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| summer is horrid. i hate the heat. i've been getting random headaches now and then and i cant seem to get enough sleep. i want to do something. anything. need to head to a public library. -.- blah. i cant think straight. i had this weird dream about school though >.> it was the first day and everything and it turned out that barkas was the english AND art2 teacher @_@. scary. and and tina was still in high school. x.o and i forgot what my next class was and i lost my schedule so i ended up following tina into art class, which surprisingly, was my next class. then suddenly was i walking around a building over and over again while carrying my little cousin. *sigh* thats so weird. i got cranky once when i was having a really good peaceful dream, like a super deep sleep, and then my alarm woke me up. >[ grr. i've been bailing out on my dad for running in the mornings. x.x im just too tired. tennis is going okay. i have officially met someone i hate. like loathe without getting to know them first. its just her attitude. and the way she talks. like omg. i want to kill her. cocky, rude, and stupid. blah. freshman. i swear they're really getting worse. | | |
| gahh i want a job! =[. stupid toys r us and coffee bean so far. no word from them. they said theyd reply in a few days if they needed me but its been a week or so. i applied to michaels and bed bath and beyond today. *crosses fingers* come one michaels! i really wanna work there. im scared of the interview though. lalala, my dad's a jerk =[. i saw a now hiring sign at the sally's beauty shop place near 99 cents store, but he said he didnt want me to apply. -.- i just want a job D:! he says he doesnt want me to go out to look for a job, he wants me to look for one online =[. summer's a bore. tennis practice tuesdayy. 4-6. i cant wait. i was supposed to be playing all summer but ehh, i guess that plans a bust. quiero ir al cine para ver Wall-E. =[. garvey! find time! must find other madridians. invite people too, garvey =]. | | |
| mmmms. my birthday went pretty okay i guess. nothing different. my grandma is living with us for a while. shes up and about now, but she still has to rest for 6 months before she can fully do what she used to. well, the plus side is that we getta turn on the AC >D. she took us out for breakfast on my birthday. w00 =]. dim sum. i got horrible heart burn after that though x.o. on the 21st, i started cleaning my room. for the whole day. and i didnt finish. i finished up today. dude. the inside of my nose is raw, i keep sneezing, and my fingernails are tinted black. ugh. but now my room is spotless. everything is off the floor and i have sooo much room now. i vacuumed too. i am sooo ready for the next wave of disgusting insects. well, the good news is, they werent termites. the bad news is, theyre fire ants. x.o how scaryy. good thing i dont sleep in my room while they infest it. hmm. fire ants. D: and today, i found out that i have waaaaay too many stuffed animals. >.> i packed them into bags since they were all dusty and blackish brown =[. i vacuumed some of them, didnt help much though -.-. well, i found tons of old stuff, including my old photo album. dude, i was conceited when i was like 7-9. i have so many pictures of myself in like different outfits and poses. but i guess i didnt do it, my mom did. but i still enjoyed it at the time. i also found pictures of my family tree back in malaysia. hmms. i should reorganize the pictures. lalala, thats about it. all ive been doing over summer vacation is cleaning and watching tv. i needa get to a public library and check out those stupid summer reading books for AP english D:!!!! speaking of AP english, have you emailed barkas yet steff? | | |
| hello. last day of school is now over. ill be heading to graduation in like 4 hours. goooodbye seniors. ill miss them, some more so than others. some i wouldnt mind never seeing again actually. just nothing too sad about goodbyes with them. to be honest i dont really feel all too sad about them leaving. theyll be back every now and then, and we'll keep in touch. and if we grow apart, thats okay because itll be normal and everything will feel easy to let go. mmhmm. i am at peace with myself =]. next year, ill be a senior. wow. so old. haha. i need to find a job. lalalala, summer's gonna be boring and hot. yuck =[. maybe ill study for ACADEC!!! cause you know, i joined. =] | | |
| hmm. been a while hasnt it? well. life sucks. i hate it right now. its freaking stupid. i want to kill everyone and everything. ugh. today's banquet. whoopee. applebees. never been there. eh. first time for everything. everyone wants to dress up. seems like people are so afraid of change that they conform and try to stay that way, forgetting anything thats happened, is happening, and will happen. i swear i dont belong here in this world. im surrounded by people who have nothing, absolutely nothing, in common with me. my thoughts are too complicated, and theyre too afraid to listen and change. they agree and stuff, but no actions come from their words. i live with cowards. sometimes, i just want to yell at people, and tell them everything thats wrong with them and how they can solve all their problems by just changing their attitude and thoughts. close-minded fools. but what if it were to happen to me? i know for a fact that i'd at least try, however futile my attempts. ugh. the city of el monte. i cant wait to get away from this place. people here have major mental instability and emotional problems. i swear, theyre affecting and influencing me in the weirdest ways. but if not for them, i guess i'd never realize how unstable people can get. but somehow, i feel like my future's been jeopardized partly by living here, in a place like this, surrounded by people like that. who knows how my future's been affected though? maybe it'll turn out to be a good thing. or maybe ill go insane and end up at a mental asylum where i never have to face these stupid idiotic people and their problems ever again. | | |
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