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Friday, July 25, 2008

  • Always a silver lining............

    Doug and I don't have access to many of our posessions. We have our computers, an air mattress and books and that's all other than clothes. Our stuff has come to have new value to us as that's all we've got. We're down to our last few $$ that have to last us to the end of the month and realistically, it won't. It just won't.

    So I came home night before last and our air mattress has sprung a leak. Argh. It's completely discombobulated and unusable. After one night of sleeping on the floor, we packed it up in the box and took it back to exchange it. We didn't have the receipt, so our fingers were crossed. The manager gave us a bit of trouble but in the end agreed to exchange it. We looked on the shelves and they didn't have the same one we'd had so we settled for what we thought would be less, but hey, it's a bed! We went back up to the counter and because the bed was less than we'd had, we got a $40 credit on a gift card.

    WOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOO

    We went shopping!!!!! We now have groceries that will get us through till the end of the month. 

    YAY!!

    and......................................it's more comfortable than the original bed!

     

Sunday, July 06, 2008

  • I'm in Kansas now on vacation for the next week and a half. We've been here a week now and am having a great time. I miss my kids like crazy, though. Trace and Chloe had to stay home and go to Summer School and Clinton got a new job the week before we were supposed to leave. Last year on our vacation, it was the Vacation From Hell!!! This year has been much better. I'm doing a lot of "chemo dumping" where my body is getting rid of the chemotherapy and that's uncomfortable and drains me but I'm not letting it ruin the vacation. It's hot and humid here but I SO much prefer it to California. Weather isn't everything. I'll take hot and humid over dirty, smoggy, crowded, noisy and did I say crowded? The weather may be nicer in California but the rest isn't and I can't wait till the kidletts are in college and we can get the hell out of dodge! We went to the Wichita Zoo last week, took the dogs to the lake to swim, walked through the graveyard (I love old graveyards, the history and the sense of time) and last night Doug and I escaped for some privacy and rented a hotel room just to get away and have some time by ourselves. We did some serious talking and I felt a lot closer to him when we came home, it was really nice. I also got to ride on a combine that was cutting wheat. I loved it. I could totally be a country girl. I would of course have to go to the lake every once in a while cuz I'm a water girl at heart, but I love it here!

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

  • I'm ready to bang my head on the nearest brick wall. My kid's grades were so bad, I'm embarrassed for them. Ya have to work pretty hard to fail 3 classes. I know part of it was due to my illness, but come the hell on! GRRRRRRRRRRR!  My son will definitely not be returning to the High School where he was attending this year and it makes me sad. He had friends there and he was happy there but he made bad choices. There is zero structure and supervision at his dad's house and that's part of it but he's almost 17, plenty old enough to make the right choices. This mama's heart is sad!!

Monday, June 23, 2008

  • DAMN this blasted heat! I woke up at 2:00 am nauseated, dizzy and hot as hell. Today I have a heat rash. I'm NOT a happy camper!!

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

  • The Big Bang............

    Mom:    You never called me back after the last message I left you.
    Me:       No, I didn't on purpose.
    Mom:    Why not?
    Me:       Because I considered it to be a kick in the teeth.
    Mom:    How is me offering Chloe a Lifeguarding class a kick in the teeth?
    Me:       Because it's too expensive, it's $600
    Mom:    I just thought I'd do something nice for Chloe.
    Me:       I can't allow you to spend that kind of money on Chloe when there are more prevalent needs.
    Mom:    What else does Chloe need?
    Me:       It's not Chloe that has the needs, mom, its us. You cry about how broke you are and yet you remodel your house, take vacations, plan to spend $600 on Chloe and then want to charge me for the gas money it costs you to take Chloe to school when you know I've got $25 that has to last me, Doug and the kids till the end of the month. Putting food on my table is a much more prevelant need than Chloe taking a Lifeguarding class.
    Mom:     Well, it was my tax refund money. (which is a bullshit lie, she's retired and hasn't worked in 4 years, she has no income tax refund)
    Me:       I don't care where the money came from, I need help feeding my family and you "cry broke" then want to drop almost a thousand dollars on my daughter. THAT is a kick in the teeth.
    Mom:    What time did you say you were picking Chloe up on Friday?

    Sigh.................some things never change. She never takes responsibility for her actions and she always sweeps things under the rug, changes them to make them fit her justifications in her own twisted mind or makes it out to be my fault. By changing the subject after reiterating that I only had $25 left, she silently confirmed her refusal to help me.