Monday... got up at five, went to practice. This morning we ran approx. four miles in the rain. Swimming was backstroke for the most part. I hate backstroke drills, I just kinda sink and my body is totally uncoordinated. It's pretty frustrating. I can't tell where I am in the lane and so I kinda swerve all over the lane until I run into something. Today I ran into the hydralift and the corner of the stair entrance pretty hard and, as always, I had a couple fifty run-ins with the lane lines. I've got some nasty bruises on my back, but no pain no gain, right? I guess it's getting better everyday, and that's what coach has been saying too. I don't know if he really means it or if he's just figured out that I don't do well with people that tell me I can't do something. If you didn't already know this about me, when someone tells me I can't do something I don't get pumped and I don't get determined, I just think, "fuck you, asshole..." and that's the end of it. Am I embarassed of the thought of failure? Probably. So then I went to Marley's house to pick up my guitar and my bike that I had left there. It was good to see her this morning, I really want one more good time to hang out with her before she leaves for Arizona, besides, she has to get her birthday presents... right? I took a shower when I got home and my hair was clean, but I fixed that right away. I just got out a ton of products and started putting shit in. Anything. Random. Wax, hairspray, gel(s), mousse...etc. The wax stuff smelled really good when I put it on, but I blowdried it, and it started to smell like cooking cotton candy. I got scared and put down the blowdryer before my hair like caught on fire or something... haha. So yeah, my hair was big today. I was proud. I got weird looks from patrons at the pool and people in Walgreens, but they just don't get it. Fucking fuckers. Went to Penn Station for lunch. I had the chicken terriyaki and it was good, as usual, but I ate it way too fast and felt crumby afterwards. Work was from 11:45 to 8:30 but the storms let us out at 7:30. There was some pretty exciting stuff that happened there, I guess.

OK so I wrote all that last night... I was too tired to finish it.. see you all <3
Nickolas