| this week is gonna be one of the best ever!
monday well nothing really monday lol
tuseday TREOS!
wednesday show with NO HOLLYWOODENDING!!
thursday band
friday show in homewood
saturday show at paulettes
sunday pictures!
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| Well alright I have alot on my mind right now. Today Jason and I visited my dad in the hospital in Chicago. He's getting alittle better so thats good, hes still kinda in bad shape but getting better also. We got into town and visited Kristin at work for a little then came to my house. They both left at like 10ish and Eric walked over here. Chilled with him then he left like 11 15 ish. I've been in a really deep mood tonight. I've been living to much in the past and thinking about the past way to much. Freshman/Sophmore year when I lived in Mokena I use to hang out with alot of kids/my friends at the time. I loved it so much, alot of them just dont talk to me anymore and it upsets the hell outta me. Like whenever I see a pic of them or anything I just become upset. It gets to me really emotionally and I've been trying not to let it the past year now...
Band is holding me together right now, so is skating alittle but if I didn't have those things and some of the friends I have right now I wouldnt be alive. I dont know I'm just in a really deep mood and I'm really thinking about things I could have changed and things I need to work on. Still single too :/ not like its a bad thing but ehh I dont know whatever. I would love it if everyone came to my bands show April 7 At Soundlab in Mokena. |
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| well eric, jason and i are sitting here bored, jasons doing homework. its already wednesday, i went to the hospital today well left at 2 got there at like 315ish dropped my mom off and didnt get home to about 530ish due to fucking traffic. friday im not doing anyone if anyone wants to hang out. saturday we are having all day band practice! im really excited to do that becuase i havent really seen the band or have had full day of practice. saturday night some of them are coming back to my house and hopfully find a party in wilmington or something. sunday im gonna go to the hospital then i have to go a meeting for our logan square auditorium show somewhere in the city. this should be very interesting. anyways yeah ummm leave me a comment or two lol xanga is dying to myspace lawzh
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| alright well as many of you know my dads been in the hospital. sunday morning my mom woke me up to her telling me to get up and she was in a ambulence on the way to the hospital. apprently my dad had a stroke then had a seizure so when my mom woke he was on the basement floor knocked out. they got him to joliet and i got there and it was bad. they started took a catscan then started surgery right away to get some of the blood outta his brain. he had 3 anurisms and 1 of them had been bleeding. it was very serious the doctors told us and had a slim chance of living. so they need a better hospital with a better team of doctors so after about 5 hours in joliet they air lifted him to uic hospital in the city. he had 3 more surgerys that night and they coiled the one anurism that had blead. he was knocked out for 3 more days. thursday he finally woke up for a minute and just said liek 3 words and went back outta it. today hes been talking alittle more but he doesnt remember anything at all not even his own name. hes gonna be in intesive care at uic for the next month and after that hes gonna have to stay another month for them to make sure theres no long term effects on what had happened. the past week my moms been at the hospital living up there practically. ive been having to watch my little brother the past week and take care of him. tomorrow im finally getting a break and going out with my friends to zero gravity! im really excited to go and see everyone. |
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| im starting to think about going to a doctor about being depressed so much. i know theres kids that have it alot worse then me and everything, i just dont know what gets me like this at all. i dont drink or anything to get the depression i get which is kinda wierd. my life is flying by way to quick and i need start taking every second precious but instead i blow it off and alot of people. some of my friends have been making me mad alittle bit lately but im just on the edge from being very nice to being in a horrible mood. i really shouldnt be complaining about anything really but i just need i have to get it out somehow and i guess typing it out is an alright way of doing it. i honestly cant wait for the summer. im never gonna be home or in this town, we are gonna have shows everywhere and next year hopfully all over the country. i just cant wait its gonna be such a pleasure to just get away from everything for sure. i dont know what to do with my self tonight though or the rest of the weekend. |
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