Well, it happened...

...the first fight. And it was really gay.

Yep, almost 8 months in and we had our first argument. Considering my track records with past relaionships, that's pretty good...especially since most of my relationships end by this point in time. But I was still pretty upset.

Mike is becoming very enthusiastic about doing new stuff over the summer, and I'm cool with that. But I couldn't see how he was going to fit work, band, the gym, bowling, karate, japanese fighting class, fencing, friends, and me all into one schedual, or come up with the money for the gym, karate, japanese fighting class, and fencing when he needs to buy a new car. I told him there was no way that was even possible. So he sat down and wrote out a VERY jam packed schedule. Once he put Japanese fighting class and some other activity on friday night, I got upset. I was like "usually you see me on fridays" (He erased that one). I'm all for new hobbies, but I didn't understand why anybody would want to work out 2-3 times a day 5 days a week. I told him there's no way he'd want to do that, and he said it wouldn't be that bad. But then he also found out he needed time to eat dinner and go to Hospitality Creek. I was getting kind of angry. I mean, I don't mind that my boyfriend wants to try new things. I actually think that's really cool. I just think that I was mad more so because I was scared that with all that other stuff he wouldn't have any time for me. So then Allie and I made a ridiculous schedule for me to try to get him to see things from my point of view...

...that's kind of when it got ugly. Between working 9-4 5 days a week, SCUBA diving 7 days a week, culinary arts class once a week, guitar lessons 3 times a week, going to the beach once a week, and saving baby seals twice a week, that left me between 8pm friday night and 7pm saturday night to be with Mike. That upset him because he at least left his schedual pretty clear for the weekend to see me. So by trying to make a point and being obnoxious about it, I pissed him off. And I guess I didn't help things because he wasn't bowling too great. He wouldn't even look over at me for the rest of one game. I got really bummed out.

He came over to me a little later and pulled me aside and hugged me. I apologized and he said it was ok. He explained that when he's in a bad mood things compound so even if one thing gets better he's still mad about the other, and that his bowling and our argument set him off. He said that the schedule wasn't set in stone, it was just things he's always wanted to try but never got the chance. We were ok after that. I apologized to him later again for taking things way out of hand.

I'm lucky my love is such an easygoing guy. I think the fight thing upset me so much though because we've never been in one and with that often fatal 8 month mark looming days away I was on edge for the rest of the day. I just need to chill. As Allie said, fights like the one we had today are healthy, there's no such thing as perfection, and we needed to do it. "Whatever doesn't break you will only make you guys stronger."

Stupidest argument of my life, but at least it's over. I hope it's a very long time before we ever have one again.

Reach out and touch faith

So, here I am, typing my very overdue entry.

Sorry, kind of got caught up in the world of myspace and figured that anything I couldn't post there wasn't worth posting. But I like this, because it's much more private and I can write about a lot more without people reading it, regardless of the good or bad. Not exactly sure who I'm apologizing to though, considering I know of maybe 5 people that MIGHT read this, and that's including myself.

This entry is going to start out very mushy, just a warning.

Mike is the most amazing guy that I have ever had the blessing (that's right, I said blessing) of knowing in my entire life. It's hard to even figure out where to start when talking about him. He's pretty much everything I've ever wanted in a guy and more. And I can now say with absolute certainty that I have never been in love in my live before I met him. No other relationship I've had even compares. We'll have been together for 6 months in February and when I think of him, I still smile. When I think of our first kiss, my heart still jumps. When I hang up with him on the phone, I still get stupidly giddy. And knowing that he's in love with me too is the best feeling in the world. I've never been so comfortable with someone, and still so nervous at the same time lol. Sometimes when I go visit him I still get nervous, and I don't know why. And for once I know what it feels like to have a boyfriend that is truly one of your best friends as well. I just love him so much, and I want him in my life for as long as he's willing to stay in it.

In other less lovey news, senior year sucks. I hate it about 85% of the time. Just going to school is a literal waste of my time. I don't do ANYTHING while I'm there.

I wanted to write more, but I'm fucking starving, and I've got to get in the shower and get "sexified" as Lindsey put it.

<3

Adri

Been a long time...

I haven't been on here in quite some time...

Does anybody even read this anymore?

Well, if they do, I'm well overdue on an update. Which I will get on here very very soon.

Just not tonight. Moment of Truth comes on in 15 minutes.

<3

Adri

Kiss me like you did, my heart stopped beating

Mike is amazing. I'm really excited about us... he's such a genuinely nice guy. I just love being around him. I'm so much more chill when he's around. It's like I'm not angry or stressed about anything. He's good looking, smart, an amazing kisser...he's completely down to earth and kind of quiet. his friends are awesome. He doesn't seem phased in the least that i'm 17 and I live an hour away. He wants to make it work. And so do I. The distance thing def sucks though. I already have a hard time when I have to leave. But I'm going to try hard. I think he's definately worth it.

<3 Adri

Currently: Nauseous

My new favorite lyrics in the wolrd ever.

Breathing In Sequence

Breathing in the same sequence
While trying to make sense of your situation
What we got ourselves in, two more weeks of one way conversation
She says she's losing interest
I swear that we are best friends till the end

This could be the plans for revenge
But these words lead to dead ends

So close your eyes and kiss me like it's our last time
These lips need medication, these days are dripping poison girl
Days to turn to nights I wish on the stars in the sky
Be careful of the brightest, beauty is on the inside

I wish I could but I know I can't take it back, it's serious
Just like heart-attacks
My personality, avoid the scenery, I hate playing games with the industry
That fuels these dreams, and turns them down
When my heart breaks it makes a sound

This could be the plans for revenge
But these words lead to dead ends

So close your eyes and kiss me like it's our last time
These lips need medication, these days are dripping poison girl
Days to turn to nights I wish on the stars in the sky
Beauty is on the inside