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Friday, May 09, 2008

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    Unwritten Law
    By Unwritten Law
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    blah blah blah

    fucking bored.

    what to say?. uhh had a job interview at walmart. it went well. but uhh have to pass the piss test. cross ur fingers hope i get it. ^____^

    but uhh yea granny asked me if i would go with her to the new house either next week or the week after to help her out. idk. :( i dont want her to move. but theres nothing i can do.

     I cant go visit alex saturday if i get this job. and or even if i dont because i dont have a ride and i have no money to be like hey someone take me i need to go see him. like i feel like a horrible g/f but ya know.. i kinda do need to take care of somethings so we will be able to move in together in a year. i cant just keep doing the same things i have been doing. i dont have any money to my name. Not even enough money to buy fucking stamps so i can mail him letters. i feel like such a bum.

    hope he understands.

    he should be calling me tommarrow afternoon sometime. i cant wait to talk to him. i miss him more then ever. i feel bad cuz i cant go visit him. i wanna go see him. but i dont think there is any way i can. :(.

     

    i fucking miss him more then anything.

    I LOVE ALEX LANPHEAR!

     

    anyways nothing else really to say except i miss alex. alot. alot alot.

     

    Love,

    Trishy

     

    p.s. i love alex

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

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    Sing the Sorrow
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    fakes, liars, wannabes

    I think i finally realize who i can really trust and who i can really be close with.

    I think that most people are stuck up and fake. No one is truelly themselves and no one is true.

    what is wrong with people now. i mean back in the day it was so easy to be like oh yeah im friends with this person and that person. Now its like okay. This person is completely out of their mind and doesnt know what they want. Dont lie to me. Dont pretend like you give a shit. If you dont wanna be my friend then dont. It wont hurt me in least bit. i know now who is my friend. And even if that is only one person. then so be it. i dont need anyone else. Life is the most puzzling thing ever. Seriously what are we meant to do? Fail then fail again? Its like we are just walking in one big circle. Im tired of people doing the same thing over and over. Oh yea were friends. Oh wait we havent talked in a while ur not my friend anymore. Fuck that.

    Fuck people who arent who they really are and put on this stupid ass cover. Who cares how dumb you really are. who cares what ur like deep down. If thats who u r embrace it. Dont fucking sit there and pretend ur something ur not.

    I am who i am and im not scared of that. Im a total fucking nerd. I like pokemon and i like zelda. i love video games that scare the shit outta me. i like roller coasters. and amusement parks. I love halloween. I love candy. but cant eat it cuz my teeth are fucked up. i get pimples from stress. i used to pick my nose. i cant do jumping jacks. I like guitar even though i cant play. Piano is the most beautiful instrument ever. I love goth music. it makes my soul feel good. I like industrial and techno. gets me pumped. I will always be a fan of the macorana. I admit i still like good charlotte. I hate sports. i think they are the biggest waste of time. I dont like smoking anymore. i quit. I smoke to many cigerettes. I like drinking in small porportions. I like swimming. i love food. and i love cooking. But i dont want to work in a resturant. i want a job i can have for a long time. i wouldnt mind working at walmart. I hate living in aberdeen. i hate death. i hate missing people i hate remembering the past. i hate that i live in the past. i hate that i cant move on with my life. i hate that i never have clouser. i hate that i cant stand to be alone but always am. I love movies. Chick flicks and disney. Horror movies and thrillers. I hate action movies. im a sucker for romance. i cry during movies. i cry when someone hurts me. i cry when someone yells at me. im sensitive. I hate being hurt. I like pudding. Im mad that alex is gone. im mad because drugs were more important then i was. Im mad because Everyone only thinks of themselves and im tired of being lied to. Im tired of people reminding me of what i failed at. Im tired of people reminding me of my hardships. and im tired of writing to no one. im an attention whore. I love my camera. my walls are my best friends. and i hate people. im fat. My head is ugly. ive been picked on my whole life and still am. i feel as if ppl talk about me all the time. i have anxiety.  i used to cut myself. alot. ive been in shepard pratt twice. i hate cops. i hate the goverment and i hate our judiscial system. I think our courts are messed up. I miss justin hannah. i pissed my pants in the third grade. it still haunts me. I like it in the butt and i like sex.i dont like forplay. i like rubber bands. when i get nervous i twist them between two fingers. im engaged. and im happy. Even though hes gone atm im still happy. I miss my grandfather. I miss blk josh. i miss steve baker. i wish they would come back to me everyday. I miss my family. i wish my brother would move back home. i feel so lonely all the time. Ive been depressed badly since i moved. new places scare me. I wanna live on my own. i wanna get my lisence n my ged and be fruitful. but im scared. im scared to get a job.i love dancing i love writing. i love experimenting with my hair. i love pericings i love tattoos. I love hurting myself.

     

    yea.

    -trishy

    p.s. i love alex.

Sunday, April 27, 2008

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    A City by the Light Divided
    By Thursday
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    what a grand day

     today has been gloomy as shit.

    ive been tired all day.

    dont feel like moving & i dont feel like being online. i think i shall go play gamecube. write alex another letter smoke a cig and pass out.

    Yesterday was good.

    I got to visit alex. :D PICTURES cuz its been so long lol.

    0422080038 i gots a cool gaia OMG hat.

    0426081736i got the shades so i will not get turned into a zombie :D

    p.s. dont build Sheds in high winds.

    0426081532a Were down here!

    0426081532 I got no lips i got not tounge

    0426081531 hi there :D

    0426081530a scrunches

    0426081530 Ahhhhh

    0426081517 eh?

    0426081515 smooches

    0426081514a i shall eat u

    0426081514 us trying to be serious picture

    0427080131 sara about to go to sleep.

    he doesnt know i have these. MWhahahahah i so freaking win. tee hee :D

    Love,

    trishy-p00

    p.s. enjoi. More photos to come. xoxoxo

    p.s.s. i love alex.

Friday, April 25, 2008

Thursday, April 24, 2008

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    No Really, I'm Fine
    By The Spill Canvas
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    ONE WEEK!!!

    ZOMG 1 WEEK TILL THE BIRTHDAY MASSACRE AND MINDLESS SELF INDULGENCE SHOW!

    i am beyond excitied. so tommarrow i shall be getting a call from fashion bug to see if i got the job or not. i hope i did. :D i really need a job damnit.  and uhhh what else stevie is coming over tommarrow night. I get to go visit alex this saturday. :D YAY finally. two weeks seemed so long. important news deseveres a new line.

    Granny is moving in the next couple weeks. Wtf. im so angry. i know there is nothing i can do about it but  why so sudden?. i hate it. i mean 1st of all this is just another book tossed on the pile. first she doesnt tell me about duke. Second she sells the truck. Third has been just getting rid of all the stuff in the house. WTF IS GOING ON?!?! seriously if she gets rid of anything that has to do with pop im gonna be really upset. i miss him so badly.

    can i rewind 4 years?

    plz. ill be nice i promise.

     

    all the men in my life that i loved have either left or passed. am i cursed? whats wrong with me. well im done idk what else to say.

    I miss alex. alot more now then ever.

    Love you guys.

    Trishy

    xooxoox

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