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Name: V
Country: United States
State: New York
Gender: Female
Interests: ViDeO GaMeS! (*TETRIS* iS SimPLy THE cLaSsiC); PiAnO; VioLiN (occasionally when I don't sQueAK); BiKinG; BaDmiNToN; SWiMminG; TeNniS (Loretta and I are going to be the next VENUS and SERENA Williams...at least I try?...=T); WaTcH *FRIENDS* (when I actually get a hold of a TV) and RoManTic CoMeDieS; WinDoW sHoPpiNg =)
Occupation: Student
Industry: Medical
Message: message me
Member Since:
2/4/2004
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| So I was bored (as usual), and I came across this interesting site: http://kevan.org/johari?name=Wonessa It's called Johari Window, which allows me to see what you and I think of, well, me.  So... if you have time, please feel free to describe me from the given list of adjectives. Of course, you can always describe me in other words too... hehehe It's always nice to know what you perceive me to be...
BTW, Dennis, I know you've tagged me like a million years ago... I didn't forget about you... I'm still thinking about my 5 idiosyncrasies - it's not like I don't have any, but I have way too many to choose from...  | | |
| It's been a LONG, LONG month, but the last couple of weeks have only
shown me how strong my love is for Won. A couple of days ago, a bunch
of psychics came to my school, and I did one of those tarot card things
just for fun. Basically, the psychic told me that I'm a very indecisive
person (quite true), that Won is my knight in shining armor (VERY,
VERY TRUE), that I've matured a lot over the past year (?), and that
Won and I are in a very trusting relationship and we can complete each
other sentences ( ). Well, no matter how right or wrong she is, I truly believe Won is definitely the best bf ever. Last Saturday (10/22) was our
fourth Anniversary, and even though we couldn't meet up to celebrate
due to our preoccupation with schoolwork, Won sent me a surprise
package through FedEx:
Yup, it was an Anniversary Bouquet.  AND
just to continue our celebration, Won took a bus from Syracuse (right
after his two Med tests) on Friday afternoon to give me a surprise
visit!  I am so delighted right now that I'm forgetting how to write... so I guess more to come in a little while. 
But in honor of our special day, here is a caricature that we got
during Senior week at Cornell (Oh, how I miss Cornell). Happy 4th
Anniversary, Baby! 
P.S. Thank you for your lovely poem, Won. You are definitely the LOVE of my life:
For Vanessa,
You are my spirit, my soul mate, myan9el
Without you I would wither, grow old, lay broken
Even if the world was torn to pieces
Or if I was sent someplace far far away (Syracuse ny)
I would come back for you and only you.
Back then I wrote a poem
Confessing the love that burned within me
I tried to put it into words
I told you that I would fight to be with you
To walk to the bottomless pits of hell
Like Orpheas did for Eurydice, thousands of years ago
Do you remember that poem?
Or the one that spoke of heaven and hell?
I told you then that you would never separate from me
Even if the sky plummeted down towards the earth
Those times of apocalypse could never budge my feelings for you.
You are my other half, my best friend, my other shoe,
Without you, I would be left alone in the dark
Left to grow old without love,
Left to grow old without care,
Left to grow into nothingness.
But I won’t because I have you.
You are the burning candle in the middle of pitch-black darkness.
My north star and the only gem in the sky,
I seek direction from you.
In you holds the key to happiness and our future.
Your beauty, wit, and gracefulness gives me the energy and will that I need to succeed
Though tough times lay ahead of us
We can make it
Because…
We have each other
And that is enough.
~ Won
WON, I SO, SO unbelievably miss you right now!! 
Tears just keep streaming down my cheeks, yearning for you to be right
here next to me again... Oh, how I wish you were right here next to me
again...
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| So I'm finally updating my xanga because according to my good ol' pal,
Eugene, this is the only way to let people know that I'm still alive.
LoL Well, I AM trying hard to hang in there right now. Somewhere in the
boring city of Albany, I am still surviving. Frankly, prior to coming
here, I had NO idea Albany would be so dull... As the capital city of
New York, you would THINK that there would be more life here, but there
isn't, not even on a Saturday night in what they call "Downtown
Albany," which is more like the side streets of Ithaca. Anyway, I miss
Cornell... I especially miss having Won by my side literally every day.
But... I guess I am becoming more independent in a way by being here
alone. I must admit that it was really difficult for me during the
first few weeks. I cried almost everyday on the phone because I miss
home so much. I especially miss Won's contant loving presence when I
study. AND To think that I could have graduated and gone home to rest,
to go on vacations, and to spend more time with my family and bf
instead, like what most of my other friends are doing, makes me regret
continuing grad school right away. But I think I've grown
stronger over the 12 weeks that I've been here so far. Thanks to my
ever-supporting family and good friends who call me constantly to make
sure I am still sane. My sister even came here for a whole week just to
keep me company - even though we're 5-years apart, we're so close that
the age difference doesn't even matter. Or maybe, it's because I'm just
too immature for my age. haha Regardless, she's a beautiful and great
sister. Even though she's vacationing in Asia without me right now, she
sends me an e-greeting card every day to show me her utmost support.
