i haven't willingly let myself rest. i've taken breaks but felt guilty because i wasn't studying but sometimes we need a break and i just can't seem to accept it when i need it. so now i'm taking time to myself and not doing any work. one thing that's lifting my spirits is holiday decorations and specialty coffee drinks. i can always tell the change in season by holiday decorations coming out and the holiday coffee drinks. it's funny tho how abc family had the 13 nights of halloween and now not a week after halloween, they're advertising for the 25 days of christmas. what happened to thanksgiving? i don't know i just can't wait for a break, any break. ughhh oh well. well, that's it for now.
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| ok so this week has been super busy and it's only half over. i actually have more time to study because of dates getting pushed back. I'm just concerned with a paper i have to do for one class and a project to do in another. i tend to get overwhelmed by looking at all the stuff i have to get done and when they're do but i remembered something out of a book i'm reading. the book is called Sabbath and there's a passage in it about how we are so focused with getting to the future that we don't realize that we miss the present. When the future we're looking forward to comes, we miss it because we never stop looking towards the future, we ignore the present. so instead of overwhelming myself with the future the past two days, i've thought, ok, what do i have to do now, today at this moment and all at once, I feel much lighter because I don't have that much to do today or if i do, i can manage my time and give the focus required for each task. the Sabbath book is amazing because it's said things that i identify with myself that i never really thought about before and the whole future thing, i didn't realize i do that until i read it. it's amazing. and speaking of amazing, i worked at the Casting Crowns concert last night. i had heard maybe one song of theirs that was good but it wasn't enough for me to make an opinion about them but now i have 5 songs of theirs that are awesome. one of their songs, Slow Fade, is crazy. as he was singing it, i could relate it to my life which i know isn't all that good but i think everyone can relate to it in one way or another. it was a life changing concert even though that probably sounds lame because it was a concert but it was so good. i also made contacts with ppl for possible jobs so that was exciting. anyway, i think i'm just gonna read for the rest of today and get that done for friday but i actually like the book we're reading. it's Remains of the Day, which i had heard of but you know how u hear about books but never read them or know anything about them. well, it was assigned so i'm reading it and i like it a lot. i love the names they use in it like "Farraday" and "Darlington Hall" Kazuo Ishiguro wrote it and i recommend it. ok i'm gonna finish watching spongebob for my sanity.
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