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Name: Nate Douglas
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Birthday: 8/10/1986
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Monday, December 18, 2006

Mercy Claire Douglas

Dear Bloggery,

Let me start at the very beginning.  It was late March when my Dad called me at school in Idaho, telling me that my Mom was expecting a child, due in late December.  This would be blessing number eleven.  I was elated. 

Months passed, after an ultrasound we found out she was a girl.  It's early November and I'm back at school.  Dad calls me, this time with different news.  They had just discovered that my sister has Trisomy 18, a genetic disorder.  She would not be expected to live long after birth. 

Looking back now, I don't think any of us could comprehend our feelings then, because we have never experienced anything like this before.  We trusted in God, and prayed for a miracle, but we did not know what to expect.  But as we have seen now...God had special plans...

We got to spend Thanksgiving together as family, which although emotional, was very pleasant and comforting.  I went back to school on Saturday.  That Wednesday, Dad called, Mom just had an emergency C-section (she had never had one before), a month and a half before she was due.  Mercy Claire was born alive, but was only given a few hours to live. 

It was at this time that God really began to move in mighty ways.

I was 2,000 miles away from a sister I thought I might not be able to see, and my family.  It was at this time that God brought some dear friends (Leah, CJ, Donny, Jesse and Jacque) there to assist and comfort me.  I was able to get a 6:00PM flight out of Moscow that night.  Only to show up at the airport to discover the flight was canceled, the next one that would leave was the following day at the same time.  But I was able to get a flight out of Spokane (an hour and a half away) the next morning at 6:00AM.  Thanks to the Williams family's hospitality, I was able to stay at their house that night in Spokane.  I woke up the next morning, talked with my Dad and Claire was still hanging in there.  There was still hope.  I had another flight cancellation, followed by two more delays, missed another flight, but was finally able to arrive in Dallas that afternoon at 4:45.  I called Dad, he told me to come straight to the hospital and forget my bags.  It was at this time that they had lost her.  Claire had stopped breathing.  I made it to the hospital, rushed into the room and there was Dad, holding her.  She was alive!  This was the first of many miracles and blessings that God would work.


The Doctors Gave Her Hours.  God Gave Her Days.

I spent several hours at the hospital, then went home to be with my siblings.  We woke up the next morning, to find that Claire was still hanging on.  So I take everyone back to see her again.  Saturday morning, Claire was still hanging in there.  Since she was exceeding expectations, the doctors did tests to see if there was anything they could do to help her.  But nothing could be done.  Her organs were not developed enough, so it would only be a matter of time.  But with Mom feeling better from surgery, we could take her and Claire home.  That afternoon, Abbie was able to come, and take photographs of Claire, and our whole family together.  These were two huge blessings that we had prayed for, that God had answered.  That we could bring her home, and we would be able to get pictures taken. 

Sunday morning comes, and Claire is still with us.  It was during all of this time, that one of our family members was always holding Claire.  She was never put in a crib or a bed.  She was held through the nights.  Monday, and she was still fighting.  We kept holding her.  Praying over her.  She passed away peacefully that night, in our home, in her mother's arms.  She was 5 days old. 

We were able to bury her on our own land, on top of a hill with a magnificent view, just a few hundred feet from where our new home will be.  This was a blessing as well.  This is land we will keep in our family, and will be passed down for generations.

I can't really put into words adequately what this whole experience has done for me and my family.  Being the oldest of 10, I have really come to understand the blessings of children to the fullest that only an oldest brother could.  But Mercy Claire changed this in so many ways.  She was a blessing beyond measure or understanding.  Everywhere she was, she was a testimony of God's faithfulness. 

When most families discover they have a baby with Trisomy 18, the baby is either aborted, or left in the nursery in the hospital.  When we left the hospital, doctors and nurses were crying.  God used her as an instrument to display His masterful plan not only to our family, but to the community.  That we would be drawn closer to Him, and be more trusting than ever before. 

It was also during this time, that God used the means of prayers and support from so many friends and members of His church, to sustain and strengthen us.  I'm serious, we could feel them.  There is no way that we could have gone through what we did without His power. 

This past Saturday, we held a memorial service for Mercy Claire.  We made it like a worship service.  Scripture was read, psalms and hymns were sung, and an amazing sermon by Pastor Gene Franklin was given on...what else?  The blessings of children.

Here is a statement which my Dad wrote, that was put in the orders of worship for everyone to read.  I couldn't say it any better:

Thank you for joining with us today to give praise and glory and honor to our great God and King for the life of our daughter and sister, Mercy Claire Douglas.  This memorial service is not a grieving service for Claire or her family.  Claire was a child of the covenant who this very day enjoys the peace and comfort of her heavenly reward.  She lives in a place where there is no death, mourning, or pain.  She will never know sorrow, or loss, or separation from her heavenly Father.  Some might refer to Claire’s five-day life as short, yet what is the sum of our days in light of God’s eternity? 

 

Claire was made in the image of God.  She had the countenance of an angel and the heart of a lion.  She was a blessing.  We will miss her.  We will never forget her.  We will love her forever.  Our family has been changed by Claire’s brief life and God has been faithful to us in the process.  We have seen our faithful Christian community and the broader Christian community from Moscow, Idaho to St. Petersburg, Russia rise up to pray for us and the needs and desires of our hearts during this time.  Many are the stories I could share of God’s tender mercies to us.  Our faith has grown and continues to grow.  God has revealed Himself to us in ways we never thought possible in the midst of testing we never imagined.   We serve the one, true, great and faithful God.  We do consider it all joy to have been tested by this trial.

