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Monday, December 04, 2006

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 23:12:37 GMT

"One half of me wants to make a lot of money and like spend it all, but the other half is jivey enough to really want to see it all happen. I do, you know. Because one revolution in American history isn't enough."
-Mick Jagger

Sunday, September 17, 2006

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 01:20:20 GMT

I watched people tonight who said they'd never do the things that they were doing. not when they were kids. only a year ago.

compromising attention and popularity for your morals and values...

you decide if that's an equal trade off.

Did you enjoy being 16?

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 23:49:49 GMT

my mom asked me that question a minute ago. I didn't think anything about it. then I stopped and it hit me. all the emotion. it's been a long year. it's been sad, but definitely happy.

I don't know, I just don't know.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 01:49:15 GMT

so I've got two years left. two years, then it's over. geez, I'm running out of time.

I'm being selfish. I'm sorry. it's a ways off, so I guess I'll get all I can out of it.

you never know, huh? false hopes suck.

thanks for tonight. I enjoyed it. I enjoy you.

the guess who rock..don't they?

Elvis can sing..dang.

school starts back in two weeks. I'm going to busy. really busy.

Grand Funk Railroad=rocking band. here's a little excerpt...
I'm in love with the girl I'm talking about.
I'm in love with the girl I can't live without.
I'm in love, but I feel like I'm wearing it out.
I'm in love, but I must'a picked a bad time to be in love...fa la la la la

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 02:49:13 GMT

one question...why are we trying to spread democracy around the world, when in all actuality our government is very corrupted?

I'm losing faith in democracy. checks and balances-what a load of crap.

we have a bunch of pussies and ego-maniacs in washington now. not a good combination when they hold the future of our country in their hands. thank the general public for that. good job voting Bush back into office. we got our second chance, and blew it.

it's ridiculous.

and about the 'War on Terror', not a bad move in the first place. but why didn't we stop the insurgency when we had the chance? when it wasn't near the size that it is now. we aren't fighting terrorists, we're fighting their birth-rate. that's gonna be a hard hole to dig out for America.

since I'm all alone in my thinking of Bush at my school, I'm trying to find out what is really going on. and not going on what my mom tells me like just about everyone else

Friday, July 14, 2006

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 01:49:03 GMT

I want someone to pass the time with. someone to lounge around with. someone.

it could be you, but I treat you like a human being and not a piece of crap so it won't work out I guess....

I hate these moods.

I hate gas prices and work.

you said you're happy where you are. I'll have to deal with that it seems...

I miss being comfortable and content. I'm always wanting more. back then all I wanted was more of the same, then you threw me for a loop.

I have no drive. when you do as much as you can and end up with nothing, it's very discouraging. maybe that's what's holding me back in many aspects of life.

I don't get comments anymore. thanks guys :)...........................

I'm going to sl(think)eep.

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 20:29:08 GMT

basketball camp is this week. I'm leaving tomorrow.

it's gone. all gone. all the innocence. and it will never return.

I love you, I've never told you that, but I do. you know who you are.
love doesn't always work out, but that doesn't mean that it isn't there, perfect example.

I want to walk with you like I did that one time. I want to laugh with you once again. I want to kiss you, like I've done in my dreams. tastes so sweet, and nothing else will matter. I will leave, but it will linger on. when it wears off, I'll come back and do it all over again. someday........someday.

wow.....

you bring a smile to my face also........

I must go. goodnight. be safe.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 22:20:35 GMT

I'm really starting to hate work. I've worked everyday since last wednesday and my first day off is on monday. it sucks.

I can't wait for camp. basketball all day....for me, it doesn't get any better.

4th of July was boring. I came home after work and played Fifa World Cup, which by the way is amazing.

girls.....................I'm not even gonna go there.

sleep is good, I wish I got some. money is good, wish I had some. love is good, I wish I had some.

summer is getting old, and I don't feel like I am...

responsibility sucks when it first hits you.

so in case you can't tell I'm not in the best of moods.

I'm anxious. all for nothing...

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 01:37:00 GMT

it's been a week. that's quite a while.
nothing has happened though.

well except my car is incapacitated.

workouts are starting to suck more everyday. I hate getting up because I can't sleep. so I finally get to bed at like 2 o'clock, then get up at 6. get home at 9. eat and shower and then pass out at 10 till about 2 or 3 and then my whole day is gone. it sucks.

something needs to change. someone needs to change. anyone.

I need a tan. I'm very white.

Senior year is soon at hand. I can't wait for it. not really for the year. but the faster it gets here the sooner it is over. I'm leaving home, and everything that I've known. I guess that's what gets me through this optimistically. I'm scared. and that's the best part. high school is all the same. every year, nothing changes. I never meet anyone new. I like a lot of the people around here, yet I hate their inability to think 'outside the box'. when is it gonna hit some people, this is not going to last forever. you get out of high school in year, but is your mind going to be ready to be out. I can think of one person last year who got stuck here for a while, and then just ended up completely different than who they were.

I got a 29 on the ACT, yay.

I think that you'll be gone before I know you...really know you. that's why I'm scared about that. I'm talking to you, you know who you are...

Rebellion-The New Conformity

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 15:55:22 GMT

I love how people 'stick it to the man' because it's cool these days. what happened to passion? I don't see much of it anymore. about anything.

man, oh man, these Geico commercials crack me up. that crazy gecko...

the world cup is great.

the heat are pretty good.

I'm boring.

you cheer me up.

no....not you.

I don't think it could happen this fast, but I'm slowly starting to second guess myself.

have a good day.

I hope none of that made sense to any of you.

word of the day: boomshakalaka. because it makes me smile.