Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Sunday, July 20, 2008

  • Sweating it Out

    No need to smoke.
    No need to smoke.
    No need to smoke.
    No need to smoke.

    It is nasty. It tastes like ass. It is expensive. It kills your lungs. It makes you smell funky. It makes your teeth even more yellow. It holds you back from full out running. It makes singing more difficult.

    No need to smoke.
    No need to smoke.
    No need to smoke.
    No need to smoke.

    And it makes you look like an idiot.


    Oh but god damned I'd love to have one right now. 2.5 months and counting...

  • It's 3AM... what, the, fuck.

    So would you believe that my eldest child who is turning 10 in September STILL pisses the bed?

    It has been nearly every night this week.

    I don't want to be angry about it 'cause I KNOW she can't help herself. She can't. We've tried everything under the sun that seems viable but the facts remain as they are- she cannot wake up to piss. She can't. So we wake up almost every second night during the heaviest sleeping hours to clean her bed.

    Who wouldn't be mad? Seriously I was ready to rip my pillow to shreds 'cause I was in such a nice deep slumber and hearing "Mommeeeee..... I peed the beeeeeeeeed" is NOT something to which I want to wake up. A fire alarm, maybe. Not my kid whining 'cause she pissed herself. Hell, Lilith just turned 4 and has been sleeping dry for a year now with only one, count it ONE, night time pee... and that was in pull-ups... when she was first potty training. When it happened she was downright indignant about it and since then gets up to go pee whenever it occurs to her.

    Not Alex. That kid sleeps through it. Now all I smell is piss. Today was a hard day to remain a non-smoker and it seems more and more difficult to remind myself that the ONLY "good" thing about smoking is that smoking REALLY helps cool my head when I'm ready to rip something to shreds.

    And I'm ready to rip something to shreds. Now. Seriously. Badly. I don't have a punching bag and just about anything physical that I can think of doing is really noisy.

    This sucks. Big time.

Friday, July 18, 2008

  • Calling All... oh who cares...


    Act III will be up tomorrow... but you MUST watch these soon (before Sunday) or they will be gone like the wind.

    "I have a PHD in horribleness!"

    Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog
    by Joss Whedon
    staring Neil Patrick Harris as Dr. Horrible, Nathan Filion as Captain Hammer (corporate tool... LMAO), and some chick (don't remember her name) as Penny.

    If you like "Once More With Feeling" from Buffy: you'll LOVE it. Be patient, it takes a while to load.

    PS: All shirts are sadly out of stock. *cries*

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

  • Bring It On

    So I've been working the Khaki Barn in the last couple of days and I've yet to have an opinion. I dunno. It's work. I do enjoy myself... but I am too busy getting familiar with everything to step back and take note. Although I have gathered a few opinions of some of my co-workers.

    Ahem.

    Most people musn't expect much from "students" in any industry. I am essentially treated like an assistant manager by the manager (which isn't a bad thing), a threat/walking time bomb by my "equals", and a moronic newb by the "students". Of course, I haven't met much of the "students": there are, like, 10 of them 'cause they only want one shift per week . But the ones that I have met follow me around like lost puppies just hoping to show me something to do... and they don't... and frustrate me. Dammit, I don't need to be watched!! Just be available if I need help or something 'cause otherwise, get the fuck out of my face. I had to actually tell a "student" to do stuff; I've never even done retail before.

    Manager and I are getting pretty chummy. It is odd. I'm cool with being chummy with my boss and all, but it is odd to be given practically full reign and liberties. Like, "so... what do you want to work next week...?" and "oh, you can work weekends?!" she wasn't going to schedule me on weekends. Doh! "Well, there are some I can't, but generally we're safe..." shit, Dawna don't lie well. I'm still not working next weekend or anything, but, ya know, or well... she knows, I can. *facepalm*

    I suppose I'm not getting over-excited about anything because I don't want it to blow up in my face. *shrugs*

Sunday, July 13, 2008

  • Beurk! (that's the French onomatopoeia for *barfs*)

    I have been dealing with a migraine all day and it is PISSING ME OFF. Seriously. The problem is that I don't know if it came to a peak while I was sleeping or not 'cause I still ache badly, but the nausea, fever, and temple stabs are gone. Sleeping just can't happen anymore today- I've already slept most of the day away.

    Damn this blows. I hate migraines. They prevent me from thinking properly. On the upside, I was able to enjoy some rockingly disturbing fever/migraine dreams. Those are always pleasant in the "oh my GOD what the fuck is going on in my brain" kind of way.

