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Saturday, October 15, 2005

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 15:53:22 GMT

Your Pimp Name Is... Luscious Love

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 15:48:57 GMT

You Are Likely a First Born At your darkest moments, you feel guilty.
At work and school, you do best when you're researching.
When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often.

In friendship, you are considerate and compromising.
Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking.
You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 00:30:41 GMT

How Observant Are You?

Overall, Your Observation Skills Get: B+

Your senses are pretty sharp (okay, most of the time)
And it takes something big to distract you!

I think this is pretty good dammit. I didn't cheat, this was my first time doing it. Going back through I figured out after a half an hour which ones i missed and now thinking about it,....it was obvious. I missed sides on a stop sign, lowest number on FM dial and which card holds the cardmaker trademark. Good LUCk!!

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 15:10:47 GMT

What's Your Ideal Career?

Your Career Type: Social

You are helpful, friendly, and trustworthy.
Your talents lie in teaching, nursing, giving information, and solving social problems.

You would make an excellent:

Counselor - Dental Hygienist - Librarian
Nurse - Parole Officer - Personal Trainer
Physical Therapist - Social Worker - Teacher

The worst career options for your are realistic careers, like truck driver or farmer.

LOL can you say DUH. All of those things are things I've thought about doing!!!

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 15:06:55 GMT

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

You Are a Frappacino

At your best, you are: fun loving, sweet, and modern

At your worst, you are: childish and over indulgent

You drink coffee when: you're craving something sweet

Your caffeine addiction level: low

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 13:28:45 GMT

First *sigh*

Alright! It has come to my awakening that a transition is coming into play in my life. Not one I expected or intended to happen. See in life there are transition periods. Sometiems it occurs with your knowledge and sometimes without. You travel from elementary school to middle school, moving from one school to the next and thus altering everything about you for you are loosing many friends as they do not go to the same school as you. Same goes from Middle to High. And you hope sometimes that the things that kept you behind and not succeeding at once school doesn't follow you to the next. Sometimes it works and other times you find yourself banging your head against the brick wall because you just so happened to forget to get rid of the Social Pathic Liar that claims to be your friend.

Well, I have gone through many transitions, from Elementary school where I was one of the popular girls, to Middle School where I was the jock and where I first met the social pathic liar who claimed I was a lesbian, to High School where I finally dropped here in 10th grade and that is when things kinda went up hill. Through this time I had always gone to church and there I too hit transitions. From having Charlie has our youth group leader, to Joe. And when Charlie left a lot of the older ones left thus leaving me As Queen of the mountain dubbing me El Presidente of the youth group I attended, for my freshman to my Junior years in highschool. It was there I found two people I loved and then broke my heart. One because he wanted every girl at the church and the other because well...we were not on the same spectrum of the world. It was then My senior year that I found myself again. I had gotten into a rut of being with friends that didn't really talk to me like they used to because they feared I'd "judge them" When I knew I wouldn't. Though hillarious as it was, they'd tell eachother and surprise, surprise it would always get back to me. Though I kept my transgressions inside because that is what a good girl does. A good girl that doesn't get invited to those drunken parties because I'd never do something like that. And thus I was labeled up to my Senior year. It was then I decided that Choir would be my thing and thus I loved it. I went out and had fun and got to have an actual LOOP that I was allowed into. I finally felt free and at home, but as quickly as that feeling came it was ripped away from me with Graduation.

Oh wonderful graduation where you get to actually see the world by going to College, and there I went. Jumping in feet first into a world that has so many different worlds I thought the sky the ground and the sky being hell. It was there I met my next Love and who I am married to now. It was also where I first drank, got drunk and threw up. Its also where I locked Brad out of my bedroom for not being a gentleman and holding my hair back when I puked ruthlessly the first time he got me drunk. It was those sweet times along with the horrors of classes. Acing my classes and Well failing others. But a year or so ago it was then I became bored and online became my new thing. It was this new transition where I found new friends and well I felt secure in the insecurity that I had been delving into. I had moved in with brad and felt a loss of friends. Those that I declared friends had parties and lives of there owns, and once again I had been labeled the good girl that they didn't want to tell there dirty secrets to. It was then I had discovered this life inside the computer.

And thus I began Rping and the wonders of what the internet could bring. My grades fluctuated depending on how much time I spent online. And today it still does. Ofcourse less time online means more time studying....I hoped but it wasn't the case. It was then I had to finally tell myself. And look back on life. I had become addicted. With every new transition I had an addiction. Whether it was church, or being popular or being the jock I had an addiction. It went from eating to partying to whatever else, but this was my new addiction. In reality I still did things with others but not like I used to. For the interenet consumed me, so worried that I'd miss something crucial online. But it was also then I found out how many liars were online. They'd tell you what you wanted to hear and what you needed. It was then I knew that my life in reality was safe. Yet I didn't stop being online I just became careful with who I shared my life with, bequeething those I speak with now to be safe and good friends.

