| | Hey whats up,
No Im not dead as you can see, I know I havent typed on here or spooken to alot of you, but theres been somethings I've need to think about and some stuff I needed to do. If I have made you mad I'm sorry but I need to do this for myself and for my baby.
I feel like I'm growing up and its happening kind of fast . I have had to cut some people out of my life that were not good for me and most of all not good for my baby. I really dont know how to explain it I just had to basically say if their stressing me out, their stressing my baby out which isn't good and I care about this little life inside of me more then anything is this world right now and I'm gonna do anything to give it a health and happy life that includes me not being stressed out and if that means I'm not gonna have any friends for the rest of my life, if it has to be just me and my baby then so be it. Its like Medea says "I would rather be alone in a corner with a goldfish and a puppy and be happy then to be stressed out".
As the weeks go by and the doctor appointment keep coming I get more excited about the baby. As a matter of fact I'm the happiest I've been in a while, Just to think that I'm gonna be someones mommy for the rest of my life, imagining if it's gonna mama's little man or mommys little princress(I dont know yet) all the soccor, basketball, and football games. All the ballet, jazz and tap dancing classes, swim lessons, nightmares, mother's day presents, happy meals, camping trips, bo-bos, chickenpox, hugs and kisses and all the "I Love You Mommy" that I am ging to experience is enough to make me smile. Now don't get me Wrong I know all of it isn't gonna be all kisses and candy but hey nothin ever is but Ill sure as hell try.
Well as for these days I have been hanging out with my family alot, hanging out with Skyler and some friends from high school that I graduated with. Also I've been taking alot of classes that my doctor(aunt) receemed for child birth, I'm in like every single program offered to moms like me as well as a shit load of doctors appointments on top of working so I have to keep me busy.
So as for you guys, hope all is well. Type you guys later
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| | Posted 7/31/2006 4:53 PM - 4 comments
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