ok... so... i spent about 8 total hours on the computer today and i must say i am quite proud... i got a picture on me thingy now... it only took 2 hours to figure out... dee-duh-dee! so yeah... i still need music and a cool background though... so..........................

...................................................... HELP!

oh the drama! why am i a fucking sap when it comes to matt??? i keep holding onto hope that we will be together again. but i finally think now we're in a better place w/ things. we have a mutual understanding. we're friends, but single friends.... so i have the freedom to date and so does he but when he comes home we're gonna see how we feel. for whatever reason, i just can't let go. i don't think he can either.

also... someone help me w/ this goddamn myspace thing!!! how do i get music? how do i get a cool background? how do i put my comments on my opening page? ugh.... any answers are greatly appreciated!!!

ok, ok, sorry about the mean comment towards britt.... i think i'm even sorrier that i'm the only one w/ the balls to say that she is a hippocrit. the eye thing was wrong though and i take full responsibility for it. i mean, she did admit that she was wrong to play that shit w/ me... but it took a whole month for her to understand, so thats that. i am no friend of hers.

on a positive note... i got some booty! (pardon my bluntness w/ my life right now.... but fuck it, i'm happy!) no serious dating or anything, but billy is what i need right now... a friend w/ benefits, and thats all. fuck trying to save what i had w/ matt... its gone and not coming back, which is actually a good thing. he's a friend, no more than just that. he's a mentally high maintenence kinda guy which i can't deal w/ right now or at all i think. he's just too complex. my curfew will be extended beginning next weekend so who's down for chillin? sorry to those who i haven't yet called... work takes up a lot of time and this curfew shit is killin me, but i'll be making my calls in a few days.

i hope everyone had a lovely thanksgiving.... take it easy.

i have a new friend... my boss at work, billy. i hated him at first, like, honestly couldn't stand him, thought he was the grumpiest fucker on the planet... but turns out he's not so bad. no relationship potential, or even sex potential which is perfectly fine w/ me considering i wanna try to salvage whats left of my relationship w/ matt, but billy is just someone new to hang out w/ and talk to. and he invited me to a new years party that he and his friends throw every year... open bar, dj, and cool people. can't wait!

brittany treat is a hipocrit in every sense of the word. got pissed off at amanda and moira for ditching her for their b/f's and now she's pulling the same shit w/ everyone else. fucks zach on the couch when mo and dan are right there (eeeww). says she misses me, loves me, wants to be there for me and now she doesn't even have the balls to say anything to me in person. she's a coward and kelley lynch should punch her in the lazy eye. i don't care if i'm being a bitch... i'm sick of being nice to people who don't give a fuck about me and fuck w/ my feelings. britt, i'm going through a hard enough time as it is and your bullshit doesn't help, so fuck you.

me and alicia are on the fast track to getting the fuck out of our houses. sooo excited! just need to save up some cash, look around for places, and then move. its gonna be awesome.

hope everyone is doing alright, ttyl