Though I guess enough rambling and the point to this story is that I sadly feel a transition. I have spent this time online, with this group of friends. I had the first group from January of '04 to May and it was then I fell into the friends I have now. Its been over a year and many would consider that a decade for being online. But alas many of them are now busy with other things and projects and school work in college. I feel my era leaving me as I barely see them any more. Some my fault just as much as theres. For I know and I realize that I cannot eat, sleep and breath the internet, I need to be with my hubby and my life. Which I do frequently. Though I'm beginning to grow heartache for those that seem to be leaving me. And my question is....why?

I look back on life and I feel I've been the one that was left, it was never me doing the leaving. I mean sure i have left things. Left softball to start working. Left chorus to go to college, left the friends and the 'college life' to be with my Husband who I love dearly. Left the others online to be with those I know now. But still through it all, I missed every last one. I felt cheated that I couldn't have both, that I couldn't have it all and sometimes I wonder if I made the right decisions. Going from one addiction to the next in this world is not easy. It has taken its tole on me and I see that I now need to grow up. Is it my turn to say goodbye before others do it first? I doubt it....but I see the end in site. It started months ago and at first I didn't let myself believe it but now I find it inevitable, people must grow and change. And perhaps it is finally time for me to reach that growing point...perhaps its time for me to reach the final stage of adult hood and just say goodbye and go on with my life as an adult. One that only gets online to find the cheapest airplane rates and car rentals. One that goes online to do 'paperwork' and get more education. One that hunts for jobs and needs to find a job. Perhaps that is where I should head. For as of now I feel I'm being left in the dust....

Friday, July 01, 2005

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 03:13:33 GMT

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

You Are Chocolate Chip Ice Cream

You are kind, popular, and generous.
You tend to be successful at anything you try.
A social butterfly, you are great at entertaining a crowd.

You are most compatible with strawberry ice cream.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 04:44:05 GMT

What Slanguage Do You Speak?

Your Slanguage Profile

Victorian Slang: 75%

Prison Slang: 50%

Aussie Slang: 25%

British Slang: 25%

Canadian Slang: 25%

New England Slang: 25%

Southern Slang: 0%

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 04:29:34 GMT

THIS IS ME, though I am on the Virgo/Libra Cusp I'll let you decide which sounds more like me, I can go either way but yes....sadly the libra drinking style fits my bill either that or the non alcohol virgo who doesn't get drunk. I'm a sloppy, flirting drunk!!!!!

What's Your Alcohoroscope?

Your Libra Drinking Style

"I'm jusht a social drinker," you slur, "it's jusht that I'm so damn social?"
You love nothing more than to party, mingle and relate to everyone.
Whether dipped in favor of Good Libra (with Insta-Friend device set to "on") or heavier on the Evil Libra side (you are little instigators when bored), you can really work a room.

Charming as you are, you are notoriously lacking in self-control.
And this can get you into all sorts of trouble -- including wearing their wobbly boots waaaay too early in the evening.
You may end up flirting with you best friend's sweetie or even blacking out the night's events entirely. Oops!

Your Signature Cocktails

Aesthetic Libras like pretty, pouffy drinks like a pink lady or a brandy Alexander. That's the influence of Venus, your ruling planet, which also gives you a horror of crudely named potions like Sex on the Beach. You're fine with "normal" guzzles like apple martinis, but every Libra secretly just wants champagne... and lots of it.

Your Celebrity Drinking Buddies

Eminem, Simon Cowell, Avril Lavigne, Catherine Zeta-Jones, Usher, Gwen Stefani, Hillary Duff, and Will Smith.

THIS IS BRAD

What's Your Alcohoroscope?

Your Virgo Drinking Style

Hey brainiac, you are compelled to impose order onto your bender.
Your famously fussy quest for purity could lead to drinking less than other signs, sure...
But it could also lead to drinking booze neatly (like sucking down organic wine or having extreme brand loyalty).
You rarely get fully shellacked -- but, oh, when you do!

Virgo's controlled by the intellect, but there's an unbridled beast lurking within, and they let it loose when walloped. It's dead sexy (and surprisingly unsloppy). As one Virgo friend used to declare, "I'm going to drink myself into a low level of intelligence tonight." A toast to the subgenius IQ!

Your Signature Cocktails

Many Virgos prefer clear, simple, untreacly drinks like vodka tonic or a real margarita, though you can be found drinking anything from unflinchingly downing Cuervo straight to smirkingly ordering a dirty virgin. You also tend to like bitter, low-alk guzzles like Campari and soda. However, you rarely change your signature drink once you've found it.

Your Celebrity Drinking Buddies

Cameron Diaz, Hugh Grant, Keanu Reeves, Nicole Richie, Bill Murray, Jada Pinkett Smith, Adam Sandler, and Ricki Lake.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 04:23:23 GMT

What Rejected Crayon Are You?

You are