New Xanga sry guys just ask me for it......have to change cuz of stupid fucking people

*Ashley*

EDIT: this is the newest one: Well see i I am aliuttle stressed but happy right now....I about lost the one thing that means most to me right now...Lauren.....I had to fuck things up by saying things that weren't true and i hope she will forgive me...

LAuren: I love you so much and i really hope you know that....you mean so much to me and people just keep trying to fuck up our relationship i hope not to lose you anytime soon i love you so much!

*Ashley*

Someone answer me this.......when you have an ex that you seriously went through so much shit with and you loved a lot and are just getting over them completely and want them out of your life and then your bestfriend starts dating them is taht wrong or am i being completely stupid......

Well today was pretty fucked up i was pissed all day and just wanted to kill someone i miss lauren and then dealing wtih everyone elses shit didn't help.....but whatever i am so tired of my friends backstabbing me.....bye

*Ashley*

Edit:

I am bored and trying to get shit off my mind so here

List 20 people you know in no particular order:

1. Ryan
2. Andi
3. Brian
4. Lauren 
5. Caitlin
6. Brittni
7. J.R.
8. Ashley
9. Darrell
10. Cassidy
11. Cory
12. Morgan
13. Ben
14. Laura
15. Nreek
16. Trent
17. Shelby
18. Jessica
19. Elliotte
20. Jasmine

01. How did you meet 13?

In encor in the 8th grade

02. What would you do if you never met 5?
IDK....she is my best friend and i love her to death

03. Have you ever liked 3?
i don't think i have.....he is like my brother i love him to death

04. What do you honestly think of 10?
I think she is awesome....I love her to death and love hanging out with her she is easy to talk to and such a fun person

05. Would or did 19 and 8 go out?
NOpe.......both girls and niether are lesbians

06. If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know?
That i love him to death even tho i can be a complete bitch sometimes i love him a lot and that he is such an awesome person....he has always been here for me and i really appricate it....i would want to tell him that i really care even if i don't act like it sometimes.....thanks for everything ryan i love you!

07. Would 2 and 11 make a good couple?
Nope.....both guys.....andi is my little gay boy but cory isn't gay so i don't think that would work

08. Describe 6 in 3 words
Fun
Loud
good friend

09. Do you think 12 is hot?
Um........no she is my cuzion but she is very pretty

10. Would 1 and 17 ever go out?
NO.......IDK if they even know each other and ryan is gay so doesn't work

11. What do you think of when you see 18?
some who is on drugs and fucks around with a lot fo guys....i love you jessica

12. Tell me something humiliating about 11?
IDK........cory is always funny so i'm not sure

13. Do you know any of 7's family members?
Yeah i know most of his family i dated him

14. What's 20's favorite color?
IDK prolly black

15. On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?

10.......shes a cute i love her

16. What would you do if 4 just professed their undying love for you?
Um.......well we are dating and she tells me she loves me all the time so i hope its true lolz

17. What language does 19 speak?
English DUH

18. Who is 8 going out with?
Um.....yeah the stupid bitch is dating my ex J.R. god i hate her!!!!!!

19. Does 2 have any siblings?
Nope..

20. Would you ever date 7?
um.........for one i did date him and got hurt and i want nothing to do with him and the the little bitch ashley can have him and i will laugh in her face when she gets hurt!!!!

21. Is 15 single?
I think so

22. What is 10's fantasy?
IDK and idk if i want to know that lol

23. What school does 16 go to?
Maize

24. Where does 9 live?
here in wichita

25. Would you make out with 13?
um......sry but prolly not

26. How did you meet 15?ly
iSchool through cory maybe idk 

27. What grade is 17 in?
Junior)

28. When was the last time you talked to 12?
IDK its been awhile I really miss her.....Boogan call me

29. What is 3's favorite band?
Um.....to tell the truth idk really.....thats sad considering she is my girlfriend but i really don't

Yeah well i am done with that thingi will talk to everyone later love ya all

*Ashley*

I AM SO FUCKING TIRED OF ALL THIS SHIT........ALL THE FUCKING LIEING.........I AM DONE WITH IT............i'll update more later

*Ashley*

EDIT:

yeah that last entry was when i was alittle pissed but yeah....i am so tired right now.....and i have been thinking about a lot of things and i realize how much i really care about lauren i mean i know i have said that but now i realize how much she really means to me and how much i really love her.....It's been hard not being able to be with her but we will be with eachother soon....But yeah.....I think she is actaully serious about all this to at first i doubted it but today she told me how much she really cared and loved me so i feel a lot better now but i gtg

*Ashley*

Hey everyone well yeah....I have been staying at my grandpas for the past however many days it was but yeah saturday was so awesome....besides fighting with both my mom and dad and sister....i left and went to my grandpas and called lauren and she asked me back out so i got my girl back....Miranda still is causing her usual problems but whatever she can back off lauren is my girl....but yeah other then that i ahd a lot of time to think about things....Which is somewhat good and bad....I talked to lauren a lot to and i got to relax and not worry about getting yelled at...But yeah....School is okay...i am just tired of it...and i am tired of being home...But my mom and dad are prolly getting me a car this weekend....they can't find one they like right now so idk when i am getting it but hopefully really soon and then i have to get a job....

Yeah well i am tired fo some people being so stupid about em and lauren dating now i just wish some people would realize how much i truely love her and how much happier i am now that i have her....I know a lot of people think that its stupid cuz its a long distance relaitonship but when you love someone this much its not stupid and they only one who really understands that is ryan.....him and andi are really similar to me and lauren....but seriously if you have a prob with me dating lauren then fuck you....if you would just look and see how much happier i am now that i have her

*Ashley*

<3 Lauren

Hey......OMG the story of the year concert was fucking awesome!!!!........I got to hang out with all my friends and it would of been better if my lauren was there but she wasn't.........But yeah i was so tired at school today.......god....but it was worth it.....I miss lauren so much tho!! i will update later love ya all

*Ashley*

Lauren: i love you so much baby girl and i miss you and just know i am always here for you and i love you with all my heart!