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Saturday, December 22, 2007

So this is Christmas

I love Christmas. It’s always one of my favorite times of year (of course).

But this year is different. Last year was different too. And the year before that. And actually, even the year before that to some extent.

But this year, it’s really different.

Yes, I will be in Indiana for Christmas. I will be with my in-laws and not with my family for the first time ever. And to be honest, I keep thinking about how we are going up to the U.P. the week after Christmas so much, I keep forgetting that it will be hard come Christmas eve. Mostly the morning of Christmas. When we wake up at my mother-in-laws and instead of being excited to go downstairs to see the presents under the tree, we’ll be getting ready to go to another family members to hang out.

But the hardest part won’t be knowing that I’m away and I’m missing out on enjoying that time with my family, it’s that the rest of my family is also. Oh I’m sure that there will be presents under a tree (I hope there’ll be a tree!). But it won’t be the same. It will be a new house, and perhaps even new people. And not everyone that should be there will be. I guess I don’t understand why that’s so hard, but it is. When we go up I plan on going to the house and getting anything that’s left that I want. Yet at the same time I am so afraid of going there and seeing it empty. For good.

And then there’s the whole thing about my Dad’s wedding. To be honest, I’m really afraid I’m going to cry the whole time. But not out of joy. Out of mourning. Kinda like with the house. Mourn for what once was and now cannot be. I want my dad to be happy. And I’m thrilled that he is. I want to go to the wedding and be overjoyed.

When the whole thing about them getting married first came out, I asked him to at least wait till after Christmas so I could get over things and be truly happy for him. And that’s just what he did. I am thankful for that. I realize now though that time doesn’t always heal. I know people say that, but to be honest, I don’t think it’s true in this case. And perhaps many others. Perhaps it should be said, “Time numbs”. But once again, not in this case. At least not yet.

So I know, I said I wasn’t using this anymore. But I don’t want to put it on my blogspot. I just felt the need to let it out.
Oh and I just want to clear up the fact that I do love Matt's family. And I am happy to be here with them. Thankfully, they have traditions that are similar to my families. Well just the fact that they have traditions make me happy! Of course, that makes it harder to be with my family though. Thankfully, it's not awkward like "in-laws." I fit in well with them and they and we all get along great. Great blessing.

Saturday, December 08, 2007

www.bethanystorer.blogspot.com

I kinda gave up on xanga for now. It's pretty frustrating with it's new layout stuff and all that. But more than that, I don't talk to anyone on here anymore anyway....so no one's even reading this.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Well we got to go to the pastors conference. Both of us, for the majority of the time.
That was really good. Although this year, the conference really became a time for me to see my fam instead of really trying to hear from the Lord. I know, that's not good, but that's what happened. I don't think I heard one message the whole way through.
Although, Matt did, and according to pretty much everyone, he got to hear the best one. And the Lord spoke to him, so that's good.

I fell the need to share this.

One of the major things that I have learned from moving down here, is that my family is very different than Matt and I. Or maybe it's vise-versa. I knew that before, but being down here has really shown me. I've always been a bit "different" than the rest of my family, and I knew when I met Matt that he was even more so.
For example, he is very slow to think and act on something. (except of course when it comes to marrying me and moving to be closer to me, and then his family, heh) My family may at times be like that, but overall, I don't think so.(for the record, this isn't meant to be offensive)
Now I am more like my family obviously, than Matt is. Some of my family's philsophy on things he agrees with, and others he totally doesn't. But especially being away from my family, I'm pretty much with him on everything. Which is a good thing, although it is somewhat hard cuz it's my family.

So now, I know my family thinks everyone should be in ministry. And I agree.
So does Matt.But the extent of ministry is what I think we disagree on.
I feel like my family has looked down upon Matt for us living the life we live. I think they think that we should be doing more. Even that we should be up there helping out with the ministry (which I know when you're called to something, you don't understand why everyone else isn't, and I think that's the case).
But that isn't where we're called right now. Of that I am sure.
Maybe someday. But not right now.

So here is my main point...

