It seemed like that facebook is taking over the planet so nobody is really reading Xanga anymore.

Gee... sometimes I just don't think its worth my time at all, I spend endless hours on the phone to talk about the stuff thats really irrelevant to my future. I spend endless hours on the road to achieve some sort of equilibrium. Are those the only way to maintain something you have??

How big of a part does money play in relationships. I think or maybe even forced to put the fairy tales out of my head. I do know that you can not eat or drink or wear love. If love is suppose to comfort your soul and mind, what is the difference between love and religion. Or perhaps I should even say this. Why would you need Love if you have religion.

Maybe Love is based on animal instincts? The urges that humans have? Humans are the only animal that will have sex for pleasure only not for reproductive purposes. If Love is only used for the sheer pleasure for men kind. Why not just get prostitutes. Ok some might argue its the intimacy and the commitment which makes sex so great. However, if you do have some neuroscience back ground. You know drugs and alcohol can just smash that though. With a influence brain, you take away the burden of society. As moral value diminishes, what's left is only animal urges. Maybe STD is a major concern for most of the population. Science is going to change all that. Thats dwell on the topic for a moment. "Is science running antiparallel with moral values?"  Without worrying about health issues, men may experience pleasure as he please. Is the the utopia that men tries to achieve? or if there is more to just pleasure?

to be continued.... I don't know what I am going with this. its is 330am and I am just writing random thoughts that flies across my mind.

Trust??

How could one trust again if you have no faith anymore?

how could you believe if you don't trust?

I don't know you and I think you don't know me either.

How can you say something thats irresponsible?

How can I not care?

How.........

Random

This is when I met up with Iris @ Taipei Main Stations Starbucks. It was raining like Crazy that day. I ended up wearing a wet helmet for the little scooter I have. Sigh.... I had a crazy headache afterwards. The focus of this pic is not me or her, please look @ that huge earing of hers, LOL

Taiwanese Starbucks do not have the Venti option like we have in the states, actually they do, but their venti equals our Grande, Can you believe that shit... I regular is like a tall in the states and guess how much it cost?

$120NT you know you could get coffee for $35NT from Dante or some other local coffee joints. So why is Starbucks still in business? TV.... huge influence. Personally I think is a rip off...

Food in Taiwan is great but hey I really don't care much for food. I drove a lot to my relatives place. Ex. Hsing Tsu; Taichung ; Tauyuang just to name a few. Driving in Taiwan was fun, I am thinking about being a cab driver in Taipei for 1 summer, just for the heck of it you know. I want to do some many things, Maybe a DJ in ICRT for those of you who don't know what ICRT is. ICRT is FM100.7 its a English station.

Ok I do have jet lag, I went to sleep @ 2:00am and I woke up @ 5:30am, I know I have a 8o'clock class but 5:30 is way too early. 

Is my car going to be ready today?? I really want to know.... sigh I hope it is. I cant really live without my car.

Ok bye

Back in the States, Back to where reality is way more important than anything else.

Yes, this IS my 5th Year @ UT. Can you believe it? How much time have a wasted in the past 3yrs. Ever since I got into UT which is what? Sep 03, I started to waste time. Everybody is racing with TIME. It is really sad for me to see how everybody is graduating yet I am still here hanging around UT for no particular reason. Yes, I do want to go to Med School and Yes I do want a bright future. I guess my battle begins now.

To pin point my particular behavior pattern, I had a long chat with my dad. I always felt that I am under developed mentally. In a way that its sometimes very hard for me to grasp a concept when I am not at a particular age. Is it because my brain cells are developing slower than others? you know how with age your memorization ability decrease but your comprehension skills increase? It is kind of like drawing a supply and demand curve that you learned in ecomonics 101. It seems like my curve is abnormal. My dad told me that he had the same problems too when he was young. Genetics? Maybe.

that I really is need some anger management classes, I need to stay calm most of the time so I will be able function normally. I also need to learn how to hide my emotions. Fake No, its just a part of growing up