"i dont tell people when im depressed, i dont want them to worry"
"but but, thats my job"
"well your usually the only one who knows"

<3

we sort of had our falling out. we went from practically brother and sister, to nothing, meer acquantances. but after that, and the hug i got from him, i feel alot better about everything because, hes one person i can count on. and he makes me feel like a human being. and i love him for that and im really happy that were talking again <3.

ps: no no, its not a crush or anything, its one of my best friends okay? not a crush... eriks still my <3 even if he has a crooked tie, a brown suitcoat, and poor stage manners. atleast he looked cute.

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sometimes i just sit outside, and look at the stars.
                         but its rather lonely, without you here.

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"and he took a curl of her hair, and wrapped it around his finger, forcing their faces closer together, and was about to kiss her..."  cute.

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<3

not much to say. other than i did get something to do for fieldday, longjump. ten and a half feet, woohoo. *rollseyes* i suck at track. we had a meet yesterday, today and tomorrow were cancelled. yes.

PS: i hate the librarian.

theres a new xanguhh - www.xanga.com/sympathetic_tragedyx
but it might be protected.

update;;
fridayy was tres magnific. Jenn; Nikki: et moi, walked to CoffeeExpress after school, when we happened to run into Sarie&Dev&Shelb&Kailey. While there i drank chai, saries smoothie, and rupp's chai smoothie, yumm. Then we took some sophisticated coffee drinking photos. And me and devv became rebels till we froze. and then they left, and me jenn and nikki wrote our script. then after i got home i talked to haley for like 93 minutes.


 

 eww.


saturrday was like any other, plain. other than i got these..
 and (from shan)
much love to those ladies<3

i also took some pictures today. and i got some kinda neat ones..
 accidental and  yeah, thats my mouth

6th Place -- not too shabby.

if only le steph, gregs appearel, the jamses, william, and i were on the same team, we would have kicked homeschool behind.

"see D.Predator; that should be D. Sex Fiend"
"well cloey,(the other one not me) your the only one who'd sign up for envirogeeks to look for hot girls.."
i was the only one who had played Macroinvertibrate Mayhem.
secret plans for our SIP+Tracey Pranks.
and other enviro-jokes. <3

good job northern. 6th and 3rd (more like 1st and 4th eh?)

at track...
walking along avec Missy et Maria.
then this highschooler talks to Missy

"missy, whys that cute h.s.'er talking to you?!"
"oh, dont even, hes GAY!"
*at this point he turns around*
"WHAT?! HOLY HELL"

us girls, laugh and run away :) embarassing.

thats all for now. kthx.

oh ps; we managers got yelled at @ track, and like, we do stuff, and no one else does (coughccough)and we get in trouble. and im sorry, but its not my fault.

& its not fair.

so i came home; and drank an orange smoothie for dinner.

                     and i realllllly wish it was my birthday,
                     but i dont know why

                   i AM entering that skatecomp. kthx.

oddstory;; yesterday i was in camphill and we came to a stoplight, and next to us there was this car, and im like "hey that looks like Mrs.Dederers car" and then i look over, its Greg, Ross, and Mrs.D. and then my dad beeped at them, and Mrs.D and my mom were talking through the windows. but how weird is it to get stopped next to family friends at a stoplight in a town where neither of you live?

and id like you to know; im on a diet. without- margerine, redmeat, diet foods/drinks, and ive been reading labels, itd scare you whats in food. if youd like to know, feel free to ask. but i already grossed out my grandma. but im not on a loose weight diet, just healthy. cause im really happy about my weight; im only 114/115lbs. and i was at 118-120lbs.

moms looking into PACyber. yessssssss.

ENIVROTHON 05' -- may3rd.
good luck to stephs team because shes studied so hard and will make an amazing captain who leads her team to victory. maybe we'll come close.. or not. but it should be interestante.

                                PS: im taking my duckfone for goodluck.

Duckphone hehe.

was looking at my old site, and found this entry, and its funny how stuff has changed..

"today was the first day of skool.. on the way to skool on the bus i had to sit alone.. that was depressing but then a 9th grader sat wiff me.. and she was preety kool..

Teachers I Like- Mr.Hanna, Mr.Bowman

Okay Teachers- Mrs.Flood      Mrs.Magill

Evil Stupid Teacher- MRS.POTTER!

today was good.. i dressed like a prep hehe.. uhm eriks in most of my classes so its always fun.. i dont really like art.. and bio tech sounds sickening.. litterally.. lol.. uhm Nikki Jenn and Stephie are in all my after noon classes.. Rossums sits in the back of the room and i sit in the front for TT with Mr.Hanna.. i barely see him =( but i guess its alrite.. i sat with them at lunch.."

and this poem...

i look both ways only to see,
the 2 familiar faces,
that haunt me so,
causing me to stir at night,
keeping me awake,
in a pain of insomnia,
i close my eyes,
only to see the faces,
and their feelings of sentiment,
with a hint of fear,
as though i intimidate them,
but in a whisper i can hear,
someone saying dulcet words,
that float to my ears,
causing a smile to spread across my face,
and i imagine the other face,
with its winsome charm,
and benignant thoughts,
a smile full of warmth and innocence,
his eyes gleam with a passion,
only known to us,
each of their souls pulls mine in seperate ways,
but i never seem to know,
which way im to go,
they both say they mean it,
but i can never tell,
they think its love,
but remember were still too young,
the only thing,
known to me for sure,
is my own muddled feelings,
that confuse me so,
i never kno what im supossed to do,
which is the way to go?,
i guess ill just stay,
here in my own,
emotional vertigo.

i never really could write, could i?

this weekend was such a blessing. i got to sit around, study, go out to eat with the family, go thrifting (where i found a 10dollar wedding dress and 5dollar skis), making macaroni necklaces for my friends; and just relax, and i even get to go to youthgroup today.