[flying batons and the end of what we know]

SO. we're done now. that's the end of that.

so maybe school isnt done and school isn't over but we all know that once music night is done and over with there really isnt anymore to look at. in a week or 2 will come yearbooks and comes all the signing and *BAM*BAM*BAM* comes prom and commencment.

we're done guys, we're done.

then you think about how this has all we have known of since the say we can remember things. so there were those recollections of your young life @ home... but soon after that you were thrown into 14 endless years of prison schooling. But then that is all coming to an end. As much as we like to thnkt hat university will be a lot more fun a lot more rewarding i'm afraid of how positive we're all thinking. Highschool is undoubtedly a place that we'll miss... a place that i'll miss. i mean after all these are the people that i have grown up with people that ive dealt with all my life. people that werent your friends than became ur friends or people that were your friends than things got shakey and you stopped being friends. whoever u r to whoever else. in some sort of twisted way. we call care for each other . soo music night was done and even tho realireali dont lik walker. i felt a rush of liquidy substance in my eyes when he too was gettin that same sensation. It was weird. i have no emotional attachment to the music dept and yet here i am with that same sensation with the man that devoted his.. whole careeer in this. which brings me to know that many of us, as much as we like to deny it, will be tearing on the last day of school if not prom.

i suppose ive got it better than 1/2 the people that need to be dealing with this already. i mean after all you guys prolli need to move outat the country and all that jazz. and keeping in touch with friends will be worse for you guys than it is for me. buti  dont kno i cant help but then that because you guys are so much more far from each other that keepin in touch will seem almost like a necessity on the other hand people that are jus a few hours away from each other will get lazy.

so ther we have it. all we've known of down the drain. soo there we go stepping down into this unlit path of our lives.

i feel like im 12 or 14 at max... not 17 turning 18 in a matter of 3 months. be honest... i dont think im ready. and now in a matter of a month and a few days...

...it'll be the end of everything i've ever known of.

[celebrity.look-alikes (?)]

well this is what the website told me.. what do YOU think.

soo my top 2 are plastic people.. INTERESTING.

i think im disabled these days.

my abiltiy to create conversations on msn is @ an all time low. yup. my responses dont leave the normal "heheh" "haha" "keke" and "kakas" and randomly i'll havea few things here and there.

 maybe ths is a sign of me "maturing" (ha!). i mean when peoplegrow up they turn boring dont they? and they turn out to ahve nothing to talk about nemroe beacuse wre so stuck in this little box of nothingnes.. or maybe i jsu need sleep

which is random if you ask me ive been gettin mroe sleep than an average highschool student shud get which is close to nothing or (3 hours if you will). maybe im just slow in the developing process of growing up after all i look like im 14 (as some 15 year olds will proclaim)

random#1: im starting to type with correct spelling. its gettting handy cuz then microsoft word doesnt need to underline everyother word i type.

random#2: did you kno its "should have" not "should of" ? i did. hence i rock =)

i slept @ 9:30 a few nights ago, so before you all stone me of complaining bout sleep  i need to make sure that you all kno for some odd reason now i cannt function with less than 10 hours of sleep. im dead sreious. soo i dont kno how im gunna undergo and surviv university life. i use to be able to operate on 30 minutes. and i was stil jolly and hyper but now im jus stuck i jus cant. i need to sleep. i use to be able to go like finish ur work before snoozing. then id stay up till 6 working on a last minute project than, id sleep in class. which often worked out alrite.. now. i just go like screw it  i need sleepp screw work. worse thing is this is happening in GRADE 12 the year that  actualli matters. maybe somethings gooing wrong with my hormones. i betcha thatz what it is. estrogen is not my friend.

univerisity can suck my balls.. even tho i dont have ne.  i have concluded with corey that we have more testosterone together than all the guys @ A.Y. COMBINED. (no offense loverfaces) and of all the sciences... i took 2 out of 3 but the 2 that i dont need i took and the one physix that would actaulli help in accelerateb in my future i didnt take. soo i suck. THE END.

hmmm sincei ahven updated in a while ths i where i rant bout nothing and talk aobut nothing still something comes to mind. oo right.

why do people not go on msn nemore neways? is it cuz were actualli THAT BUSY i doubt it. i bet you that were just all on YOUTUBE and FACEBOOK (which btw is the ultimate source of evil since its soo addictive).

random#3: i want a green tea latté from SECOND CUP.

random#4: ive been craving apple pie for the past.... 2 weeks. why i ahve no clue.

random#5: the craving for apple pie cannot be satisfied by a cinnamon rolls (frosted) it jus doesnt happen

sometimes as humans we have a tendency to make things prettier and happier in our head. havnt we all heard that classic story of....

i fell in love with him 5 years ago, and when i saw him again all my feelings were just gone. he wasn't who i thought he was.

which makes me think, maybe were all just really great potters, able to create anyone into the perfect someone.

we always look back on "back in the day". but have we ever second guess those moments in the past? maybe what we often look over is dat in the past we still had our own issues and problems jus that we got over them (well obviuosly, or else ud still b worrying bout taht now wont you?) and we live a life now without that problem and most of us i realized have short term memory loss which results in us totalli forgetting bout the pain and agony that went into that problem hence making that tmie period perfect.

