Super De Duper Long Time!

So it's been a super de duper long time since i've been on here. and I missed it lol so i'm updating haha.

So lets see it's been about 7 months anything new? YEAH i think so.

So Mike and I have been back together since June 4th. We have our ups and downs this time around. But it just makes us stronger I love him and wont give him up over anything this time.

hmmm why do guys think that cheating doesn't hurt a girl as much as it really does? you know? they think after you forgive them and stay with them it's all good. But really it's not it's still in the back of your mind. and you think about it all the time. and when you see and realize they talk and hang out what do you think i think? yeah i get worried about what they say and shit. but i'm not gonna be a bitch and not let him have friends. that's the only way it will get better and i think he knows this time what will happen if he really does cheat. this is his 2nd chance and I wont go back if he does it again. Plus I trust him so it's cool. but still when i bring it up he gets all pissed and doesn't understand how i feel it sometimes makes me mad but we get over it. (hints it makes us stronger)

Hmm what else is new? Nothing really. been to AMAZING concerts! I've seen....

Senses Fail

Saosin

Emery

Scary Kids Scaring Kids

Red Jumpsuit

Kaddisfly

The devil wears parda

A Day To Remember (and meet the bass guitarist Josh)

A static llaby

and then of course the bands that were on tour with them.

and on the 24th I'm goin to a  concert. forgot who though! lol but oh well it will be fun.

and i'm also goin to Warp Tour 2007!!! =D can't wait.

but anyway yeah i'm gonna go idk what else to say lol.

Comment me (Autumn) lol

-I Love Mike <3 

So It's been forever since i've updated this thing So I think I should =D.

Welp lets see anything new with me???? umm not really i'm glad we've been out of school for like... 2 weeks? iidk how long it's been but it's been amazing <3 lol. Justin got home tuesday =D so he came over wednesday anf gave me my x-mas present it's uber cute. He got me this Green paper weight thing shapped like a heart <3 and he got me this shirt and This potatoe thing (inside Joke between us) lol.... and I got him a belt and a Hat haha.

But anyways x-mas wasn't bad I got an Ipod nano Lots of clothes, money, shoes... and Clothes haha. But my new Years eve was fun too <3... but my New Year Sucks! like I mean the new year not the day but yeah... Just to much Drama let me tell you I Fucking Hate Freshman.. Well Not all but Most lol. But anyways yeah. I hope everyone else's New Year is goin great. And Your x-mas's were good. But yeah i have nothing really to say so umm bye <3

(Hi Autmn Leave comments! lol )

<333

Yeah...

So for the last week or so I've been depressed well at times... cause of certain thing that happened but whatev.

Until today when I talked to this person and go everything cleared up made me uber happy and things might be going the way i want them to go now... unlike they were a week ago.

But yes I'me most likely leaving tomorrow =[ idk when i'll be back either the 26th or 1st... idk lol... but yeah it's going to be ubers and ubers of fun. Haven't seen my family in Algona for like a year and haven't seen my family in Omaha for like 3 months... and I can't wait to see Kenzie <333 =]

lol... but yes x-mas is suppose to be happy and fun i know it will be fun. But will it be happy? will I get what i want? Even if i get what i want will I be happy? The only thing that could make me happy is him... but who knows...

I can't wait!

One more day!

Not even that Just hours and I will be gone =D =D yay!

welp yeah bye <3

and Merry x-mas Knee-grows =D

Lame

So I picked that title because as of these days that is what my life is... LAME.

Nothing is going my way anymore... I guess i just wasn't meant to find love or anything... something is wrong with me. But whatev i'll deal with it.

So 4 days of school left and like 6 days till i'm out of this shit hole.

Do you know how many offers i've had to move in with my aunt? Alot

and that's all the way in Nebraska and do you know how close i am to say yes?

Very!

but why do I say no?

I don't know anymore... Mostly because of kathrin and Dance team. other than that i have no other reasons to say no.

And giving up those to things would be the hardest thing to do in my life. But of course i would be able to come up here whenever i wanted to so i would see kathrin alot.

but dance.

I would say that would just be thrown away. and I've worked to hard for to long to do that. But Nebraska means a new start people that love me up there.

I want to leave is x-mas here yet? gahh

I miss my family mainly Kenzie (my cousin) she is so cute. I love her ubers and ubers...

but whatev i hate life.

and stupid finals gahhh school is so lame. I hate finals but we all have to do them. I'm sure i'll do okie dokie but whatev.

welp yeah i really have nothing left so say

so bye

I Don't Remember...

So I had this whole thing I wanted to say but now I do not remember... but I remember some but whatev.

So Yes it is true me and Justin are going out and I am happy. He is amazing.

But yet there is times where I miss going to sleep knowing someone loves you and cares about you. I know Justin cares about me but I mean like it use to be. I believe you never stop loving someone Yes I still Love Mike Just not like I use to. I Just care about him Alot. I don't want to Lose him as a friend but I'm afraid I already did. So I guess what i'm trying to say is I don't Like him or Love him. I just idk care alot about him Love him like a friend Like I Love kathrin. Is this making any sense to anyone but me? The thing I hate is evil Stares... No one knows how much they hurt you. They may not be trying to but you can feel the hatred... and dissapointment. It just aggrivates me so much! Makes me feel like a complete bitch even though I didn't do anything.

So today In art I complete went crazy... I got really annoyed/mad so I got out a pen and started drawing a big blob on my paper and ended up make like 7 big holes... then they took the paper from so I started tapping my pen then they took that... then I started tapping my foot like crazy. Idk I was just thinking about alot of shit and started hating myself and then got really annoyed of the people around me... and then idk I just went crazy. It was really weird... I have no clue.

But yeah so other than that Life is great now Justin Is amazing. School is going ok I guess got fucking 3 hours ASD on Monday... YAY me! Dance is going great too. umm anything else... I don't think so yeah lifes okie dokie.

anyways yeah welp bye <3