School....it was interesting for Blue and Gold Day.
I was on the blue team. YEAH BLUE!! Um...we one a ton of shit during the week, can't rememher what they said we won during the Pep rally cause I was listening to Linkin Park with Mary.
Band...was band?
English... we almost had a fight. I was amused at this part, but I was already with other things on my mind so it didn't faze my mind that a fight would happen in this class till the 2 kids stood up and started yelling at eachother. The one is making me think he is just all talk, even if he's from Chicago.
Bio was eh? We have to make these posters on Carbs. I didn't finish mine and it's due on Monday now, along with that damn news article on Carbs. Fun weekend for me.
FCS... she is allowing me to turn in my project on Monday with no deducted points because my printer ran out of ink and I couldn't make my cover. I was just working on it when I finally got on the computer. So she said I can turn it in on Monday.
Lunch I still felt sick. I got spicy chicken sandwich, cheese hotdog, and OMG!! My school wasn't lieing when they said they were gonna be selling Funnel Cake cause I got Funnel Cake today. I was happy, but really sick to my stomach. The cheese dog didn't help, I almost puked in French.
French we basically played games again. I shouldn't have brought my books if I had known earlier that we didn't need them.
Went back to homeroom for the whole waiting to be called down for the pep rally. Savly found a gold team button and we put it on my messanger bag, only later for me to get a blue team button and put it on my bag as well. Savly had this pink mini cool button that I'm gonna put and keep on my bag hehe. I am gonna get rid of the team buttons. I think I'm gonna get a ton of buttons to put on my messanger bag now.
I got a detention today... cause I was late to homeroom, fun! I have to go in on Tuesday for I think 10 minutes or so to serve the detention. Hmmm... I dunno how long really, but I think it's 10 minutes.
Pep Rally was interesting. I'll explain the WHOLE thing in here. So Salvy waits for me outside my homeroom ( I love Salvy, he is always at my locker with me before and after homeroom, walks with me to my classes and just talks with me before French and his German class- which is in the room next to mine) and then Shayne showed up somewhere in that mess. Mary and Emi hooked arms with me and we were off to the Pep Rally. Mary told me to hook arms with Shayne and Salvy so we didn't lose them. So I did, till Shayne detached himself from me. whatever. So we're all sitting there, I'm telling Mary how I used to be a cheerleader when I was little and doing ballet (my ballet group had a cheerleader class that I took and we did competitions), then we listened to Linkin Park. Cayla W., Jessi, and some girl named Katie (Is that what Shayne called her?) who lives down my street sat 2 seats infront of us.
Shayne complains that his foot hurts and he wants me to move mine so I do so, then he complains about how his plan to skip the PR was ruined and blah blah blah... WHINE WHINE WHINE! I actually told him I wanted to kill him while we sat there. So then Cayla and Jessi and Katie(?) start a conversation with Shayne... I am invisible. So finally the girl who is sitting her big old fat ass infront of us gets up and leaves, so Shayne scoots his ass down there and just talks with them and all this shit. Like he was all over Cayla and vice versa in my opinion. I am not thrilled. I tell Mary this... So when the girl who sat where Shayne is sitting comes back and he moves back next to me, Cayla sits next to her and talks with Shayne some more, their passing secrets, whispering and all this shit... I look to Mary to tell her if I had a razor on me I didn't care I was in public I would just kill myself here. I am being invisible... I'M FUCKING INVISIBLE!
The whole time I am battling myself in my own god damn head.
Chrisie 1: Did we not discuss how I feel abandoned by him and jealous of when he does this type of stuff with me earlier this morning when he kept thinking I was pissed off this school year at him?
Chrisie 2: Oh let him go, he's being a flirt and we know he loves you just the same, he's just having fun!
Chrisie 1: Yeah... and completely thinking I don't exist! I mean wtf?! I do exist and yet he still doesn't seem to get it most of the time now!
I am riped from my thoughts when his ass hits the side of my leg. I am lost in the schools roars in the middle of the PR and I have no idea whats going on... I'm looking at the clock and now it is 2:15. Almost time to go back to homeroom to get my bookbag and go home.
I look at Mary sadly and she tries to yell at Shayne to make him say he's just being a man whore... that doesn't help and it doesn't work... I have no razor... so at this point I remember Shayne has his lighter on him...
The bliss of burning myself with his lighter in the middle of the bleachers... I can see his face now! He refuses to give it to me and Mary spazzs cause she knows what I was going to do...
She grabs my wrists and has me try to cheer up when the Colorgaurd, all my old friends from when I was in it, take the floor to perform. I behave.
So we leave and I get a text message from someone. I don't know who, it might have been dan, it might have been someone else. But all it said was take off you pants and jackets. I have a feeling it was Dan. I show my friends... extremely amused by this text.
I turn around and there Shayne is... with his crowd of friends, I don't get a goodbye, or I'll talk to you tonight online, or anything... he just turns and walks to his brothers car.... I'm still invisible and I want to cry.
I walk home thinking the day over and what will being going on tonight. I asked my friend Suzzi a question regarding this one thing that Jelly Beans, Robin, Steveo, Emi, Mary, Salvy, Shayne, Matt, Steph, and Lindsey know about concerning me. She told me somethings since I found out she takes it too... I am aware of what may happen to me for the first few weeks... and I am thrilled (NOT!).
So now I am home...alone, with hardly any food to satisfy my hunger if I grow hungry. I am bored... everyone is away, not on, busy, or whatever. But here I sit...bored and alone... And sick, I still feel sick.
Matt put blue hair spray stuff in my hair today.. it looks cool, but I can't see it cause I never got a chance to look in the mirror.
My left contact has been bothering me all day. I have been depressed all day, biting my lips every now and then. They started to bleed a little in lunch.
Pat tried to steal my spicy chicken, I threatened to punch a whole through his throat. A ton of kids who were skipping class for my lunch got caught, Shayne was one of them, he got 5 more demerits. He's suspended, or supposed to be at least.
I am still depressed...
Tomorrow mom is taking me to Artist and Me to finish up on my fairy. I can't wait to see her. She brings back good memories to me. Maybe I would be able to work on either the Moon Fairy or the Picture Fairy (I have an idea of the picture I want for the picture in the Picture Fairy's frame.), it all depends on how mom feels tomorrow.
Sunday I have church again...whoo... and then my DE course...fun...
Monday school starts up again... so do all the fights and everything else.
I've been debating wheither I wanna get a new xanga or not. Dunno what username I would get. I have had many thoughts about this decision in my head. I'm debating wheither to have Lindsey help me figure out if I should keep this one and try to get photo bucket on here or get a new one and photo bucket on that. She'll help me decided, but it all depends on when I talk to her next.
Talked to Devon and Sarah today, it was awesome to see them.
I'm gonna go, cause I'm bored and lazy and tired of this. Whatever.
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