new xanga:

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enjoy.

adieu.

You won't understand this one unless you listen to the same music as me and allie.

elektrikXromance: so the other day i was shopping and i spent 55 dollars on a brand new pair of jeans, my knees were wearing thin, you see.
the fish franz: awesome, but my stomach is hurting. i am so sick of writing every song about him
elektrikXromance: well then just put your hands on your head and lie on the bed
elektrikXromance: put your pants on the floor, that helps too.
elektrikXromance: and scream at the radio.
elektrikXromance: gosh, allie, lately this relationship is like a cigarette
elektrikXromance: you know which relationship im referring to?
the fish franz: which?
elektrikXromance: the one with my mother and father
elektrikXromance: it all started the other night when i told them i found a lover, fine as making money, honey
the fish franz: gosh, i cant go an hour without whispering his name. its a love/hate relationship though cause if me and him were hanging out, i would get some lemonade and throw it in his face. and listen to him cry
the fish franz: ok, well back to your mother and father...
elektrikXromance: alright well its like this,
elektrikXromance: every day im outside trying to hide from the fight just inside where my mom and my dad destroy each other
elektrikXromance: i just need to take defense
the fish franz: that is horrible. but i still love you, dont you know its true. i would do anything for you
the fish franz: you should tell them to make it a point to start it over
the fish franz: and that cant they see that tomorrow will be a brighter day?
elektrikXromance: but its been about 3 entire weeks now since i last saw them and ive got about 16 more to go
the fish franz: where are they?
elektrikXromance: im not sure
elektrikXromance: i just keep getting flashbacks from last august
elektrikXromance: i remember...
elektrikXromance: i waited
elektrikXromance: i waited here last year
elektrikXromance: oh allie,thinking of them reminds me of those boys we met at the beach
elektrikXromance: sometimes i wish theyd come back from across the sea
elektrikXromance: to see us
the fish franz: dont you ever want to get up and get out of this town?
the fish franz: hey, as soon as we graduate, we'll get out of this town. i dont think they want us walking out the door, but whatever
the fish franz: our parents, i mean
the fish franz: dont you know that ive been waiting and praying to find a friend like you
elektrikXromance: hey when we do graduate, i hope we are still best friends but just in case...
elektrikXromance: remember me when you finally go because i wont follow you forever
the fish franz: you know i am right here waiting for you
the fish franz: are you following me?
the fish franz: okay... so back to my guy
the fish franz: yesterday he promised me that he'd love me always. but me and you both know, hes a liar
elektrikXromance: oh..
the fish franz: and its like every friday im in love, but thursday just repeats.
the fish franz: welcome to my broken heart symphony
elektrikXromance: well you hate him because his mind is selfish, low and cheap
the fish franz: im gonna give up on him cause hes tearing me apart
elektrikXromance: oh allie the night is disappointed with your choice
the fish franz: and dont you know that ive been crying and dying, these arms are wearing thin
the fish franz: i know
the fish franz: its waiting right outside my door
the fish franz: but every guy i ever meet doesnt compare to him in the end
elektrikXromance: just think of the good times...
elektrikXromance: remember the other night when he dropped by to pick up 1 or 2 things?
elektrikXromance: that was before he made his way out west
elektrikXromance: he didnt leave you on purpose. it was the damn cigarette
elektrikXromance: he didnt know it would kill him that quick
the fish franz: yeah.. hey hold on
the fish franz: okay... i had to hang up the phone with him. now heres this feeling of nothing im able to do
the fish franz: i told him i was used to being ignored, and he said im sorry but theres nothing left to do
the fish franz: i so dread this feeling.
elektrikXromance: oh allie, do you need to torture me again
the fish franz: but i need help
elektrikXromance: this breath of mine might be the last
the fish franz: maybe im dreaming
the fish franz: i am breaking up again
the fish franz: why does he always do this to me!!!
the fish franz: im telling myself that maybe this is not the end, but i know it needs to end. this is love, this is murderous
the fish franz: tomorrows another day without him
elektrikXromance: gosh, well we'll be running, we'll be laughing
the fish franz: not for a long time
elektrikXromance: were gonna die like this you know.
elektrikXromance: this begging motion is beginning to get old.
elektrikXromance: the phones not ringing so ive been told.
the fish franz: these pictures he left with me, they are bringing painful thoughts of when he was still here
the fish franz: i miss his face and i miss his touch..its killing me... i miss him
the fish franz: you know, if i could have a question i would ask him if he ever knew that i was breathing AT ALL
elektrikXromance: dont make this any harder than it already is
the fish franz: thanks, ive really gotta hand it to you
elektrikXromance: he pleaded for you allie.
elektrikXromance: but you just wouldnt hear the things that he was pleading
the fish franz: i couldnt be sucked back into his controllingness
elektrikXromance: what is it that made us so impossible to understand?
elektrikXromance: was it you or was it me?
elektrikXromance: i cant believe you took the time to say dont go, dont go
the fish franz: im gonna have to go with girls, at least we know what we're doing
elektrikXromance: because he didnt listen
elektrikXromance: i know how we can solve all our problems.
elektrikXromance: lets start a band.
the fish franz: i just want to hang onto something that wont break away or fall apart, like the pieces of my heart
the fish franz: yeah!
the fish franz: i know its only rockn roll, but i like it
elektrikXromance: i dont want to believe that all of the above is true.
elektrikXromance: but bands with managers are going places
elektrikXromance: lets make it a point to start over
the fish franz: who can be our manager?
elektrikXromance: really, lets do.
elektrikXromance: we will manage our selves.
elektrikXromance: and we can have messy hair and smooth white faces.
the fish franz: right
elektrikXromance: i know you dont believe when i say that it wont be alright.
elektrikXromance: anyways, we just need to have some fun
elektrikXromance: lets go looking through our grandfathers closets for guns
elektrikXromance: our we can go swimming in a kidney shaped pool
elektrikXromance: or we can be oprah singers and stand on painted tape
the fish franz: lets go to california
elektrikXromance: ok
the fish franz: cause route 66 is on my mind
the fish franz: we'll just travel through the country, giving each other advice
the fish franz: hes just a man, anyway, right?
the fish franz: he doesnt know his way and he never will
elektrikXromance: or we can use type writers and think of the frenzied pace of the mind inside the cell
elektrikXromance: oh, best friend, we have minds like diamonds
elektrikXromance: and eyes that burn like cigarettes
elektrikXromance: and we can go around wearing short skirts and long jackets.
the fish franz: alright!
the fish franz: i bought a new bag of pot- lets make a new start
the fish franz: who needs guys!
elektrikXromance: ok!
elektrikXromance: lets face tomorrow. lets take our breath away.

