I see a new revival Hillsong united I see the king of glory
Coming down the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes
I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing, the people sing
Chorus
Hosanna, hosanna
Hosanna in the highest
Verse 2
I see a generation
Rising up to take the place
With selfless faith, with selfless faith
I see a new revival
Staring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees, we're on our knees
Bridge
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what is yours
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
Hosanna I want to tell you girls about the revolution. the Revalation ive found. I'm a Christian to start out. I've met a few of you on here, and you say you are too. Asm any know, ive suffered through an eating disorder like you are now. I obsessed. I wanted to be nothing but skinny. It was my focus in life. I knew i would NEVER be beautiful until i reached the numbers in my mind. Take a look around my sight. I'm pretty die hard. thats why im leaving everuything up. All my goals. Everything. ED's are a mind disease. you train yourself to think a certain way. It takes over your mind and for many of us, it startys to creep into everything else too. I didn't want to "get out' i sdidnt want to be cured from my "Eating Disorder" . I wanted to be able to get where i wanted. & i knew this was the way. i wanted the attention. i wanted people to look at me and tell me i had lost weight. i wanted people to worry so that i knew i was getting somewhere. A year ago i went to church camp. i told that i was beautiful in the eyes of God. Of course- He loved me so much that he died for me. He was brutally beaten and mmurdered for ME. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=14tZRDdwggU but of course. i still Wanted SO badly to become skinny and beautiful. i thougnt about it. But ignored it. I didnt want to give up this consistenty method i had going. i was getting what i wanted. skinnier. Losing weight. Attention. It was GREAT. However, i had to deal with the pain. the physical pain of fasting and hunger. but the worst was the mental pain. The guilt. the stress. the constant failure. the endless tears and heartbreak when i felt so fat and so worthless. The never feeling good enough the always hating myself. Constant comparing.It tore me apart. you know what i mean. It can lead to depression. feelings of hopelessness. Worthlessness. Can't ever do anything right. I've dealt with this for 3 years. for some of you, its been a lot longer than that. My self worth basically dropped to an alltime low. Then- the revolution. All of a sudden i realized that my purpose in life was not to become skinny. I have a higher calling...one that was given to me by the most Amazing, graceful, and forgiving father. He broke my heart apart. It shredded to pieces. I became dead to myself. I knew that i needed a new focus. I finally realized my mind would never bw complete without him, and niether would my heart. All i want to do is tell everyone else. now this does not mean im going to staert eating ho hos and stop exercising. This means that i still watch what i eat and def. exercise, but when i do it, i can exercise to music that praises God. I cn still be skinny but its not my purpose. not my main focus. My body is his temple. It's time to respect it, the body includes the mind. I'll probably lose some fans of the site. I dont care. i want to talk to you. Even if you dont agree with me. I want to talk to you. encourage you. I'm still here. comment. email. [amy@mccrayfamily.com] myspace [myspace.com/xbabyxblu] Text me [message me for the number] I want to care.
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