I guess no one really uses this thing anymore. anything new will be posted on my myspace. look me up if you really want to. Peace!

It's been a long time since I posted anything....no surprise. I've been real busy with work and all. Things are happening real fast right now and I just need to go with the flow. I dont want to take a whole lot of space writing about the happenings of the past few months. (maybe on a later post). I just want to leave whoever reads this stuff with a little poem I heard. It is an excellent poem and Dale Wimbrow, the author, is a genius. I feel that this poem sums up a lot of my life in few words. Here it is:

 The Man in the Glass
by Dale Wimbrow, (c) 1934

When you get what you want in your struggle for self,
And the world makes you King for a day,
Then go to the mirror and look at yourself,
And see what that man has to say.

For it isn't your Father, or Mother, or Wife,
Who's judgement upon you must pass.
The fellow whose verdict counts most in your life
Is the man staring back from the glass.
 
He's the fellow to please, never mind all the rest,
For he's with you clear up to the end,
And you've passed your most dangerous, difficult test
If the man in the glass is your friend.

You may be like Jack Horner and "chisel" a plum,
And think you're a wonderful guy,
But the man in the glass says you're only a bum
If you can't look him straight in the eye.
 
You can fool the whole world down the pathway of years,
And get pats on the back as you pass,
But your final reward will be heartaches and tears
If you've cheated the man in the glass.

To the few of you who read this, I truly am sorry for not updating earlier....but I have some great news!

.....So here it goes

If you look back on my Blog for December, I was talking about having an opportunity to work Information Technology at an architecture firm. After months of waiting and praying, Alex (my mom's friend) calls me and tells me that he was given the OK from the firm to hire someone to help him out in the I.T. department. So he called me in for an interview. By the next week, I was coming to work in Professional Attire!! Yea baby. It all worked out. My job is to fix any computer related issues on the floor and to help run the server. I love it. This is what I do when I'm at home. This time, I am getting paid to fix the problems. Unfortunately, I had to resign from Disneyland . But the opportunity was too great to pass up. My last day will be Saturday April2. Luckily, the hours I work here help with my computer repair class. On the days of my class, I leave a little bit earlier so that I can get to it in time.

The past few months have been really tough. A lot of changes have occured in my life, but I have had to deal with them. I turned to a higher being to help me with my spiritual motivation and to my family for everything else. They have proven to be extremely helpful. Things have been falling into place left and right. From a huge state of chaos, my life has turned around for the better.I now have stability. I am building my base for a better future. The euphoria is building inside of me from day to day. I love my new job. It has given me a new outlook on my life. I am turning my worries into optimism. To those of you who are reading this, you have played important roles in the steps I took to get where I am today. God has decided how our paths are created, we must do our best to follow them in the manner we seem most fitting.....I am following mine as so. Until next time folks, BYE!

Jose Soto

Nadel Architects, Inc.

Information Technology

Just when I thought that enough time had passed for me to try speaking to him once again, he goes and puts his own foot in his mouth. I just posted a loooooong blog about him on my myspace. Go check it out.....if you're my friend. I think eventually i will release it to the public. It's not a nice blog, but i was able to let off some steam. Enjoy!!

yoyo

So I've been going to church a lot lately. I have always prayed at night, but more recently I feel a bit more complete with knowing that I can truly speak to Him. I have asked Him every night to protect those that I love...which is everyone (regardless of anything else). I feel that He has told me to forgive those who have hurt me. I think forgiveness is a good thing. It's just hard to let go of this anger that has "protected" me so to speak. I will be letting down my walls only to become vulnerable once again....but I know deep down inside that this is what is best.Plus, things will be different. Trust will change significantly. I can't go on with my life knowing that I have anger towards people I hold dear to me. Soon I will be ready to regenerate this lost bond....friendship. Hopefully the feeling is mutual. Thank you Lord.