"memories are only perfect because they were in the past."
-michelle mok =)

its also funny how people dont need to dwell in ur life for too long to make an impact. some people that uve met for 1 week can make you go absolutely insane. and drive you nuts.  then as time separates you from them and your memories.. you start to wonder if they ever exsisted.. or if yuo were simply jus insane. insane enough to create such a person to believe in.  you keep thinkin about how perfect this person is, and how amazing those times you shared were... then you look bak...and it seemed like something you just made up. even if there was concrete evidence that thsi person exsisted.. you wonder. you ahve pictures of you 2 together,  you have their voice recorded, you ahve things you guys have bought together as a memory. yet this preson doesnt seem to exsist. their presense seems to jus have been erased from the memory of mankind... now you think your schizophrenic. or hallucinating... simply because osmething that perfect and that right cannot exsist.

maybe one day when i see them again things will be different, maybe they will be who i always remembered them to be. but i doubt it. maybe im jus moulding you into this perfect thing (cuz nothing is ever perfect hence your not a living... thing) and in reality ur jus a horrible person. meh. i dont kno im confused too.

random#6: i love how the word thing works for evertthing (hahh!)

maybe thats what makes life beautiful though, the ability to create. the ability to believe.

[status.hongkong.CONFIRMED]

sometimes you wanna give thanks for many things in life..... whter we recognize it most of the time or not... we have soo many things that someone else doesnt... let it be materialistic needs or wants, friends or love in general

do we really know our hidden blessings?

i guess its every year when your in the streets of hk or not... you see those people on the side of the streets that are begggin for money and sometimes you jus cant help but feel sorry for them... or those people that work soo hard all day long  and maybe not even being paid minimum wage (is there minimum wage in hk???) handing out fliers on the side of the street. they dont complain. but they do get ignore and thats wht happens to them as they sweat like there is no tomrro.

i find it amazing how they one saying this one kid once told me might actuali be tru...

"friends far apart are close at heart"

it is true that people that are further away are closer? that might be for one thing... thye dont need to deal with each other every single day and they dont need to deal with the daily quirks of each other and maybe because they spend jus less time together that all the moments together become golden and cherishable.

thanks my SLUTS =P.

...i heart yall

itz been 6 years since we managed to get alll of us together sure were missing 2 luvly ladies during our little meeting but it was still lovlyyy with kennedy memories and kennedy love and few ugly but still sexy pictures. all the catching up definately got us soemwhere and no one wanted to sleep until we started to doze off during the movie.... the winnie the pooh magnet thingies wre the sexiest things alive. theyre these things that ... forget it i suck @ desciribn things

randomthot#1: I HAVE literally 18 mosquito bites... im like a WALKING CONSTELLATION

i went to guangzhou and spent some quality time with family.. my little nuclear family wth mother father and bro. sure it wasnt sa exciting as i wanted it to be... but still it was fun =) i found out that my fathero is theeee FUNNIEST PERSON  EVER NO JOKES.

shopping is going better now its either im starting to think many things are better cuz my perspective has shifted to more fobby things already or im jus able to discover more things that id actuallli like =) im in love with this brand called "IN LAUNDRY" now. they have all thes cool tshirts that are al basicali brand names.. not like fashionbrands .. more like random brands like kellogs, trix, coke. 7up and canada dry and many random beer things =)

soo im turning old in a matter of 4 days.. usuallim im uberly excited for my bdae.. but for some odd reason im not that excited... and im not even gunna mention wht i wanna get for my bdae... itz not nice to ask =P

soo i figured that now that ive foound more things i actualli like. im starting to be asked to stop shopping. im sad and  that  isnt gunna happen im gunna  secretly buy a few more things cuz honestly ive only gotten around to about 20 things... which isnt a lot.

NOTE TO FRIENDS: I AM SOO SORRY IF I HAVNT REPLIED EMAILS IN 324879 YEARS ITZ CUZ IM NOW 1/2 FORBIDDEN TO GO ON THE LAPTOPS OF THE HOUSEHOLD im sneeking on right now.

 THANK YOU FOR ACKNOWLEDING MY LIFE THREATING ...RISK FOR YOU ALL

hearts for now <3