    Other than this news:

    Thank you guys for the positive support. I LOVE it. Seriously. There is little more awesome than people giving you a pat on the back when you're losing weight. So with that in mind... we can do it, girls!! If I can, so can you. Persistence and all that. LOL

    I am a full-fledged BMI of 29 now. That's officially below "obese" on the BMI meter!!! Not that anyone would even suspect that I could be remotely obese by looking at me or washing my clothing. (Large shirts, 34" jeans, and size 14 [Canadian... which is like a 12 US] "dress" size... wait... those are the sizes I NEED to buy.)

    Sorry... just so excited by all this that it is hard to contain myself.

    Oh, two books I want to read: Former Fat Girl by Lisa Delaney and Skinny Bitch (and the sequal Skinny Bitch in the Kitch) by Rory Freedman and Kim Barnouin

    Both books were skimmed through last weekend but at the moment I'm too poor to pick 'em up. So if anyone has read 'em... how are they?

    And one more thing...

    I GREATLY suggest Eat, Shrink, and Be Merry! By Janet and Greta Podleski (sisters... but not nuns... LOL!). This book/cookbook has become my bible. The recipes are amazingly tailorable and deliscious... kid proven. Seriously, I can't push this book and anyone enough. Besides, they're Canadian after all...

    And because it was asked, I can't say I have much of a goal. I'd love to see myself at 140lbs. It is a realistic goal and not too flubby. But knowing me, that won't be good enough. I guess my end goal would preferably be at 125lbs, but then I'm thinking that is waaaaaay too thin for me. Hell, I was at my comfiest at 135lbs back in ye old pre-meeting Hubster days. Chances are if I hit 135... I'll be good. It is also a BMI of 21 for me, which is pretty much as perfect as I'm gonna get. LOL

    Seriously though, I'd like to be 150lbs (BMI of 24) by Christmas. It is a challenge and a half with 35lbs to go... but a challenge I can meet. It'll be a lot easier to meet this challenge if I get into kickboxing this fall like I want to, and with my new job (which starts tomorrow), it is looking to be a distinct possibility. Oh, that and the billion and one (okay I am exaggerating... 8) catering functions between August and September that are sure to bring in mucho dinero. And I'm not just aiming high here. They're all weddings and/or late night snacks for weddings and/or corporate functions.

    Yiiiiiii?

    Yes, "yiiiiiiii" away!

    I'll also have more cash to update my saggy wardrobe. Ugh. I have only two pairs of jeans left, one of which was bought last month and is already getting too big. With a 20% employee discount... THAT ROCKS.

    Erm, there was something else I wanted to say, but, meh. Don't remember. My headache is almost gone and I could kill for a coffee.  Haven't had a coffee since yesterday morning.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

  • Tear Down the Wall

    Finally, finally, FINALLY I got passed my 190lbs plateau. For the last month and a half I have been hovering between 195-190... yesterday I weighed in at 189. Which made me happy. But not happy enough. This morning: 185lbs!!! I haven't seen that since I was pregnant for Alex. So nice. So nice.

    Advice? Persistence. Don't give up. Walls break down eventually.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

  • 16 degrees

    Alright. It is beautiful outside. Nay. Gorgeous.

    Through the windows I see brilliant sun shining and children playing with their hats perched onto their cute little heads- just so.

    Alex comes into the house. "Mommy, can we put on the sprinkler?"

    I ponder a moment and think: "Once the sun goes passed its apex and the UV won't be so dangerous...".

    The sun is now at its apex. I sit myself near an open window AND GET BLASTED BY COLD WINTERY WIND!

    WTF?!

    That wind is freakin' cold and the weather network tells me that it is, indeed, 16C/60F... no humidex.

    The kids ask me again: "Mommy, can we put on the sprinkler?"

    I want to say yes, but if that wind is as cold as it is when blasting through an open window (heh, I just wrote "winder" lol)... that'll be a big ole negatory good buddy.

    *sighs* But I need to tan my legs...

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

  • For My Own Records

    Body parts

    April 24, 08

    June 10, 08

    July 9, 08

    Neck

    13.5"

    13.5"

    13”

    Bicep

    13.5"

    12"

    13”

    Forearm

    11"

    10.25"

    10”

    Wrist

    6.5"

    6.25"

    6”

    Bust (under arms, around back, across boob)

    41"

    40.5"

    39.5”

    Chest (just below the bust/bra line)

    36"

    35.5"

    35.5”

    Waist

    34"

    33"

    32.25”

    Hips (thickest part- hips, ponch, and butt)

    46.5"

    44"

    44”

    Thighs

    28"

    26.5"

    24” (w00t!)

    Calves

    16"

    16"

    15”


    Within a month, I lost 5.25" off my body. Super shibby!!! Finally my legs are getting smaller. Ugh. Big fubly legs are nasty.

    I may not be losing much poundage, but I'm certainly losing inches... which is AWESOME.

    That's, like, 13.75" since April! O_O No wonder my clothing don't fit me anymore.

Tuesday, July 08, 2008