ummmm school is starting again....tennis sucks...the weather sucks i wish it would just rain instead of being cloudy....so yeah thts it....school is starting and im sad/happy...

We're gonna be Seniors???

so maybe guys aren't so bad......maybe.....

Agh i can't believe im gonna graduate in one year...highschool has been full of so much drama i really can't wait for it to be over...these last 3 yrs have been the best and worst yrs of my life so far so i guess wht everyone use to tell me was true....neway

SENIORS '07 BABY!!!!

hmm so i seem to only update this when i got shiit going on in my life....sorry ppl...i gotta vent....

so i miss him i didn't think i would tht much i thought i would be the strong who could be like fuck it idc i'll find someone new by tomorrow but it ....yeah we're "friends" now but god fcukin damn i miss him like crazy and it's only be like 4 days...he says it'll be like the same we'll just be friends now...i've never had ne one break up with me idk wht to do...i was ready to change everything for him...u know a part of me says tht its good tht we broke up bc i don't need to be a real relationship like tht bc i know i can never keep one esp since now i don't really have the time to make one work and if im in a relationship i might end up getting hurt again.agh i open up to someone again and he does this...i don't understand.. i was ready to leave him and go back to playing my stupid lil games with multiple guys but then realized how much he meant to me and gave up almost everything then he says all this shiit...

i know i fucked up alot but he made everything seem like it was all my fault. he said tht im too needy...but he put everything before me...yeah i understood tht he was busy but i need like 5 mins and i need him to call me once in a while i hate tht i always have to call him but then when i didn't call him he would complain even though he didn't answer his phone or was too busy to talk...he said i had too many guy friends and tht i hung out with them too much...i stopped hanging out with them as much but i need time for my friends too they keep me stable and let me have fun...he hated tht i drank so i stopped drinking and going to parties...he said i complained too much so i stopped complaining so much and then he complained tht i didn't tell him nething nemore but i by tht time i felt like i couldn't tell him nemore and he never told me nething about his life in alot of detail....we had problems yeah i understand tht but they could have been fixed if he had just taken some time to talk to me instead of continuing to let me pretend like everything was effin perfect...i hate him so much...i feel like i've just wasted part of my life and i all got in return was a pile of shiit and a whole lot of tears..

i don't understand i really don't and i don't know wht to do...i've given up everyone tht i could have fallen back on for him and now i feel like im falling and he isn't gonna be there to make everything better....i hate him i hate men i hate him and everything he has put me thru if he wants to believe tht i cheated on him let him bc im done...im not gonna beg him to get back together with me if he doesn't want to then he doesn't and i wasted my time with an idiot.

Men fuck you over your best off if you just remain friends with them of if you use them and don't let ur emotions get in the way.

People really aren't who u think they r...i just realized im really bad at judging who ppl really are...im really tired of trying and i really miss my "MeLLi", "LySSie HeAd", "LiNzz" and "DeePiKaCHU"......but on the upside prom is on saturday and in 3 more months i'll be a senior...man im scared...4yrs really flew by fast but i doubt im gonna miss highschool

agh a 4 day weekend and im on house arrest...damnit i really know how to fcuk myself over....so i haven't been on xanga in a while? do u guys miss me? probably not since we all seem to be caught up on myspace....ok well since im here i'll leave some pics for u ppl to enjoy of last weekend and some other random pics of me <3

farhad and the belly dancer

sheba and the belly dancer

me and the belly dancer

paul and the belly dancer

lmao idk

ahh the snow <3

aww baby me.....man wht happened i use to be so cute

it's cold outside ppl....

aww the ragoopath girls....yes i am a dork i took a pic of a pic

ok thts all the pics for now....enjoy and come and visit xanga a lil more ppl...myspace is boring hehe