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| - Sic Transit Gloria "Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades"
Brand New
Keep the noise low.
She doesn't wanna blow it.
Shaking head to toe
while your left hand does "the show me around."
Quickens your heartbeat.
It beats me straight into the ground.
You don't recover from a night like this.
A victim, still lying in bed, completely motionless.
A hand moves in the dark to a zipper.
Hear a boy bracing tight against sheets
barely whisper, "This is so messed up."
Upon arrival the guests had all stared.
Dripping wet and clearly depressed,
he'd headed straight for the stairs.
No longer cool, but a boy in a stitch,
unprepared for a life full of lies and failing relationships.
(Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.)
He keeps his hands low.
He doesn't wanna blow it.
He's wet from head to toe and
his eyes give her the up and the down.
His stomach turns and he thinks of throwing up.
But the body on the bed beckons forward
and he starts growing up.
The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.
She hits the lights.
This doesn't seem quite fair.
Despite everything he learned from his friends,
he doesn't feel so prepared.
She's breathing quiet and smooth.
He's gasping for air.
"This is the first and last time," he says.
She fakes a smile and presses her hips into his.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He's holding back from telling her
exactly what it really feels like.
He is the lamb, she is the slaughter.
She's moving way too fast and all he wanted was to hold her.
Nothing that he tells her is really having an effect.
He whispers that he loves her,
but she's probably only looking for se-...
(Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.)
So much more than he could ever give.
A life free of lies and a meaningful relationship.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He waits for it to end
and for the aching in his guts to subside.
The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.
Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.
The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe you weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed but now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.
Kinda sad...
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| I GOT A JOB!!
The first place I went to didn't look too promising but I wasn't thrilled about it anyway. It was a bar and I was just looking to get the summer partiers. Hey- it was a smart idea.
The next place I went I was there for a total of 20 minutes and walked out with the W-4 form. She said, "I just hired someone but you have great experience, can you be here Monday the 20th?" And I'm like, for a second interview? And she's like, "No, to start!"
This is such a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. It's a nice steakhouse and as I was leaving to come back to Houston I saw that the parking lot was pretty full. That's nice for a Wednesday night.
Besides that my car is now fixed. $412!!!!! Makes me want to cry. I get a little ahead and then something happens. I'd like to spend my savings on something other than an emergency for once. | | |
| Well, I think I'm more confused than ever. I thought I knew what I wanted and then certain things start revealing themselves and it's just not what I thought at all.
I want someone who is more on my level with things. I don't want to have a long list of requirements- I just want someone on my level. And everytime I heard someone say that I would be like- come on- there's so much more to a guy than just a level! But I understand now.
I went out Thursday. I met up with Rachel at work and we waited for Jason (her bf) to get off work and then we waited on David to get off work. In the meantime, she had her drink and I had my water (keep in mind that this is a bar) because I'm not 21 yet  . We were bored so Rita (this lady in one of our bands that plays at the restaurant) calls me out to sing some kereoke. I sang Angel by Sara Maclachlan and I didn't completely butcher it. It was fun. Then we went to this pub up the street and saw this band play. They were really good. I went up to the base player afterwards- since K'Lynn you know my thing for base players. They're so chill and it didn't hurt that he was a cutie. Kinda shy, but a cutie. But we've been talking a little bit since that night. Kinda fun. 
And then Saturday night i worked of course but met up with everyone again and went to this other little sports bar. So much fun. Everyone is drunk and yellin out stuff about the fight on the screen. Again I'm sittin with my water ....yelling too. lol. I have fun! With or without booze! Afterwards we headed to Rachel's and I was tired. So we called it an early night at about..... 4:30. Lol. | | |
| I've been sick for the past couple of days so I called in sick to work Friday. My boss was pretty cool about it (we're short staffed right now) but said I had to come in Saturday. I was even worse Saturday. I went up to a table to take their order and you know when you have that cough were the back of your throat itches and your eyes water- yea, that happened. I had to excuse myself in the middle of talking to them. Very embarasing. I'm sure they're like, why in the world is this sick girl taking handling our food. My thoughts exactly! So I got someone to run my food for me. I'm with you- I don't want a sick waitress. But what could I do? It was that or you don't get served at all lady. They were cool. I'm sure it was at least a 15% tip- I don't remember. I did ok.
I finally saw that movie Waiting. VERY FUNNY. I could definitely relate. If you watch it and see that short brown haired girl- think of me. Lol, that's really how it goes. You get so pissed off but are just peachy to your table. I'm not that extreme but I get so irritated sometimes. Like Saturday (the day i was sick) I probably repeated the special to this one lady like four times no joke. I wanted to say it didn't change in the course of five minutes! Good Lord. And I delivered some food to one of my tables and Iknow the lady ordered a drink from the bar so i said, "Ma'am I'll be right back with your drink but is there anything else I can bring you?" What do you think she asked for? I said I'd bring it damn it!
No one reads this. This is for my own enjoyment. Especially since this one is so long. O well.
So I got my own place- did I mention that? I'm so excited! Theresa is going to be my roomey and I'm in the process of decorating. Grandma is giving me the futon since she wanted to sell it anyway and I got a pretty black cover for it. I'm looking for a comfy black love seat or a chair to go with it. My mom is giving me these pretty end tables that are going to go perfect with the kitchen table I found! And that works since the dining room and the living room are almost the same thing. It's two story so our bedrooms are upstairs. I'm getting my mom's old bed set- it's like this black canopy type bed but I probably won't use the canopy. I just liked it because it matched my curtain rods and omigosh who ever thought that I'd be talking about this! Tell me to quit and move on to a baseball game or something!
I should tell you a little about Valentines Day- are you ready for the drama? Well, this girl got caught by her boyfriend/baby's daddy (whatever he is) messing around (haha- very heavily) after work with one of our waiters (who's a complete ass sometimes). Long story short she had to quit or her boyfriend was going to kick her out. See, Valentines Day just sucks. It's a horible holiday. haha, actually mine turned out great. no complaints.
And if you haven't seen GREY'S ANATOMY you don't know what you are missing! I couldn't begin to tell you how good it is so just watch it. Awesome show. A++++
And I'm currently single. Just thought I'd repeat that. haha, I can't wait to quit this job and move! I cannot wait. There will be a big party and no excuses- you must be there! There's a lake, two pools, a golf course (the driving range is like ten feet from my front door!) and all this other stuff. I'm so excited!!! Yay!!! Now I have to tell my grandma and I really don't know how I'm going to do that. I mean, I appreciate her taking me in but on the other hand- I live in a box, have no life, and pay her rent. So, it's time to put my money to something I'll actually enjoy. I cannot wait! | | |
| - Save Me Valentine's Day is now officially my favorite holiday! I mean, what better excuse then this crappy holiday to go out and get completely wasted! I have my excuse. lol
Ok, just kidding. I worked so there wasn't much to my day except Mandy and Rodney came in and I got to wait on them. It was fun.
And I have been talking to this older guy for about two months now who I thought was different because- hey- he's older. That means more mature. That means, over the playing games, cheating, being shysty and a liar, etc. Well I found out that age doesn't really matter either. On VALENTINES DAY his FIANCE calls me. I'm done. Sign me up for the convent. | | |
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