whoa.

 yeah seriosuly i think just writing a poem shows your emotional state that makes you tick

Wow, this made me kinda sad inside.

MiLady,

No, I'm sorry this question brought so much sorrow to you.  I appreciate you trying to answer it though.  Know that you are not alone in your feelings or thoughts.  So many think that they are the only ones who have ever thought this way or that...it's simply not true.  The truth lies in the fact that at one time or another, we have ALL had similar thoughts and the exact same feelings.  Being human is a solitary adventure.  No matter how many friends, co-workers, or family members we have around us, no one will ever know exactly what we are thinking at a particular moment in time. . .we've all thought it, but that doesn't mean that we have all been on the same page at the exact same time.  We are human, therefore we can relate to each other, we have the ability to feel empathy for each other.  It is what makes us vunerable and wonderful!  I felt as you do when I was younger. . .I was only average. . .I didn't feel worthy of greatness, of love, of success.  I believe that experience and a positive attitude has changed that.  And believe me, I have felt the hopelessness of that cavern called depression.  I'm much better now.  I used to be such a perfectionist that it stiffled me and I gave up because whatever it was I was doing wasn't perfect.  I find that most depressed people believe that they must be perfect.  Life offers us so many challenges that it is almost an overload each and every day.  Pick those things you feel good doing and give yourself some positive dialog instead of the negetive.  You'll find that when you feel good about yourself, you'll feel a sense of contentment.  I wish you well dear.  You've been linked and starred~Kween

It's not uncommon... just a year ago, I was where you are. I was at the bottom, I didn't know who I was or what I was doing. And I didn't even like any part of me.

So I went on a journey. A big, long, difficult journey. I read books, watched shows, and asked others how they found themselves.  And one day... it finally clicked. A year of hard work, and suddenly... it all fell into place. But you have to want to find something new, something good, something beautiful. And that something is you.

But knowing the situation and being honest about your feelings is a great first step. It's up to you where you go from here *hugs* I hope it's towards happiness.

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What Zeal said.  Totally!

They weren't crappy answers, you wrote this blog from your heart.  Perhaps you're a bit harsh on yourself, but we're usually our worst critics.  Very thoughtful post, thanks for sharing.

Take care, 

Love,  Cyn