Seven things

The 7 things I hate about you
You're vain, you're games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

You're vain: You know that I want you..and you let me know how much you know. And you know that I'm right to want you. "Everybody does," right?

You're games: You're totally games. I'm never sure if you're playing with me or not.

You're insecure: I know the -real- you that nobody else knows. You're insecure as fuck.

You love me: Everybody know this is true. Really?

You like her: Seeing you all over all the other girls is completely fun to watch. Except I'm lying.

You make me laugh: Constantly.

You make me cry: Constantly.

The seventh thing I hate the most about you.....

You make me love you.

I see your true colors shining

I'm sorry I act like the WHORgan bitch. I'll never say "Twat did you say? I cunt hear you" ever again. I promise.

Maybe you're right about the closeness? I don't know. Maybe so. If so, though, is that a good thing, anyhow? I don't even know what I'm thinking... I like how you talked about how close we are though. That makes me happy and makes me feel like it's different between us. I like different.

I wanted it tonight and I know you did, too. Why do we let moments pass us by?

I watched Get Smart tonight. Freaking awesome movie..except I kept getting distracted by everybody scratching constantly. Codeine suckss.

Jessica makes my world go 'round. And Eric, of course. They're my new little entourage. Them, Carr and Rusty (:

I stayed at Brian's (handcuffed, might I add, LMAO) until 5:00 this morning w/ Jessica & Eric for a while. They're soooo cute. Then Jessica and I knocked on Carr's window and crawled into bed w him. Tonight, he said, "PLEASE NO SURPRISE EARLY MORNING VISITORS" :p He knows he loves our cuddlin' tho. I lOoOove me some snuggle buddy. After we woke up and took showers (we had the house to ourselves ^_^,) we went to Eric's and crashed in his bed for a while.

My life is complete because today, I got a carton of cigarettes!!! Holy YES! It's for Jessica and I to share. lol. It's cool, we share EVERYTHING these days. Today, Mom asked why we were becoming inseperable and what we had in common. lol. I think she wants me to say "DRUGS, BOOZE and FUCKING!" But, there's more than that shit. I told her my secret today.... hells yeah. She thinks it's whatev! SoOo hey! I think I should GO FOR IT.

Love you...goodnight. Can't wait to talk to you bright and early just like every morning. You're the reason I survive..you keep me happy from 630 am to midnight!

All I want is you (:

Black then white are all i see in my infancy.
red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me.
lets me see.
as below, so above and beyond, I imagine
drawn beyond the lines of reason.
Push the envelope. Watch it bend.

Life is so different. I'm so different. I'm so happy. 

I just got home from Disneyworld today. It's a magical little place. The fireworks at Cinderella's castle almost brought tears to my eyes. I'm talking...amazing place.

I missed my friends, I rode a lot of rides alone and I didn't smoke all week. But I had FUN.

Sam threw away my cigarettes, so I was BITCHY all week. Not my fault, haha. Take away things I'm craving and you deserve bitchiness! Duh! That's how life works.

My best joke all week was definitely --> Dock - "It's two doors down." Me - "Or THREE DOORS DOWN!!" haha.. Love it.

I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I know

I've lost interest in those boys I was interested in. Especially the one I'll be seeing probably a lot come August. In fact, he told me that he'd pretend like nothing was ever said..nothing was ever discussed..nothing ever happened. It's not like I liked him, though. I mean, he cured boredom and more things..more than once. And whenever I learned that there were other boys who were interested in being the cure, as well, I looked to them first and foremost. But he's still there when I'm feelin' restless. But he isn't as fun as he used to be when it was all new. (How did all this BEGIN, anyway?) Now, the only time I mention sex, it's with the one person who will probably ending up taking my virginity. Like I haven't given him enough of me, right?! ha. I'm still not positive about that situation but we've been talking about it seriously. It's almost fucking funny. Like, we recently discussed the afterwards situation and everything...

Hey, Brian Ryan wants to do something RIGHT NOW..so I'm going to go see what I can do!

And you could have it all

Amazing things I've done so far

1.) Gone to orientation.

2.) Made an awesome new friend, Erin.

3.) Drank ONE crown & coke 'n three beers at BJ's & threw up on campus..

4.) Went to a frat party (:

5.) Went back to Milldale and remembered EVERYTHING.

6.) Turned into a total SLUT. Minus sex.

7.) Started hanging out w/ Eric and Jessica G a lot.

8.) Loved and hated the same boy in 20 minutes.

9.) Drove Eric's truck home from Monroe.

10.) Rode w/ someone who was both drunk and high.

11.) Got really used to smot pokers.