She's such a sweetheart. 
I have also made a few close friends that I know are true individuals,
and that has made a lot of the difference between sanity and
depression... Without them, I'm not sure if I can survive the intense,
competitve environment here without going insane. I feel like I can
still be myself whenever I'm around them, whether it's going to the
gym, having dinner, or shopping with them, which is comforting because
I am such a people-person. In fact, I have even agreed to partner up
with Hui and eventually open up our own pharmacy... We need those
Lexus,' right Hui? Haha Well, first I have to be motivated in my
studies, which is not easy here. When I talked to one of the lunch
ladies at the school cafeteria today, she told me that it's not an easy
school. There are many A students who come here and realize passing is
just good enough. Yet, I think I'm too much of a perfectionist and must
look further beyond the imperfections.... Either way, I really need to
concentrate, and the only thing that drives me now is the thought of
being able to reunite with Won eternally in just 4 more years (when he
graduates from Med school) and going back to home-sweet-home New York
City to be with my wonderful family.
Oh man, I haven't written in such a long time that my writing doesn't
even sound coherent anymore. Sorry people, for anyone who has to read
this incomprehensible piece of writing. Hopefully, it'll get better
when I update in a few more months. 
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| I'm experiencing insomnia yet again... so
thanks to Darleen, I decided to take this interesting online dating
personality quiz, and I guess it's pretty reflective of my bf and me.  Here are the results...
Your dating personality profile:
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.
Liberal
- Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your
left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative
candidate.
Romantic - You know exactly how to melt your
date's heart. Romance comes naturally to you and is an important
component of any relationship you have. | Your date match profile:
Shy
- You are put off by people who are open books. You are drawn to
someone who is a bit more mysterious. You want to draw him out of his
shell and get to know what he is all about.
Practical - You
are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic
people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.
Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life. | Your Top Ten Traits
1. Big-Hearted
2. Liberal
3. Romantic
4. Athletic
5. Wealthy/Ambitious
6. Adventurous
7. Funny
8. Traditional
9. Practical
10. Religious
| Your Top Ten Match Traits
1. Shy
2. Practical
3. Big-Hearted
4. Athletic
5. Romantic
6. Traditional
7. Liberal
8. Adventurous
9. Religious
10. Funny
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| Wow, I'm 22 already... I still remember
when my cousin Eva gave me this birthday card that read "Welcome to the
teenage-world." Wow, that seems like a long, long time ago.
Anyhoo, I watched *The Family Man* starring Nicolas Cage and Tea Leoni
this weekend with my bf, who recommended it. Actually, I've never heard
of this movie before, but considering the fact that the DVD was found
under the Comedy section, I thought it would give me a few laughs.
Instead, half-an-hour into the movie, I found myself crying
hysterically. Why? Well, the movie is basically about giving a man
(Cage) a second chance in life, an opportunity that he had missed 13
years ago. Apparently, he was once madly in love with his college
girlfriend (Leoni), but because he had to go to London for a year-long
internship, he ended up not seeing her for past 13 years. Although he
had said to her before leaving that he loved her, and not even "a
hundred years" could changed that, he eventually became the single,
wealthy Wall Street trader living the high life in New York city.
Needless to say, he was OK with that kind of life...that is, until the
night before Christmas, when he suddenly woke up the next morning
in a suburban New Jersey bedroom with a wife (Leoni) and two kids. This
latter experience was supposedly a glimpse of what his life would have
been if he had made a different choice when he was younger.
Well, I still have no idea what caused the emotional uproar in me, but
I just felt like it was something of true relevance to me. I felt that
I could really relate to the girlfriend in the movie, especially when
she was sobbing and pleading for him not to leave and stay with her.
Something stirred inside of me when I began to imagine the day Won
leaves for Med School. I totally agree with my friends' advice that
fate will lead the way, but sometimes I can't help but think, "What
if?" 
Won has tried to comfort me in many ways, and among the countless
numbers of things he has done for me, he wrote a note to me today,
assuring me of our relationship:
"Thank you Vanessa for helping me throughout these tough four
years. I've always doubted my abilities
to achieve anything, and never understood why I kept myself in the dark. But it was your love and support that provided
me with the strength and courage to break out of my thick shell. Like the north star, you have given me the
guidance that I needed to find my way out of the woods. The next four years will be difficult, but I
know that the foundation our relationship is built upon will not crumble
through any hardships. So take it easy
babe, and relax, we'll make it through just fine" =)
 Hm, all I gotta say is, Thank YOU, my sweetie - You ARE my everything! 
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