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Name: Natalia
Country: Malaysia
Birthday: 5/17/1986
Gender: Female


Interests: I like movies, writing stories and some scripts. and I lov music...
Expertise: I'm smart. I have a lot of ideas and I have great imagination.and I'm a very independant person.
Occupation: Other
Industry: Art


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Member Since: 11/26/2005

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Saturday, December 31, 2005

MONDAY
Intake:

B- 1 orange
L- 5 slices of pineapple,
     fried crab with egg
D-2 slices of pineapple
S- nothing

Intake (if I cannot resist temptation, I would have ate.....)
-ice-cream (115)
-1 banana
-cheese salad bread
-2 bun with red meat
-a slice of cake
-some cheese crackers and peanut butter cookies
-Tou Sa bun
-2 corns
-rice with crab meat with fried fish (3 slices) together with Thai chili sauce
-mee with meat

 

TUESDAY
Intake

B - 1 orange (50?)
      1/2 banana (50?)
 
L - a little canned corn (50?)
      fried cabbage with a little crab meat (100?)
      5 pieces of Haw slices (100?)

D -  nothin
S = nothing

Total - 350 (still ok)

Exercise for  20 minutes  (jog and walk)  -  I know, I'm a poor runner

Intake (if I cannot resist temptation, I would have ate.....

 - noodles with chicken flavour together with crab meat  (360)
   or   noodles with vegetable flavour together with crab meat (700)
 -1 banana (100?)
-some cheese crackers and peanut butter cookies
 - milk cream wafer (112)
 - white bread with kaya (350)
 -strawberry cookies (135)
 -Tou Sa bun
 -1 butter bun
 -ordinary lunch - rice, crab meat, fried cabbage
 - ordinary dinner - rice, crab meat, 4 fried chicken wings with Thai chili sauce
 - durian (my fav), no more coz the calories too high
- some sweets


WEDNESDAY
Intake:
B-1 orange(50)
L-1 orange(50)
D- some veggie and soup ( 70)
S-1 butter bun (chew and spit),
    3 pieces of bread with butter (chew and spit),

Total - 200
walk for 20 min

 

Intake (if I cannot resist temptation, I would have ate.....
-1 banana
-some cheese crackers and peanut butter cookies
 -8 pieces white bread with kaya (677)
 -strawberry cookies (135)
 - durian
 -1 Tou Sa bun
- pineapple
- Haw slices


THURSDAY
Intake:
B -1 orange(60)
   -4 Haw slices (40)
   -2 pieces of bread with butter, chew and spit (10?)

L - 3 bites of rice with chicken meat together with sauce, chew and spit (20?)
      3 strawberry snack with corn, chew and spit (20?)
      2 spoonful of canned corns (50?)
      4 thin slices of cucumber (5?)

D -1 piece of meat pig, chew and spit (10?)
      some chicken meat
      some corns

TOTAL - 300
walk for 20 min

 

Intake (if I cannot resist temptation, I would have ate.....)
B-15 strawberry snack with corn
   -4 pieces white bread with butter
   -some cheese crackers and peanut butter cookies
   -durian
    -1 Tou Sa bun
    - 3 fried chicken wings

L- normal lunch (chicken rice with sauce)
  - 2 more fried chicken wings
  - a few strawberry snack with corn
  - corn flavour ice-cream

D- normal dinner ( chicken rice with sauce again), I lov it!
   - fried chicken wings again
   - a few bites of corn flavour ice-cream again


FRIDAY
B- Haw slices (50)
L-a little veggie with tuna (50?)
D- an egg white  with a little veggie (40?)
      some Haw slices (50)

T - 190

walk and run for 20 min

SATURDAY
B- some sour snack (50)
L- 1 bite of canned corns (50)
D- 2 bite of canned corns (70)
     a few bites of fried veggie with eggs (100)

T- 270

walk for 15 min, gosh, i just dont hav any energy to exercise

Intake (if I cannot resist temptation, I would have ate.....)
- normal breakfast- rice, 1 duck egg, a lot of sauce, and a lot pork
-noodles with chicken flavour (360)
-sweet bun (my fav)
-1 egg cake
-2 oranges
-1 Tou Sa bun
- normal lunch- rice, 1 duck egg, a lot of sauce, and a lot of pork, fried veggie with eggs,4 slice of  fried beef    with sos Thai chili
 - a few strawberry snack with corn
  - corn flavour ice-cream
 -some cheese crackers and peanut butter cookies
- a lot of chocolate
- some sweets
-some cookies with high fiber
- 1 banana


SUNDAY (HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!)
 
I have make up my  mind to have a normal meal once in a week, which is in Sunday. I and my family have always go out to have breakfast after church, so I cant skip it. I plan to eat Dien Mien Ngu, a kind of noodles tat's made of mainly flour  with some fishballs in it. It is the safest, I think. I dont know the calories as I have no where to find it. 360 maybe? Or 400. Anyway, to be safe, I will do a lot of housechores( sweeping the floor, washing the clothes, mopping the floor) and eat nothing for the rest of the day.

Plan
B-Dien Mien Ngu
L-nothing
D-nothing

Walk and jog for 40 min

I realised that I ate very little these few weeks, but I dont agree tat i have eating disorder. I do eat meat, veggie, and fruit but only in a very small amount. Wat I really cut down is bread, rice, biscuits, sweets, banana, chocolate, cheese, pizza, cakes, egg yolks,ice-cream, peanuts,keropoks,fast food,durian,pineapple, and fried food(if I can totally avoid it).


