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Name: Brittney Murtha
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Birthday: 12/28/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: I heart Music- Bright eyes, The Used, Blindside, Matchbox Romance, My chemical Romance, The Cure, Dead Poetic, Emery, From first to last, Further Seems Forever, Project 86, Underoath, TBS, Thursday, Senses Fails, As I lay Dying, Brandnew, Bayside, Nada Surf, Thrice, Finch, Alkaline Trio, AFI, Story of the Year, Boy Hits Car, Copleland, Death Cab, Hellogoodbye, Norma Jean, Posion the well, Benton Falls, A.A. Rejcts, At the drive in, Ben folds five, Straylight, Postal Service, Demon Hunter, The early November, Desaparecidos, Radiohead, Hatebreed, Hey Mercedes, Harvey Danger, The Shins, The Starting Line, The Blood brothers, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, White Strips, The Strokes, INCUBUS <3, Gary Jules, Jack Johnson,and alot more.
Anything Emo/Screamo
Expertise: Being a Unique Individual, Art and Paintings,My camera, Photography, Creating new things, Friends, People that make me smile, being too Emo for you, Enjoy talking with people that aren't full of themselves, Lip Rings, [I want one like hell] Tight jeans on guys, riding dirt bike, and running
I look up to Gwen Stefani, Bonnie Mckee, and Karen Orzolek for their styles
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
AIM:  Murtha21
Member Since:
11/6/2004
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| No words could describe how I feel right now. I feel as though my madness has left me with the feeling of an unanswerable question towards the future. To be honest I don't really know what that means, but I can say that great things come to thoughs who wait. These unbearable atrocities of the past have now left me in the unknowing...to what might happen next....just when you thing you know whats around the bend...its hits you right in the face. Then you smile...cause what was in your blurred vision was the best thing that ever happened to you.
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i am sorry i can not care about you anymore. this has to be the most selfish thing i have ever done. but tell me what did you expect? i have spent 2 years of my life not focusing on anything other than you but yet you consistantly played mind games.i understand if you hate me for this. but, really is it necessary to beat a dead horse?
you were never really in love with me though thats the thing. i only liked the idea of us, but yet.. where was the reality. you have never given anything out of LOVE to me. (note:this doesnt refere to gifts, sex, money..)what do i have to show that you loved me so you'd say. i do not, in fact, believe you are truly capable of love. you have left me with nothing but the ability to not be touched or loved without beleiving that everything was one big fucking lie, and that the person only loves me because he does not know anything better-- for, certainly. you wont come close into finding another girl like me. i was addicted to loving you. not anymore.
But i do know there will be someone special out there for me, and you.. you will be 53 years old sitting in a bar or strip club blowing your money, on account you do love you spend your money- and Girls are your hobby.
On the other hand.. Im so proud of my mom, shes staying so strong through-out every day. Even though money is really tight,and she crys every night she does her best to keep this family in order and together. Shes here for me even when my time are hard in every kind of way. She is the most amazingest person in the world. I love her. My step sisters wedding is next week and everyone is just going completly out of their mind getting things together at the last min. My mom has been a big help with that. My brother got his perminit FINALLY.. so he can drive me places soon 
At last I come to a conclusion. Im done with this xanga for awhile now. "nourish my iron lung"-- MY LUNGS CAN BREATHE FINALLY, and these eyes.. This Blue eyes of mine.. can actually see whats good in life and see that there are so many Beautiful, un-scumbag, people to met. I'm ready to take on a challenge. As soon as i come up with a new xanga name that suits with me I will post it up here till then...
ITS TIME TO ROCK AND ROLL BITHCES! hahaha
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