Okay just to let everyone know.. That posting before this one IS NOT about Colby so stop acting like it is.. I have better things to do on my time.. So stop thinking its about him because it's not.. So stop hassling him and other people about it..

HE TOLD ME HE TOLD ME*! YAY*! I am so happy that u finally grew the balls to tell me u like me! Now I am excited*! LoL but I am scared becuase I like you but I am scared I may like someone else and they make like me.. :/ oh well just gonna roll with it is all I can do I guesss. But ya. I am sitting here in class next to Josh.. ( Who I was talking about up there ) And next to MOE MOE*! lol I love that girl.. I am super tired today I didn't get off the phone till 2 I was talking to Trent all night, he makes me smile.. :) and we talk about everyhting and get into some pretty deep convos so I was pretty happy.. lol but ya we talked about all sorts of things.. LoL anything you could possibly imagne we talked about it.. So ya..

Then my night got really good last night when I found out someone got caught drinking and is suspoened for 10-15 days LOL its funny funny funny*! So they are transfering to Choctaw, withc I have the power to prevent that b/c of who I know and I could make them go to MWC but I want that persn to be happy so ya.. It's w/e.. LoL but I think its funny that when u were with me you had straight A's never got into trouble, or anything.. But then now that I am gone u go crazy and throw all of that away.. Don't tell me that I take life to seriously b/c I don't but I do take it seriously when it comes to stuff like that because I wont end up like you.. AWW OFF MY CHEST thank god*! But I am gonna go I am in class ya*! This weekend is going to be awesome I am going to spend sometime with Josh and Trent.. And Amy's party is friday and she gets his liceanse on Wen 1 more day AMY DEAR*! WOO HOO*! Its gonna be a blast.. But ya.. Hope everyones's day goes good toddles

Well sorry its been a while sine I updated. I am a fag like that NOT.. Okay so this weekend was kinda cool.. I played softball all weekend we got beat out but it only the beginning of the season

so we will get better.. Now the question is how in the hell is my playing time going to go. Mark is turning back into an asshole so its hard to get threw to him on anything. So ya I played a little at second. But our coaches were being dick heads.. But I ALMOST hit on out on saturday morning.. It was SWEEt.. I was troating down first im liek its gone its gone its the wind that caught it.. LoL I was sad :( But megan hit 2 out in our second game and then KAyla almost hit 2 out but the girl was backed up agiasnt the fence about to catch it and caught it.. Dumb skinny bitch.. LoL Then on sunday we had practice I CAUGHT*! It was so much fun, its something I have always wanted  to do and now I did it and now they are going to catch me more.. SUPER excited*! YAY*! Then after softball I went out with Allison... FUN STUFF ITS BEEN A WHILE*!

But on guys.. I freaking dont understand why I can't find a guy that smiles everytime he sees make, that can have a bad day and I just make him happy just to talk to me or something. Someone that does what they say they are going to do.. Someone that will radnomnly call me, ask me whats wrong, tell me im pretty even when I look like crap, someone that I can cry on and everything.. I just miss that person majorly.. IT makes me sad it really does.. I just want a guy again, I miss that.. I miss having that body to hug and cuddle with and be my self around and everything. It's so depressing really. I want someone that can make me smile again and everything. I WANT A GUY TO LIKE ME AND ME LIKE HIM AND IT NOT GET MESSED UP SOMEHOW*! UH*! But oh well just gotta be happy with what I have got. But ya..   I just don't know.. I mean I like people but I am scared and I don't know if they like me.. So stressed out over it and its stupid to.. STUPID STUPID STUPID*!   PLEASE SAVE ME FROM THIS*!

OH and another thing.. If you like me freaking tell me b/c I like you*! I think you alreayd know that by now but ya.. Just freaking tell me how you feel my god its not going to kill you. Tell me what is going on, I am sick of being confused.. UH*! ( Josh)