My New Years Resolutions:

1. lose weight  -current weight: 114 (5'3)
                          -goal: 100

    HOW: walk for 20 min everyday
                 eat less than 400 cal  per day

2. study nursing for 3 years and become an air-stewardess, travelling all around the world, hope for a lot of     interesting things happen

3. Find a very rich  guy  and marry him when i was 23
   - he is a very successful  film producer and a director and a very successful  businessman
   - he is not handsome but a very nice guy, he is in his 30s or 40s.
   - he got a lot a lot of money and has been married once with no children
   - he cares a lot  about me and like me the way I am, he finds me very attractive and cute
   - he got a very big house with a lot of maids and has a few cars
   - he understands that I don't want kids that soon, and he forgives me in a lot of ways
   - when we are married, he provided me with a lot of money and let me do with the money in my way,      never ask me about how I spend the money, he respected and let me try all the weird ideas I have
   - our wedding will be a big wedding, and I will design my own wedding dress. The wedding will be held      in Hawaii at night in a beautiful place with all the lights and all


Sunday, December 25, 2005

WHAT HAPPENED THIS WEEK

FRIDAY
Morning>
       I was suspected to have Dengue. I got red spots all over my body, it is damn itchy. After I checked my blood, Thank to God it's not.
      I checked my weight in the hospital and I've lost 10 pounds ( I'm 5'3). I'm now 116. My mom suspected tat I have eating disorder, but she is too tired to care wat I eat or dont eat, she got a lot of works to do....plus, my family dont eat breakfast, lunch or dinner together, so, they wont know wether I have eaten or not.......
     I'm still on diet since last Monday....

Night>
      One of my cousin's wedding nite....the bride is fat (I dont know how she can be tat fat on her wedding nite)
      Got a lot of food, I ate everything, include cake, rice, fish, pig...............until I'm full, really full.......feel regret.....start to hate myself......must have gain weight.
    
    
SATURDAY
       I went to find a job.......want to learn to make cake, anything with food......but couldnt find any......gonna try again in Monday.
       Still on diet........obsessed with food.....smell the pizza......keep looking at it..........keep on watching food channel..........goin to town to see the cookies........watching my sis eat the pizza, butter cookies, cheese cookies............find food pics in the internet.........Gosh, I must be crazy

SUNDAY
      IT'S CHRISTMAS!!!!!! I don't celebrate .....only went to church and receive a wood keychain ( shape of fish with JESUS in the middle).......feel sad coz I like Christmas so much but I dont hav chance to really celebrate it........sad coz dont have snow here...      

       One of my cousin died in an accident yesterday ( I didn't really know him). He was one of two passengers and the taxi driver is unconscious.....scary actually......
      Still on diet....

   
THINGS I WANT TO CHANGE
- internet once a week for only an hour
-jog for 1/2 hour everyday
-MUST FIND A JOB THAT I CAN LEARN SOMETHING


Intake on Sunday:
B- an apple and a plum
L- 1/2 pineapple
D- 1/4 pineapple

No exercise today, must wait until the spots on my body dissapear

Intake (if I cannot resist temptation, I would have ate.....)
    - 3 or 4 piece of cheese cookies (55),
    - 2 or 3 piece of butter cookies (75?),
    -  2 or 3 piece of snack plum(25?),
    - chicken  soup noodles (360)
    - Orange drink(50?)
    - 2 buns with red meat inside(300?)
    - 1 Mexican bun with butter(100?)
    - 1, maybe 2 piece of cake with cream( 100?)
    - late at nite, maybe I will have another bun with red meat inside ( 150?)
    - ice-cream (150)

TOTAL- 1315  plus without exercise (scary ......)
    


Sunday, December 18, 2005

I don't want to live anymore.I don't have friends, my parents don't understand me, I couldn't do things that I like, my sisters don't understand me,accusing me all the time, I don't have any talents,what can be worst? WHAT CAN BE WORST?? I have spend years, trying to find a person who can really understand me, who really cares about me, who really want to know what I'm thinking about all the time. I think no one care whether I'm exist. NOBODY!!!!

I really want to kill myself a lot of times, but guess what?? I'm a coward, that's who I am. I cried a lot of times until I numb. UNTIL I NUMB!!!!! I don't have any feelings right now, I'm just empty. I really don't know why God do this to me. Have I done something wrong? Maybe I had and I didn't realize it. I just want someone to love me. Is that so hard? My heart break just like that, no one cares about me. No one wants to know about me. My ex-boyfriend doesn't care about me. I thought he was a nice person. But all he want is sex, ALL HE CARES ABOUT IS SEX!!! I don't believe in men anymore. All they care is sex. fuck fuck

Sorry about the fuck thing. I'm glad I didn't satisfy him. I'm glad I'm still a virgin. I'm glad I left him that day. AND I'M GLAD I SLAPPED HIM THAT DAY WHEN HE TRIED TO FORCE ME...

I have always tried to be a good person. I want to help people. I can't even take care of myself. Why??? I don't understand. I feel so so unhappy. I feel ugly. I start to eat a lot  again, like punish myself. I don't understand, I have everything, food, education ,house, my parents....I think I'm just too selfish


Saturday, December 17, 2005

yesterday I ate only a mango. How much calorie?And I walked for 40 minutes. I feel weak and dizzy and my period is coming today. I can't eat any fruit right now. What choice do I have?


Friday, December 16, 2005

Hi, everyone!! I got good news!! I lost my weight. Well, I dont really know how much, but physically, I'm thinner. It took me just 5 days. How I did it, well, I fast myself but not really successfully. My sister cooked so many delicious food, and the food kept on calling me......you know how hard it is...



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