May I exhort us all (as we pray, sing psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs, hear the Word of God preached and participate in this memorial season) to remember that just like Claire, we were all once knitted together in the image of the one true God.  That God became an infant man to communicate His great love for His children and propitiate their redemption.  Being made in the image of God carries obligations of faith and repentance, obedience and service.  We can respond with faith or folly.  Our lives can be a blessing or a burden to our family and friends.  Claire’s life should remind us all that time in this life is short, that God’s blessings for faith, repentance, obedience, and good works are true and the alternative is unspeakable. 



Thank you all very much for your prayers and support.  Your comforts have strengthened us in so many ways that they are incomprehensible.

Our family is doing well.  Please pray that God will fully utilize these instances for the spreading of His gospel and the sanctification of His people.  That this story will be a testimony of His faithfulness, and that it will change people.

Mercy Claire was the most beautiful child I have ever seen.  To think how much she was loved here, and then compare it to the love of our Father...is truly amazing.  May He be glorified.








Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD,
   the fruit of the womb a reward.
Like arrows in the hand of a warrior
   are the children of one's youth.
Blessed is the man
   who fills his quiver with them! -Psalm 127:3-5








Now they were bringing even infants to him that he might touch them. And when the disciples saw it, they rebuked them.  But Jesus called them to him, saying, "Let the children come to me, and do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of God. Truly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God like a child shall not enter it." -Luke 18:15-17







"Count it all joy my brothers when you meet trials of various kinds,
for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.
And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete,
lacking in nothing." -James 1:2-4




<>< Nate




Monday, November 20, 2006

The Repuplicans Should Have the Jackass As Their Mascot

Dear Bloggery,

I don't think the Republicans will understand why they lost election.  After the 2002 and 2004 elections, the voters started recognizing how bad and ineffective liberalism is in a candidate (and as a mindset).  Just look at John Kerry, who would never accept the label of "liberal" two years ago because it would hurt his ethos.  Today Democrat candidates are now running with the liberal label and proud of it too!  And America is buying it, because the stupid Republicans dropped the ball...again.  Americans are so naive, they will overlook candidates who will raise taxes and not present specific policies on protecting citizens against terrorists.  All we want to see is a change in the status quo, and any change is a change for the better.  Hopefully Christians will understand and realize that the Republican party is not the answer to our problems.  The Constitution, the Bill of Rights, Conservative values, thinking we survived 9/11 attacks, or Patrick Henry College's shallow evangelical political paradigm (not to bash PHC, they're doing a going thing, but I don't think it'll will go far and Farris is looking in the wrong areas, I experienced it first-hand) will not save us as we look to the future.  It goes deeper than that. We look at history and see people that looked at history and don't learn from it.  Let's not be like that.  No pressure to my generation, but we are going to have our hands full. 

Only Scripture will be the answer (not to sound gung-ho and cliche), but a lot of Christians don't even know what that means either.  In order to change the nation, we need to change the culture first, not try to get somebody in as President and hope for the best.  Imagine having a godly President and Congress, ok great.  But do you see that changing MTV?  Don't think so.  We're going to take dominion of our nation and the culture through scripture, using the means of the church, the family, and the proper Christian education (but man that's a broad term 'Christian education'). You know Christians are doing a good job when the world starts hating us.  That's means we're annoying them.  We're making them feel uncomfortable.  They're realizing their flaws.  This is war, let's start playing by our rules, not by societies.  That includes the dumb republicans. 

<>< Nate

Note: Not that there are not good Republicans, I think there are some good godly men with great Christian values that reflect their policy making.  Haley Barbour, Mike Pence, Chip Pickering, and Rick Santorum are examples.  John McCain, Newt Gingrich, Rudy Giuliani, Arnold Schwarzenegger, and Bill Frist are not, and that's where the Party is going. 
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"You Know My Name" by Chris Cornell
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Friday, November 10, 2006

Nuns With Guns

Dear Bloggery,





Beware!

<>< N8
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Continuum
By John Mayer
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Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Motivational Posters

Dear Bloggery,

Need motivation?  Look no further.




























































May you take on the world.


<>< N8
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Revelations
By Audioslave
-Shape Of Things To Come-
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Thursday, August 31, 2006

Dear Bloggery,

I'm doing great.  Into my third week of school now, and everything is spiffy.  But time is short...so to briefly summarize the last few weeks.................

-My school was named one of the Top 50 schools in the NATION by the Intercollegiate Studies Institute.  Other schools on the list were places like Princeton, Hillsdale and University of Chicago.  


-Trinity Fest




-The amazing speakers (Dr. Peter Lilback, Pastor Steve Wilkins,  Pastor Doug Wilson)




-St. Brigid's Feast




-Raised Eyebrows




-Blue Tongues





-Undescribable Faces




-Swimming in waterfalls



-Jumping off cliffs



-Last Saturday, our rugby team played the #16 team in the country, Washington State University.  We lost, but played well.



(notice the fear in the enemy player's face because I'm coming after him *cough cough*)

Our tradition is at the end of every game, to sing the doxology to the crowd, away or home, win or lose.




Regular season starts in a couple months, where we play our division rivals Gonzaga, University of Idaho, Boise State, and University of Montana.



-Trinity Festival Windy (dance)

Parties, Buck Buck, Cliff Jumping, Friends, Food, Scenery...still to come...at some point.

<>< N8
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Styx - Greatest Hits
By Styx
-Come Sail Away-
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