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| I jus took my last final at 8am today. It's interesting how the
finality, absolution that comes with that piece of paper has dawned on
me- so much that I almost refused to hand in my test! So I browsed by
Angeline's Xanga and with Vitamin C's song playing, I began my "movie
flashback" of these days. First comes the naivety of freshman
year. I'll miss the HUGE water fights, all the times jumping into
the fountain by the Admin building, hijacking packs of napkins from the
SAC- careful not to b spotted by the cameras and end up on the front
page of the SB Press. Being adventerous, spontaneous and jus
plain crAAzie was a privilege. You didn't need an excuse to blast
shaving cream on the perv RA's door, climb fences into the woods and
scrawl your names on a huge rock, videotape the wild parties or
the cops who pounded down the door at 5am. Gone are the days of
3am excursions to the 7-11 or Kelly Deli for the pints of Ben and
Jerry's, or pigging out on Tostitos and cheese with Sizzle in our room
and laughing at the "craazies" next door and esp. the ones next to them
as well. Do I have regrets? Not reallie, except maybe pledging
twice. I wished I made the rite choice the first time around so
it wudda saved me an F, and not end up loosing my scholarship this last
semester. Still, I love my life, esp. college and even every
single moment of the arduous journey to becoming KDPhi. Okies, not
EVERY single moment! Lolz! Everyone ponders about the "What Ifs" in
life, but I tend not to get too caught up in that kinda of inertia too
much. Life is like a mosaic painting/picture, each little
detailed picture helps in the creation of it as a whole. If you
are very observant of them, you'll notice in most cases it is the
different shifts and shades in lighting of the small individual
pictures that gives the outline of the overall big picture. As
with life, both ups and downs, positives and negatives that contribute
to it overall. A life where everything is just perfect--thatz
just too bOOring!! Lolz, mayb thatz why I like causing ruckus!Muahaha 
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| This wknd wuz crazie!! China nite wuz okies--xcept 4 the AV ppl, who
totally sucked! They kept rewinding/stopping/rewinding the music!!
Then off to our party in the POURING rain! Of courz, while we pregamed
in the car, I had to whip out my fone and take incriminating videos,
especially of me and Lucille acting dumb and Rob screaming bout his
"DreamTeam". I beg to differ waht Rob claims "DreamTeam" to be!
Muahaha. Party wuz alritez- and I partied with one of my gurlz from
years ago, Ann aka *Mirage, who jus crossed at Cornell!! Congrats again
babez! After the party, we went to the Diner, where ppl were still
acting up including me. Then like 3hrs later, I finally go to sleep
with a whole bunch of Rutgers Lambda Neos a$$ed out in my living room
and Lucille and Rob in my room!! Yea, I shudda studied this wknd for
Finals..but waht the heck, the 50% off Sushi that I waited FIVE hours
for (since 11:45 am) wuz worth it!! Well..not reallie..but how often do
the Lambda Neos come down to Stony??! (There's FOURTEEN of them! ) Okies..now to make an attempt to study.
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| So yes, it's been 2 yrs since I wrote on Xanga. Truth is, I am
not the same person I used to be. Maybe it's b/c I don't like to
acknowledge the deeper/darker side of me that over-thinks,
over-analyzes stuff. I've come to realize that somewhere along the way,
I've lost something...Im beginning to think that my smiles are nothing
but frowns forced to turned upside down--hollow, empty and
enigmatic. I used to be more idealistic when I was younger.
Having to learn to accept all the idiosyncrasies of the world haven't
been easy. I do believe we write our own stories in life, but I
just wish sometimes I could relive some chapters of it more than others.
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