were so fucking cool.

You promised you would quit, but you just can't let it burn to the ground, burn to the ground again.

So, besides being sick, I am really loving my life. Well I'm loving it today, atleast. I swear, my emotions change so much, I confuse myself. I don't know how any of you put up with me. hah.

Yep, I'm happy. Today is mine and Adam's one month . Happy Anniversary, babe. I love you. I look forward to many, many more months.<3

 Poppet (aka allie), thanks for always being there for me, no matter what. You really are the best friend a person could ever have...even though you can't count past 5. (hey, I can count for you!) Anyways, you rock. and our friendship rocks. and I hope it goes on forever.

I made a kid today in biology, named Robase. Yep, a kid.

Tonite, I am a mix of all the people I hate. But, I don't hate myself. Weird.

grr. I have a cold. My hands are numb and I just sneezed.

EOA and TS are awesome. I'm addicted. You should be too, if you know who they are.

So me, Allie, and Jeff are on a anerexic diet. Yes, it's possible. Really, it is.

Heres some neat/interesting pictures for ya:

um? no explanation?

Oh, dear,dear Chelsea.

I'm guessing he's...hm...constipated maybe?

High Five!

hah. Strike a pose why don't ya.

Gish. My right eye looks beat up...and like i have no eyelashes...but theres my new cell! Oh and I've been told by a good friend that i have "i love lucy hair" in that picture. Dude, I SO rock.¢¾

rar.sickness sucks.