I had always wondered what an orgy would be like... it was everything I imagined it being. Fun, open, outgoing people. FREE LOVE, can you feel me, yes you can! LOL I had my reservations though. We walked in and I was thinking... "omg, I am like the youngest person here. I bet some of these people have children older than I am." At first I was very uncomfortable... I really didn't find anyone attractive and I was thinking "omg, I'm going to be naked in front of these people." The afternoon pressed on. For the longest time everyone was just sitting and talking (my partner and I were the only knew people there, so everyone new each other except for us) so after the "getting to know you" part was over... well, let's just say the "getting to know you BETTER" part arrived.

The host of this "private get together", I shall refer to him as "R", proceeded to pop in a pretty cool porno. "Game on" I heard Garth and Wayne scream through their hockey masks in my conscious mind. I started touching and feeling on J (my partner)... the thought of having all of these people watch me fuck him was a big turn on... then some lady next to me was joking (I think she was joking) about not being allowed to start off with your own partner. I was thinking to myself "Just try and take my position, bitch. I WILL END YOU!!!" But I just giggled at her and flashed her my best smile

It was all hot and all, but I wasn't getting wet, as a matter of fact I was bone dry... So I am on my knees performing a very questionable act for a young woman of my status... oh, but how I enjoy being questionable. You're thinking "What does she mean?" Exactly! Mmmwwahahahahah! I thought that maybe if I focused on just my partner that it would get my mind off of things, cum to find out (like my word play?) he was having problems too. (( "CAR!")) So I'm kneeling there trying to focus on my partner and... Oh HELLO! I feel a head stick itself between my knees. Good day to you sir, no "how do you do" first? So this is making me uncomfortable and all I can think about is my partner and what he might be thinking and feeling. So now anxiety is high. I didn't tell the dude to stop, how do you do that anyway? "Umm excuse me sir, sir, excuse me... ummm, I don't mean to be rude, but could you kindly GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF MY VAGINA??? **insert suction release sound effect** Thank you." I had never been in this kind of situation and was completely lost in translation.

So anyway, I faked an orgasm to satisfy this mystery man between my thighs... it worked too, he finally went away. I sat next to J and paid him attention... didn't matter, still... more men and women approached to get a piece. Couldn't these people see that I was busy? Fuckers "FINE, HERE, YOU WANT IT? TAKE IT! Ya fucking horny ravenous beasts, all of you!! TASTE MY VAGINA!!".... So I faked about 4 more LOL... J didn't look happy, he had been having problems as well and didn't know that I was putting on a show for these people... he was PISSED in the most truest sense. I didn't tell him for the longest time that I had faked it, not until today actually... To tell you the truth, I didn't know how to tell him. It's kind of an embarrassing thing to admit, at least for me. J was upset that I had kept that from him (I would have been too if I were him) but he forgave me and I am very grateful to have such a loving man like that... I am, I am truly grateful. All and all it was a learning experience to say the least!

I am a fun loving, happy-go-lucky writer with a witty sense of humor. I enjoy coffee, the smell of freshly cut grass, the feeling of cool crisp cotton sheets. I love art, Monet, Van Gogh, Rembrandt, etc... and I'm in love. I am evolved in the most unlikely and forbidden love story... it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside . My wonderful husband-to-be and I have decided to indulge in our relationship and explore fantasies together. We are both bi-curious, (I know, makes for an interesting couple, eh? I am pleased with it ) and I just recently found myself a little "girlfriend'. Hubby knows about it. No, I am not "sneaking around" or anything like that. She's really just my "playmate" if you catch my drift *nudge nudge*. He's currently in the process of finding himself a boy-toy he can play with. We only have three universal rules with our swinging:

1. Kissing members of the opposite sex is prohibited.
   
2. We don't play alone.
   
3. Pay attention to your partner first and foremost.
   

(there are a lot of other small situational rules that we have talked about and agreed upon, I'm just not taking the time to list them at the moment).

So anyway... this blogs purpose is to document our journey together through love, sex, and our relationship.

Enjoy