"He who is unmarried cares for the things of the Lord--how he may please the Lord. 33 But he who is married cares about the things of the world--how he may please his wife. 34 There is a difference between a wife and a virgin. The unmarried woman cares about the things of the Lord, that she may be holy both in body and in spirit. But she who is married cares about the things of the world--how she may please her husband. 35 And this I say for your own profit, not that I may put a leash on you, but for what is proper, and that you may serve the Lord without distraction."
! Corinthians 7:32-35

My ministry above all else is to my husband. As it should be. And I'm not saying that those in ministry don't put their ministry to their husband above all. I'm simply saying that right now, that is my main ministry. And Matt the same.
I guess the thing is for me, I want our marriage to be strong before we, or IF we go into full time ministry. I know now, how important that is. Now I know ministry can bring you closer together, as Sean and Lena used to tell us. And I'll be happy when that day arrives, but I know that day is not now. Kourtney stepped out of the ministry to focus on his marriage. A year later, and where are they? They're stepping into the ministry full time, and for good.
For other people, this may not be the case. That may not be what the Lord called them to do. But other people are not us.

Also, I really don't think that we'll ever be in ministry like most of my family. Unless God really does a miracle. Which He does us the foolish things to shame the wise, so it wouldn't suprise me at all. I think God has called us to a ministry of some sort of another kind. I know we think of Rill and Jay often and how, if it were not for them, my church in the U.P. would not be there. God has used them greatly. And I think many times they are looked down upon for not doing the same kind of ministry that the rest of that body does. But God hasn't called them to do that. Someone has to do what they do. Now could Jill share her faith more than she does? Sure. And that would probably be a really good thing. But that is between her and the Lord. Her and her husband are enabling everyone else to share the gospel.

My Dad thinks that the "scary thing about Matt" is that he'll wanna live in a nice house with 2.5 kids. Is that wrong? I don't deny that living here it IS a lot easier to live a mediocre Christian life. But I know I want more out of life than that, and I know that Matt does too, despite what my Dad may think. He may be quiet and not share his heart for the Lord in words often with people, but that doesn't mean that heart isn't there. I know that he seeks the Lord and I trust him completely with our life and where He thinks the Lord has and will call us.

So now I hope my family doesn't think that I think they're wrong in all that they do and that we're better. Because that is not it all. We may disagree on some things, but that doesn't make either of us "right" or "wrong". Cuz ultimately that isn't what's important.
I love my family a ton and I miss them a ton. I wish the Lord would call us back up there. But I'm not going to get my hopes up.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Update

It's pointless to update when I don't have internet.
Why?
Because when I do have internet I think about what I want to update on.
When I don't have internet and I get a chance to update, I haven't thought about what to say, soooooo it's a really boring update.

News in our life.....
we went to Matt and Beth's wedding this past saturday.
It was a lovely simple wedding.
Matt had to get there early of course so I was there with nothing to do.
I really was hoping I could help out...and I did get to.
Beth's mom was super friendly to me even though neither of us even officially "met" each other.
It was just like, everyone knew who I was. Which was kinda strange I guess.

Here's the whole bridal party.

Us. Isn't Matt cute in his bow-tie? He was really excited about that.

The boys and the beginning of "decorating" Matt's car.

And that's it.

Saturday, June 30, 2007

So we've moved.
Yay!
I love our apartment...especially the part of having my own kitchen.
It's wonderful.
I was gonna update a while ago with pictures and all.
But that was when we were mooching internet off of our neighbors...
now it's gone and we have no plans of getting internet.
So sorry.

Now this past weekend we were
in Michigan for my cousins graduation.
And seeing some of my immediate family!
It was nice.
Nothing else is very exciting, so here's some pics.

Us and others playing volleyball. It was great fun. That's me on the right twidling my thumbs....no! I mean getting ready for the ball

And the graduate herself...with my Grandmother of course. Aren't they cute?

And us.
There were more. But I don't have them. So this is it. Pretty exciting I know.
..........oops.....I never made this public. So it's like a week old. Oh well.